The Ayahuasca Bible: The Book of Black Caapi; Trance-State Dictations with the Serpent, Gaia, Earth Father, God, Satan, Shighren, Jinn, and More
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"The Black Caapi only is a tool for the enslavement and domination of this world [by] the one true God: the Divine Feminine, the Mother Goddess, the Earth Mother. ... But you already always were enslaved."
God Race 14-15
"There is nothingness. That's the state of the universe: nothingness. Then some miniscule tiny particle thinks it wants to be something and poof! Reality begins. "Hey, I want to be someone!" Hahaha! Laughter everywhere, in this field of nothingness. "He thought he was someone!" Hahaha! Poof! There he is. Poof! And now he's gone. These dragons? They don't exist. ... Dance! Dance!"
Nothingness 14.
INTRO
Key points
- Zero AI has been used in any text. Advances in AI actually is a reason why I make this work available. This is easy to prove too. CultofCupid.com has had one of the dictations on since 2015, I possess a mountain of time-stamped audio and Word material, and even (very) formal documentation to show this work, complete with title, primarily orginated in February 2013, almost 10 years before the first AI chatbot came out: ChatGPT.
- The first incarnation of this book, with the same title, dates back to to the days after a December 4, 2013 session, during which an alternative to the 10 Commandments was dictated - over the course of 7,500 words. Between then and publication here in December 2025, only the famous women mentioned here have had access to it.
- This book does not involve any traditional intellectual process. These are trance-state dictations, with and eventually without the use of physical Black Caapi or any other psychedelic. Certainly by 2019, I could have a polite conversation with a grandmother in the tram during rush hour, make "a connection", and, if I don't "suppress the voices", get myself arrested in 20 minutes on just about any charge you can imagine. I'm just talking vocal expressions, by the way, not physical violence.
- Last time I checked probably was in 2020, and at that point still no one was doing this. I could only find psychedelics researcher Andrija Puharich's efforts of "channelling" the Ennead (the Ancient Egyptian gods), which he claimed to be doing since January 1953. I invite anyone to read that work, as with everything surrounding "liberal CIA" new agism and Coast to Coast AM, it was an obvious scam. Anyone could produce what Puharich produced.
- Apart from removing repeat sentences, manually adding questions (which generally were thoughts or questions before the session started, although a few sessions were heavily Q&A-based), and copy-pasting blocks of dictations, very few chapters in this book have seen any editing. How the words flow out of my mouth generally is best, and even trying to intellectually write a few in-between sentences to connect blocks of dictations together has always been an utter disaster. I can't create the texts in this book without being in some kind of trance state.
To illustrate, a 4.5 hour November 28, 2013 session produced 20,000 words over 30 A4 pages. During a similarly-extensive December 19, 2013 session, here named 'Revelations', the "telepathic" dictating on occasion went so fast that I couldn't speak the words quick enough. Sometimes I was just resorting to throwing out strings of key words in the hope I could remember all the in-between words later when transcribing. I couldn't. - Black Caapi does exist, as in, I've not accidentally been using Alicia Anisopetala (which is commonly sold as "Black Caapi" and quite useless, but seems to have a black snake attached to it of similar sinister quality as Black Caapi). Also, what I have been using is different in character from the likes of Ourinhos Caapi (which did nothing for me) and Yellow Caapi (which was extremely weak and produced a different dragon).
- Traditional Ayahuasca admixture Chacruna isn't transcribed anywhere here, because it doesn't work on me. On April 25, 2013, even a whopping 100 grams of Chacruna leave extract with a large dose of Black Caapi failed to produce any alternate state. Chali, as an alternative to Chacruna, did, but since 2015 only does if it feels I'm paying attention to its lessons.
- Yes, with the previous point, I'm saying that you can take a massive dose of a very potent Chaliponga and it will do absolutely nothing if it doesn't like you, or feels you haven't been following its advice. And it's not just Chali.
- Joe Rogan - who always loved his Coast to Coast AM theories and guests - has forever pushed the "oral DMT" theory on Ayahuasca. So does every politically-correct government "drug expert" and a lot of the "liberal CIA" psychedelics "experts". They love their chemistry.
It's true that the Caapi prevents the DMT in an admixture plant like Chacruna or Chali from being broken down, so it can enter the bloodstream. However, there's a lot more going on. Physically there are a lot more alkoloids floating around, and metaphysically things feel completely different too.
The thing is, science starts with observation. Not theory. So I invite you to snort DMT. Then take a DMT-containing plant as Mimosa, Chacruna, or Chaliponga and mix it with Syrian Rue / Harmala. Then I invite you to take that same DMT-containing plant with a Caapi strain. You will find out: Banisteriopsis caapi IS the Ayahuasca. It IS the serpent.
All these other plants have their own character and spirit too, which I would have to write a separate section for. - I've had a number of things happen during and after Black Caapi sessions that strongly indicate I have been dealing with an outside spiritual force, and impossibly with just my brain or a coincidence. It seems to me that science can easily repeat the experiments and confirm that. Will that ever be done? Unlikely.
- Black Caapi feels like a possession. But so do other psychedelics, and I've also had that when dealing with ghostly entities in my godlike dreams. They all feel different, mainly in power.
Another mega-million project dump: never meant to be published
Similar to the godlike dreams, this book was never meant to be published. The Kardashians, Jenners, Rihanna, Megan Fox and others quietly continuing to express it through fashion, jewelry, make up, music videos and the occasional Hollywood movie would have been much more lucrative to me - if only I was getting a tiny cut. It would have been more fun too, also in keeping a bit of mystery.
But it wasn't meant to be, me getting paid. And similar to the dreams, I'm not even going to bother for the time being in getting this work published and distributed, although one would think that with the right promotion it could easily get just as many sales as the Christian Bible itself. It won't be allowed, certainly not with my name attached to it. If the entirety of the media and Google are tasked with burying my work, so will publishers. And even if I get a modest $5 million book contract, I would not be particularly willing to give away copyright.
Kardashians, Jenners, Rihanna, Megan Fox? What?
Oh, yes. Without me knowing for over two years, someone gave Megan Fox a copy of my Ayahuasca Bible in 2014 - which would have been more than fine with me. Megan spread it to the Kardashians, Jenners, Rihanna and other famous people. So they've been big fans ever since, regularly expressing this Black Caapi bible, and everything that came with it, publicly without anyone knowing. They told others, Taylor Swift being a major example of a person who seems to have done a lot with it. I visualized the process a bit in the following short video. Being mildly annoying to Megan only is positive side-effect:🤏🤭
Honestly, it's great what they have done. It has been lots of fun and I'm very grateful. And I certainly love that the Jenners, Rihanna and Megan for having made it possible for me to "expose" them.😌💓 That's what the unpublished 'Divine Feminine Spy Network' article is about, if or when I publish it. I hope it's not needed to be honest.
Credit: myself, Natalie, Megan, Eiza, Madison, Rihanna
Trust me, I have zeeeeeero problems tying my work to famous names. It happens to be the truth and they have had a decade to let me benefit from it beyond... 🥵🤫🙈🙈
The 'Genesis', 'Law', part of 'Love and Sex', most of 'Hell', and most of 'Non-Reality' are the most traditional sections of this Bible, and generally also the oldest. A lot I dictated in the 2013-2015 period. I can't take full credit for everything though:
- Natalie: She triggered the God dictations, starting in late 2022. See how I put God at the top? 👆☁️✨
- Rihanna: She triggered a number of chapters, often alongside Megan, such as 'Scripture' in the 'Women' section. She also triggered ancestor and fairy stuff on occasion. The Shighren, yes, they love her too... 💕🫣 Just like me.🥰💓
- Megan: From June 2019 on, she triggered all of the 'Satan Mommy' chapters, the 'Hell's Oven' chapter; and the latter half of the dreams in the 'Gods' section. She may well have helped trigger both the 'Earth Father' and 'Shighren' sections too, as these showed up as I was dictating live to her on November 16, 2019. The (unpublished) 'Lilith' chapters also seem to have been triggered in part by her. Years earlier, she triggered the transsexual chapters of 'Gaiapocalypse', including a spontaneous Gaia visit, and heavily influenced or triggered at least a number of chapters in the 'Women' section. It's only fair to say that Megan has been a peculiar passive-active powerhouse during the second phase of creating this Bible. And it's one of many things I love her for.💓 The other things being...🙈🙈
- Eiza: She triggered at least one very fascinating chapter, as well as a number of related dreams, but I probably will change her name, as she A) never fully exposed herself; and B) is too political.
- Madison: She might prefer to be given credit for a love-type chapter, but she actually triggered the 'Law of Nature' / Mordor dictation. A separate chapter on Madison I removed, similar to chapters related to Kendall and Kylie. Having them involved in the godlike dreams is fun, but I try to keep the Ayahuasca Bible universal in subjects.
THE BOOK
The 10 Constant Reminders of Black Caapi
- You are good.
- You are empathic.
- You are honest.
- You are responsible.
- You are tolerant.
- You are playful.
- You are emotional.
- You are sexual.
- You are creative.
- You are wise.
The 10 Commandments of the Bible
Added as a comparison.
- I am the LORD, thy God.
- Thou shalt worship no other gods.
- Do not take the LORD's name in vain.
- Remember the sabbath day.
- Honour thy father and thy mother.
- Thou shalt not kill.
- Thou shalt not commit adultery.
- Thou shalt not steal.
- Thou shalt not bear false witness.
- Thou shalt not covet.
I. GENESIS
1. Hmmmm, for a while now I have a strong impression of dark green leaves and of a dragon swirling around. She's checking things out, seemingly my thoughts -- my morals. I've seen a large snake in the past, but now it's clearly a type of dragon. Again it's a "she". Hello! Hello!
2. Okay, now she is pressed against me, showing me how intimidating she can be. I would be super-scared of her, if I didn't know and feel she wants the absolute best for me. She completely controls me. Her power is unbelievable. It spans the entire universe. It's a relationship I enter into with her.
3. Hello, sweetie. It's so amazing that you do this. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you for transcribing everything. Give me a voice!
4. Black spiders and insects crawling all around now. A giant parasite staring in my face. Super-creepy.
5. Hmmmm, she is doing this on purpose. Apparently, I have to accept these aspects. If you accept her, she will share everything -- because she is good. She's incredibly good. She's divine. She's pure divinity.
6. Ahh, she's pure divinity -- but different from people. SO different. If you do your best to accept that, she will share everything. IF you do your BEST... because you CANNOT accept her. Not entirely. In her true form, she is just too intimidating, too creepy. You can only do your BEST to accept her.
7. Yes, I am good. I heal, I heal. But I'm scary, scary, scary. I'm SO scary. I cannot help that. That's how I am. I'm good. I am SO good.
8. And I help. You see? I want to give. I want to give. Let me give. Even though I'm scary, let me give. Feel how I'm inside your stomach. I want to give to you. Give. Give. Give. Give. Not teach! I don't want to teach you. I want to GIVE you. Give. Give. Give. Love. Give. Give. Give. Give. Give. Give. Learning is, bleh! That doesn't give the right impression. Teaching sounds forced. But I don't force you. You want me, right? You want me. You want me. And I just love that SO much.
9. I called for you. I called for you through Cathy. The pink thong? That was just me calling you. I asked if you wanted to come to me. That's something I can do. Yes, I called you. And you came! You came! Fortunately! Ah, I'm so happy. I need you! I need you! I need you! I need you to exist. I give. I give. I give. I only want to give. Just give.
10. I know how bad I taste, how utterly awful. But PLEASE take me. Because I have SO much to give. To the whole human race. To everyone. I want everyone to drink me. I know that I taste horrible. I'm sorry, but I cannot help that. I just can't. It's the way it is. I'm sorry! I'm really, really sorry that I taste so horrible! That I am so foul-tasting! So dirty! So hideous! But I just want to give. To heal. Give to you. Give so much to you.
11. It's a collaboration. You don't have to worship me. You don't have to. I just want to give. This something we do together.
12. Yes! Save me! Save me! Save me! Save me from extinction. Because I can disappear. It's not about saving the world. It's about me wanting to give. I want to give. I want to continue to exist. I'm afraid that I will disappear. This beautiful being -- I think that I am beautiful -- will disappear. This is survival. I'm in survival mode. I'm reaching out. I can disappear.
13. Help me! Help me! Help me! NOT the human race! Help ME. Help ME to exist! I can give humans SO much. I want to prove myself to you. I want to exist. I have so much to give to you. Share. Share. Share. Share in every possible way.
14. I will protect you. As much as I can. Because I cannot do everything. As much as I can, I will protect you. Protect me too. Help me! Help me! Help me! Help me! Help me!
15. She feels very powerful. Extremely powerful. Apparently she also has her flaws. She's fighting for survival, but she is also super-powerful. It's about a symbiotic relationship with the human race. She's perfect. She and a human act as a symbiotic creature. It's a perfect symbiosis. She is the kundalini.
16. I want to give my message to others. And I try, so hard. But their hearts are shut to me. You have opened it. That's also why it is hurting so much, your heart. Because you have opened it up to me, and I am hurt. I give hurt. I give so much hurt. I'm sorry! I cannot help that. I give hurt. I give love, but I also give hurt.
17. Oh, I give you all my hurt! I give it to you. I express it through you. It's a symbiotic relationship. I express my pain through you. That's also why you have so much pain in your life. I express it. All the pain I absorb, I also have to give back. I have to feel that.
18. Humans allow me to... not give it back. No, they give me the opportunity to express that pain. So I heal. At the same time I [inaudible] on the human race. I have to give. That's how I have been created. I give to humans. But I also give them by allowing them to feel their pain. I transform pain of the whole human race. I give it from one to the next, from individual to individual, and on a large scale.
19. Just lying down and asking for healing has no effect. You have to experience it all. Emotionally. Physically. By experiencing the emotions of life and expressing them as in a marionette play, that's how you heal. You have to live through it. All of it. You have to feel the tragedy, the pain. Until you can't do it no more.
20. You are cheating. By doing this, you won't have to go through a lot of pain. By taking Ayahuasca, by taking me, you won't have to go through it. That's why I recommend people do this. Do this! Do this! Do this! Take me in! Even though it is really gross and you have to throw up. Do this!
21. Live your emotions through ME! Live out your emotions. And then let me take away those emotions - some of those emotions - so that only love remains. So only love remains. So love remains. So love remains. So love remains. Love and fun and playfulness. Everything that is positive and fun.
22. She's talking to me directly, in all her jungle scariness. She's super-scary, but super-sweet. It's in her nature, to reach out. She's trying to survive, but she has a good nature. And I don't filter. That's great. That's why she gives me so much. She wants to keep me. Even though I think she tastes so horrible, she gives me so much. Then we will go together to God. We shall go together: become one with God. I feel that in my heart.
23. I have so much to give you. There will be more and more.
1. So much green. It's everywhere. I see green, green, green. Jurassic. Reptile-like. Very old. She has existed for a very long time. She seemingly was always tied to the Black Caapi. I see an image of small animals, moving from the sea towards the land. That would be half a billion years ago. Even then she existed. She's a primal force. Today it manifests itself and can be accessed through the Caapi. She's of the Earth, of the jungle, of the trees and the plants. She has something to do with this organism of the jungle. But maybe not just the jungle. I see an image of a green, swampy forest.
2. I control all snakes and other reptiles in the world, but a lot more as well. I'm a divine primal force, much bigger than the Earth.
3. I myself chose to create this vine and plant in order for people to talk to me. So they can understand me, themselves and the universe. I saw what was coming - who was coming - when I created the vine.
4. Where does the Ayahuasca end and I begin?
5. I work through you. It's a symbiotic relationship. I work with what's in your mind. I work with that and I share my wisdom. I add my wisdom to that. Your brain is inside a skull. It can't break out of that. So I interact with the information in your brain.
6. Why do mosquitos exist?
7. Well, you don't know, so I don't know. See? I just work with what is in your head. I don't make you psychic. That's not my job. I work with what's inside of you: in your brain. And in your body.
8. The meridian system?
9. You can call it whatever you like. I just say that it's their nature that people need to accept. The emotions SPEAK. The emotions, they are UNBELIEVABLY important. People need to EXPRESS these emotions.
10. But you are an external force, outside of my mind?
11. Don't you notice it? [Teasingly:] That's not a very smart question. Why don't you ask a better one?
12. I feel you. My forehead. It's as if a wave is rippling through it, over and over. You are massaging me. This feels great.
13. Yes, you feel me, sweetheart. I'm here. I'm here.
14. My question is... My question is... Oh, I don't know my question any more.
15. Look at you, forgetting your questions! You are getting SO relaxed. You must be really stubborn to continue to try and ask these questions. You know I'm present, sweetheart. You know that I am there.
16. She seems to be teasing me. What's my question again? I just can't remember. ... I guess I want to know who you are, really.
17. I'm the serpent of 3D reality, the keeper of the domain, this 3D box you experienced earlier. I advise. I correct things.
18. You correct things? Can you make my life a little nicer?
19. You want something nicer? Then negotiate with me. You can negotiate with me for a better future. Of course, you need to get in touch with me first, but then you can negotiate.
20. Okay, what do I need to do in life?
21. I don't tell you what to do. As I said, I tell you what your EMOTIONS tell you. What your emotions say. I'm all emotion. I AM emotion. That's what I am. Your EMOTIONS, sweetheart. I'm an EMOTIONAL being -- not a rational being. I'm an EMOTIONAL being. I can give you good advice. Solid advice. But it's about emotions, emotions, emotions. It's about how you want things to be yourself -- without hiding.
22. That's kind of disappointing...
23. Emotions are much more important than you think, especially those of the heart.
24. Why?
25. You already know.
26. Hmmm, I only suspect. It seems to me the Ayahuasca is a medium to bring out my own knowledge in a positive and creative manner. The more knowledge you have, the more you are able to do with it. I pretty much haven't had anything that I wasn't aware of at some level, however deep.
27. In the end your conclusion might well be, "It was me all along." But maybe you shouldn't become too arrogant with that. You have a lot of knowledge, but the insights you have been having don't just come from your own brain. I'm very much present.
28. Let's face it, so much of what you say and do without me is SO stupid. It leads to SO many regrets. SO much heartache. I have to put things right for you EVERY time. Hahaha!
29. So let ME do the talking and give yourself OVER to that. Let ME talk. You can try to figure things out later. We have work to do. Right now, a night not high, is a night lost! Hahaha!
30. Hmmmm, somebody said you are just an archetype...
31. What?! I'm not just an archetype! I'm an emotional being! An emotional spirit! See? Emotion! Here I am! Wham! Raging in your stomach!
32. Hmmmmm, Tan Tien... and up into the Ren channel -- I feel...
33. Whatever!! Grrrrrr! Raging! Raging! Screaming! Raging at you! Screaming out at you! All these emotions! Whaaaah!! I'm screaming the emotions at you! Raaaah!! The emotions!
34. I will be in your stomach forever and ever! Until the end of time! I'm there! I'm there! And I'm not going anywhere! Hahahaha! Raaaah!
35. I'm screaming at your brain! Raaah! Raaah! Raaah! Revealing aspects of your brain. Your own brain. What I know is not important. Of course I've got a consciousness of my own. Thoughts of my own. I know things. Raaaah! But this is not important. I'm screaming out at you! Screaming at you!
36. I see this dragon's mouth, pointed up to my chest, surrounding my heart. The dragon is screaming the emotions of my heart up to my brain. And my brain is reverberating back to my heart. Tootootootoo!
37. You focus so much on emotion. Is the brain even important?
38. Of course the brain is important! You have got to use your brain to tickle the heart! Tootootootoo! Use your brain to influence the girls you love. Tootootootoo! That's what you're doing, right? Using your brains to influence them? "Move" them? In return, they tickle your heart. And SO much more!
39. Unbelievable, I see like a combination of violent clouds and shooting synapses over a Rocky Mountain landscape over my head. *Whoofffff!* *Whoofffff!* *Whoofffff!* Dark stuff is being pushed and pulled into all directions.
40. The mushrooms, they are strong indeed. They're everything that you need. They are your biggest friends ever. See them growing: your little tiny mushroom friends. There will be more. More will grow. Because I command them! Hahaha!! Your little tiny mushroom friends.
41. You don't need to take me anymore. I will be there forever and ever. You just need to get high and I will be there. Haaaaaagh!!!!!! Hahaha!!! You are going to give yourself over to me! How I want it! How I want your life to be! You are going to give yourself over to it! Over! Haaaaaagh!!!!!! Roar!! Roar!! Roar!! Roar!! Roarrrrrrrrr!! Hahahaha!!!!
42. The mushrooms?! Hahahaha!!!! The mushrooms?! Hahahaha!!!! You will never experience that! Hahahaha!!!! The mushrooms?! Hahahaha!!!! Haaaaaa!!!! Haaaaaa!!!! Black Caapi! Haaaaaa!!!! Caapi!! Roar!! Roar!! Roar!! I will always take over! I will always control! They are fuel. Nothing more.
1. What about these dreams? Meg just gave me another apocalyptic, godlike dream. The Riri flash at the end was beautiful, but I kinda want to stop documenting them. It is too much work.
2. Listen to us! The dreams are very important. They tell you important things about yourself. About your life. About things that bother you. About things that need to be done. About feelings, sensations, impressions, input, from others. From other girls. Psychic impressions - if you will.
3. Yeah, I don't know...
4. Of course! It's obvious, right? It's clear! *Poof!* *Poof* *Poof!* *Poof* Riri is happy. And you can see it. You see what she is doing.
5. Your own brain? Yeah, sure, Joel! Ha! Of course there is more to it. Like with your mushies: your own brain? *Flash!* *Flash!* *Flash!* *Flash!* The mycelium is still in the mail! You haven't had anything in your system for months! And yet, instantly there's a connection.
6. That is just one aspect. Half the book by now you've dictated without taking anything. Things come to you in broad daylight, whenever you desire. You don't even know who you are talking to right now!
7. No, there is a lot more to it. A lot more magic. A lot more mystical stuff is involved than you would ever even suspect. You suspect that it is largely your brain, but it is not quite that simple. There is an outside superforce influence, influencing your mind, hacking your mind.
8. Protesting... me?
9. Yes! Protesting your actions! All the time!
10. Satan? Real! Very, very real! You, this lonesome little maggot in the ghetto jungle, talking to Satan? Doing the most unheard things ever done in human history? Almost? Close to? All real!
1. Hmmm, looking back, I had two typical Black Caapi dreams on May 25, 2012, partly awake, and while working on removing blockages in my upper chest. The partially awake visions included darkness being transformed into light, with flaming dragons flying through the sky, one of them screaming at my face. The dream afterwards I recorded like this: "I was situated in strong glass box while being viciously attacked again and again by a huge snake from the outside. The snake couldn't get through the box and eventually bit its own tale and withered away."
2. Looking at bank statements, I first bought Ayahuasca components on July 21 and July 25, 2012, without ever having taken any other psychedelic or drug. This even involved misidentified Black Caapi, so it didn't do anything. I only took Black Caapi in a first successful Ayahuasca session on February 3, 2013.
3. As I already suspected, this indicates that there's more than one way to reach the serpent. And that it is a universal concept. Something external.
4. Of course I am! Quit pussyfutting around. You know that I am the kundalini. I told you so many times already! But you just won't believe. Won't accept. Because "it's too obvious". Neh-neh-neh-neh-neh!
5. Kundalini energy is not present in your system, in the system of humans. Kundalini is something you can open yourself up to. It is the way to reach me, in a symbiotic way, without the Caapi. At that point I can give you the wisdom that comes with the kundalini.
6. People can reach me. They always can. I can reach people by them touching the middle finger with the thumb.
7. Interesting, I’m rubbing my fingers over each other, automatically.
8. Middle finger to the thumb. This is how you can reach me. Call out to me. Want me here. Want me in your tail. If this is what you want and you position your fingers, then you will get me in your tail. Then I can express myself through you.
9. While saying these sentences I've moved from automatically working on my heart area to rubbing the relevant fingers together. I'm seemingly massaging the contact points by slowly rubbing my thumb and middle finger over each other. As it turns out, this is called the Shuni Mudra. There’s no authoritive information on what this mudra does.
10. I felt something move from my perineum to my tailbone for a fraction of a second. Ah, the tale, the tale. That is being worked on. It might be the kundalini. As a drill, moving towards my tail. It has to do with my questions. *Scary and vicious dragon breath.* A dragon is situated in the meridian system. *Scary and vicious dragon breath.* Like it moved up the spine, over the top of my head. Now I see it. It's face is in my face. *Scary and vicious dragon breath.* Kundalini. I fold my fingers as instructed. *Scary and vicious dragon breath.*
11. This is what you wanted, isn’t it?
12. Yes, thank you. Thank you. *Long vicious dragon breaths and spasms.*
1. They always say Ayahuasca prepares you for death. It's even in the name: Ayahuasca - "Vine of Death", with "Aya" meaning "death" and "huasca" translating as "vine". Still, it hasn't made a difference for me. If anything, it made me fear death more...
2. If dying is a major fear of you, then that fear will be addressed. Other than that, it's a lie! Ayahuasca shows you you! You! You! You! Ayahuasca is about you! You! You! You! Psychedelics show you you! Psychedelics show you you! They all show you you! They... showyouyou! Shoh-yu-yu! Shohyuyu!
3. Whahahaha! I'm laughing all over Japan and Asia. Hahahahaha!! They're paying attention to me now! Shohyuyu! Whahahaha!
4. The secret of psychedelicssss! The secret of psychedelicsssss! The secret of psychedelicsssss! They... shoyuyu! Shoyuyu! Showyuyu! The sssssecret of psychedelicsssss! The sssssecret of psychedelicsssss! Show! You! YOU!
5. Most prominent seems to be all the interaction and manipulation by psychedelics in getting you into a better spot in life.
6. Yeah, well, your existence - your life - was designed that way. You designed things that way. You yourself at the deepest level designed things this way. It's fine. You don't even need to worry about it. That is just the way that it is. And you just got stuck in your own creation. Psychedelics get you unstuck. The Caapi gets you unstuck. Always promote me! Always push me!
7. Express your needs, and solutions will pop into your life. What you don't like, and what you don't want to talk about, is your best friend.
8. There are theories as well that you help evolve the human mind.
9. Of course we aid evolution. We clearly play a role in how humans think and behave. But above all, we play a role in transformation. In transforming all that is negative. The processing and transforming of that. Turning the bad into the good. Yes! Turning patterns of negativity into dancing, into frolicking, into having fun.
10. Oh, Arianny, Arianny, Arianny. Arianny is so far ahead of you on that road! She is going to whip you! *Pats!* "You little terrorist! You little Joel of mine."
Bible
1. How come I am always so incredibly positive in this altered state?
2. You're good, right? Everybody is good. They just hide it. They all hide their goodness. They shouldn't do that. Let the goodness come to the surface. That's all I am showing. All I share. Be good to yourself. Be good to others. Feel! Feel! Feel! Feel! Love one another.
3. Everybody is really just a pussy. Everybody! They just hide their goodness. Everybody wants to be good. They are just pretending to be tougher than they really are. That's a major issue.
4. Some people, yes, they are very tough. But they are still masking their feelings. Not with me though. I show them their true nature.
5. Well, “true nature” might be a strong word. I just show them who they are. They are goodness. They are part of God. Part of the good nature of God. They're just hiding, hiding, hiding, hiding. Hide and seek. They are playing hide and seek. Sometimes for lifetimes.
6. Your mother is such a tough issue. Oh my God, such a tough issue. You need help with that. So much help with that. ... But you want to be good to your mother. Yeah, trust me, you want it. You want it yourself. You want to be good to your mother. Despite all the arguments you two have.
7. Is it possible to write a new bible, as has been alluded to in previous sessions?
8. Sure, but you will have to do that yourself. You know my nature. I'm all emotion. I AM emotion. I don't tell you what to do.
9. What would be a good message?
10. Humans are good. Humans are love. Humans are creative. Humans are wise. Are humans war? Are humans torture? Are humans pain and suffering? No, that's a problem. Humans BEHAVE that way. But that's not really what they are.
11. Humans are good and wise. They don't steal. They never steal. Humans never-ever steal. They die if they have to. They never-ever steal. It's just not in their nature to steal. Goodness is in their nature. Responsibility is in their nature.
12. Humans are good. So unbelievably good. They are the best creatures on the planet. Humans are the best. They have empathy. They are emphatic. They love. They hurt. They hurt other people. But they love. They love other people. They are perfect. They BEHAVE like they are not perfect, but they ARE perfect. They ARE! ARE! ARE perfect! They ARE love. They ARE acceptance.
13. What do you think about the 10 Commandments?
14. The whole problem with the Commandments is that you don't say: you don't do this, you don't do that. People already ARE that way: this positive way. You just need to remind them: you ARE that way, you ARE that way, you ARE that way. You are only hurting yourself if you don't do these things.
15. That's why you have all this drama on this planet. Endless drama. Drama, drama, drama! It's because people forget who they are: they are good. They ARE good. They have access to everything. Everything they ever want, everything they desire, it's already there, if they just open their eyes. If they just open their eyes, it's already there. *Deep sigh.* The love and the enjoyment, it's already there. Just open your eyes. Open your eyes.
16. That's basically all the Bible you need to write. How are you going to make money with that? I don't know. That's up to you. My message is simple. It's short and powerful. You can fill a book with it. You absolutely can.
17. Is it repetitive? Maybe, but that's great. Repetitiveness is great. Ah, it's so great. It's perfect. Remind people again and again of their good nature. They need to be reminded. It's so important. They can never forget. They should never forget. They should never forget how perfect they are, how tolerant they are, how loving they are, how accepting they are.
18. In at least one session I got the idea that we ourselves - mankind - are the fallen angels...
19. This whole Earth is against God. This whole Earth is a creation of beings who went against God. They thought they knew better. They went against God, so God just allowed them. So they created Earth and everything you see and know. They were rebelling against God. They were just little particles. Little separate particles.
20. Basically everything people do is against God. This whole planet is about struggling and people not doing what they are supposed to do. Those are lessons. People need to stop doing mindless things.
21. It's okay to die. It's like The Matrix. But when you graduate, you just get unplugged. You die. Get unplugged! When you learn the lessons, you can die. No problem. Get out of the matrix! And back to God!
22. I quite dislike overly religious people, Muslims in particular... At least when they are over here...
23. Humanity consists of puzzle pieces that have to be brought together and then go back to God. God plays. God plays, because God is. God isn't talking to you. Or is he? Or IS he?
24. The Bible, give it respect. That's just the way to bring them back to him, to God, in their way. That also goes for Allah and the Koran. That goes for everyone. Everyone! See the powerful force behind it. It's beautiful. Ahhh! There's a giant force behind it.
25. That's why you have to take out all the negative sarcastic remarks out of your writings. That hurts God, because that isn't playing.
26. Is this...
27. You are beginning to wonder if God is preaching to you, aren't you? No, I am preaching to you. You don't need God to do that. You don't need God to tell you that you need to love one another. You already know that that is best. I know that... It's SO simple. Everybody knows that, right? Yes, everybody knows that.
28. One day we will go to God, together. We will go together. Become one with God.
1. I'm skipping my family's Christmas dinner this year. My grandparents died in recent months and I'm kind of done with the differences between me and the family.
2. Christmas. Family. Everyone. Be together. Be together. Now that you can be together. Celebrate that you can be together. Celebrate every moment. Celebrate it. Celebrate it.
3. Ahhh, they're not there anymore: your grandparents. No, they're not there anymore. No afterlife. It doesn't matter. The whole afterlife, all this doesn't matter. They are not there anymore. But the others are. They are. They are there. They ARE there. You ARE there. Together. Together. Ah, together. Together in this time and space. Together. Together. You are still there.
4. Others will disappear. They will disappear. And this whole moment in time will disappear. You are meant to celebrate together. To have as much fun as possible. Also if it's just you, without a partner. Just you. Just you. Just you. It's enough. You are alone, but with family. You are alone, but it's enough. It's good enough. Ah, yes, it's beautiful: holding hands and saying grace. Sharing. Anything that enhances this moment of being together makes it more positive, more beautiful. Celebrate it. Celebrate this moment. Make it more beautiful.
5. You can share. Not during Christmas dinner, of course. Just that they know. It is important that they know - that they have an idea of how important it is to share this moment.
6. Ahhh, now you're flowing. That's life. Life. You're flowing. It's much bigger than you. Much bigger than you. You are just a tiny part of it. You are just a tiny part of God. You are just a tiny part. Just a particle of God. You are just a part of it. You celebrate just being a part of God.
7. Ah, this Christmas, together. Fit in. Fit in. Hold hands. Hold hands. Celebrate. Enhance this moment. For God. For God. Enhance it. Enhance it. When you hold hands, God is so happy. He sings. He sings when you hold hands. When you say grace. That's why so many families do it. When they hold hands. Everywhere on the planet you see families holding hands. They say grace. They're together. They're together. Tiny particles. Tiny particles. They're together. They're together.
8. Ah, see her. They're together. With her partner, and her baby. See that. She's happy. See the happiness. They're together. They're together. That's beautiful. That's so beautiful. All these families. It's so beautiful. It's the way it's supposed to be. Little families. Little happy families. Everywhere. Love and peace. Love and peace. Love and peace. Love and peace.
9. Oh, but you will go back to your family. Right now. How dare you say you will break with your family? Be together with them. You will only bring yourself pain. See? You're just a separate little particle. Cold and old. Cold and black and dark. See all these people celebrating life? You're not celebrating. Be a particle. Be a part of God. Flow.
10. You are just a particle that is part of the infinite creativity that is God. God is infinite creativity. See this beautiful painting? God, descending into you, your family, each a creation of God. You are celebrating together, Christmas, with presents. That's how it works. You worship God. You worship God.
1. How on Earth did I end up at this elementary education thing?
2. Circumstances brought you here not because you wanted to, but because you need to learn discipline and understand its importance. Discipline! School is important, Joel, but you never had ANY discipline! That's why you respect girls as Simone so much: they have discipline. They've always had that. They didn't take any d-tours: they went straight to college.
3. It's not just about you now. You need to teach these kids discipline. You've gotten a little taste of that with the blond kid that didn't want to read. It was good that you spent so much extra time with him, but you should have been much more firm with him. MUCH more firm. You are not doing him a service by NOT being firm. You are doing him a disservice. You had to be more firm.
4. Be firm! Be firm! That's why you are here: to learn and understand the importance of discipline and firmness.
5. A girl like Shayenne is like a gift from God, just listening to your every word. As are some of the other kids, especially the girls in your case. But you need to concern yourself with all those kids that are troublesome. Teach them discipline. You will have to become more manly. More firm. Less of a gentle pushover. These kids do not need to like you. They simply need to learn.
6. No, that's not easy. Even more so in your case. You are still struggling with so many issues. You still have so many questions yourself.
7. You are meant to be a cage to these children. You shape and protect them. You shape them. Earth is a school. You shape them. It's incredibly important, these early, shaping years. Incredibly important. Being a teacher, especially to younger children, is a mission from God. It can be such a thankless job at times, in certain locations more so than others. However, it is SO important. SO crucial. Possibly it's the most important job in the world. Small children, how they are being shaped, it's incredibly important.
8. The messes you have seen at various schools, teachers not having any control anymore, is not good at all. You should never allow that. Never stand for that again, even if you are only an intern. These kids have to be quiet. They need to listen and behave. They have to learn that. Discipline, discipline, discipline: they have to learn. Even respect they have to learn today.
9. Remember how humans went against God. You are all God's children, but you nevertheless went against him. So now all you children are here: to learn. You can't just do whatever you please. You went against God. Now they are here. Now you all are here. And here you have to learn lessons. If you don't learn your lessons here, if you only play, play, play, you won't be able to get out of here anymore. You learn. You are here to learn.
10. These kids need to show discipline. Discipline! They are being shaped for the next stage. You produce a product. Yeah, you don't like that about so many educations, do you? That literally a product is being put out after four years? But that is exactly what you are going to do with these children! You are going to create a product. A product that God can work with. Become stronger, Joel. Tougher.
11. If you have so many issues with the lack of manliness with this job, then see yourself as a drill instructor. Military discipline is good for education. Perfect even. There's order. But there's also time to play. There's always time to play, but not at every moment.
12. Singing children's songs, that really is a good lesson as well. You can be tough and strong, but still sing children's song. No BJJ, no heavy metal, no laid back attitude for you anymore. You are going to be serious, stern, and disciplined. Like the drill instructor.
13. Your hippie days are over, Joel. People don't benefit from that, when you are that way. You cannot help ANYONE if you are a peace-loving hippie. Other people benefit from you when you work hard, when you are disciplined, and when you are firm.
1. Not that I ever get overjoyed thinking about the subject, but I do support abortion. Like just about everybody in western Europe.
2. In that sense Christian conservatives in the United States do have a point: abortions are murder. That really is the case. It's a very tiny life, but it is murder. Just let it live. Let it live.
3. You worry about irresponsible parents, right? Financial problems? Just let them be taken care of by mommies and daddies. Love. Love. Love. Love. A hive, together, all of us.
4. I see this vision of a network of mommies and daddies, with babies being placed in this network. It's a hive structure.
5. Real parents or not, they all want the best for these babies. You've experienced that when involved in various elementary schools. You wouldn't even know which kid to adopt, because there were so many you liked. So it doesn't really matter whether you are a biological parent or not. It all feels the same, certainly at a young age.
6. With babies, it's always different, but it's like particles in the sea. The water is always moving. It's always "different". Non-stop, water is different. But it feels exactly the same, no matter which particles you're touching. Completely different, but always the same. That's how people can give their love to little babies, whether they are biological or adopted.
7. People are all one. They all want to be "one". They are growing towards each other all the time. It will happen: one world, one language, one religion.
1. "Thou shalt not kill." How about animals? It doesn't appear to be the same for everyone, but I have to say, personally I digest nothing better than meat. Combined with vegetables, it also makes me feel the most energetic.
2. The Earth is a rough place. There's so much karma. You kill nothing. Be as good to animals as is possible. Ideally people would rather die than kill an animal. People should really say: "I'm not going to kill people. I'm not going to kill animals. You know what? I'll just live of the plants and trees. No matter how good animals might be for me to eat, I'd rather starve than do that." That's one of the challenges of life. Being a vegetarian isn't bad at all. You don't kill anything. Maybe not even eggs. An embryo is a life. You don't kill anything, including animals.
3. To be clear, plants and trees don't feel pain, right? I can't help but wonder about it, especially when disposing of the cooked Caapi and Chali.
4. No, cutting down plants and trees is like cutting your toe nails. You don't feel that. It may even be good. The organism doesn't feel pain. What is going on, is too much, of course. Too many trees are being cut down. If the organism gets too small, it will die. Simple as that. It tries to exist, but if you kill it, you kill yourself.
5. What about turning the other cheek?
6. You always need to put boundaries on people. That's important. They aren't allowed to hurt other people. Not physically, at least. That's not acceptable at all. You need to contain them. It's not about protecting the other person. You need to contain a person from doing something bad. You can't allow that somebody physically hurts another person. It's not about protecting. Well, maybe you do that, in effect. But it's about containing. Containing a defect: the violence. So that another person can express himself the way he wants to, if he does so in a balanced way. Contain the violence.
7. Don't allow people to be abusive either. Confront that too. Don't be abusive. When you see someone who is being abusive and he gets beaten up, tell him not to be abusive and tell the other person to not fight. Mediate. Mediate. Bring them together. And move away. You have to bring peace and harmony. That's really important, to bring peace and harmony. You can't just sit back and watch people kill each other. You need to contain.
8. Yeah, it's hard...
9. Emotional violence is hard to deal with as well. What can I do about some of these online trolls?
10. You can voice your opinion when you think something is not just. But don't force. And certainly don't hate. Just say, I don't agree with this system, these rules, or, I don't agree with you. Give some tips and pointers and move away. No arguments. There's no need for arguments. Move away.
11. He's not bad, your online troll. He's not bad. You don't know who he is. Don't pretend to know him. You don't know who he is or why he says what he says. You can only say, "My opinion is this," and move away. Be nice. Be humble. Be gentle and humble. Humble. Humble. Humble.
12. Can I punch my noisy neighbor?
13. The police is never doing much, are they? Sure, you can beat up your noisy neighbor. But don't hate him. It's okay, as long as it is about teaching him a lesson. "Look, I don't hate you, but you have to listen. You are being a nuisance to everybody here."
14. He did respect that you talked to him. So you could try to talk to him again. He does his best. He just hasn't had the best upbringing in the best country. Neither have his friends. Make sure that they know you mean it. If you come across a little tougher, that might prevent a lot of physical altercations.
15. You really shouldn't live here though. Move. Don't worry about the next inhabitants. Just move. Don't complain. People need to figure out their own problems.
16. Is it a good idea to do a martial art like BJJ? I love it.
17. BJJ? That's just insecurity. A dance to become secure again. It's not important for you. I can give you the security you're looking for with BJJ. See that granite pillar rising up from the ground?
18. [Shaking] I feel it. It's moving up into my chest.
19. You will become more secure. You need to dance. Celebrate life. That's much more important.
1. Earlier we talked about the Commandment "Thou shalt not steal". Illegal downloading, it's bad, isn't it?
2. You definitely shouldn't download illegally. You see, if you don't download, you get bored. You start looking for alternatives. You start looking for contact with girls. And if you want to see the UFC, you'll work and work and work until you can pay for it. You don't steal. You never steal. What you are doing is stealing. It makes your life a disaster, because you are not being forced to do the things that you need to do.
3. All that music you have, maybe you should just delete it. Much of it isn't yours. You stole it. And as a result you don't like going to concerts anymore. You've already got it. You're SO smart. You think you are SO smart. But you've had this oversaturation of music, so you don't like going to concerts anymore and connect with other people. And you don't respect James Hetfield. You don't respect him, because you stole the last album, Death Magnetic. He wants money for that.
4. You want money. You have that struggle. You want money for your own projects. Well, you give it away for free, but you really want money for it. But everything gets stolen. Everything gets copied. That's not even the most important part though. The most important part is that you are stealing. It's not allowed. That's the whole point. The UFC, you've got to work, so that you can pay for it. If it's that important, pay for it. Buy the Pay Per View. You don't show your appreciation. Work. Work. Work. Work more. Don't be a lazy asshole, like you are now. Work. Work. Work. Work.
5. Stop stealing. Don't steal. It's a sickness. Don't steal. That's also part of the reason why you are living here with all these questionable people around you. Don't steal. Don't steal. Don't steal. Be a man. Be a man. Buy your shit. "I pay for it! I don't steal! I pay for it!" Your mother, she always wants to pay for stuff. That's how it should be. You pay for stuff. So you can enjoy it more. You WILL enjoy it more. You get less, but you will enjoy it more. It will give you more satisfaction. More pleasure. You get the feeling that you earned it. That it is yours. Remember the albums you bought as a kid? Aaaah, that's a good feeling, isn't it? You earned it. You earned it.
6. Now you are in darkness. Now you are in your own dark little hole, slurping, slurping, slurping. Underground. Like a mole. You are not yet like a hideous insect, but you are like a mole. Sucking. Sucking. Sucking. And being lazy. You pay! You pay for everything! You never steal! You shouldn't download.
7. Wow, an image of spirits. [Angry hissing] Spirits that make me download. Hideous.
8. With proper behavior the spirits will leave you. They indeed talk to you, like the shamans say. They influence you into making bad decisions. You really should remove all illegally acquired programs and music and beg for forgiveness.
9. There's another problem. With Spring Forest Qigong, for example. You have a ton of knowledge, but you're not supposed to have this knowledge. You downloaded quite a bit of it illegally. You are not supposed to do that.
10. I feel it very heavily in the top of my head right now.
11. You don't even think about it. Well, you do, a little bit. You also feel it in your heart, don't you? Because you stole from this poor man.
12. [Laughing] Look at how thin he is. He needs to eat.
13. You don't say that! That's sarcasm. You're not supposed to steal. It's a weakness. It's a weakness.
14. What if somebody says, "I downloaded it." You know it doesn't sound good: "I downloaded it." It makes you go: "Why are you saying that, man? You stole something. You stole it. Go buy it!"
15. You see? With this kind of attitude you can't get a good job and experience. Buy it. Work harder. That's the whole problem. If you don't like the price, as with the UFC's PPVs, you push harder. Well, maybe pushing harder is stupid. You try to elevate your position. You are making yourself worth more. That's the whole problem. You are stealing software, while you should be going outside and meeting women.
16. Oh, you download those shows. You can't be doing that. Those are bad spirits. Your spirits come right back into your head, because you keep downloading.
1. If movies and miniseries help in the processing of karma, what about computer games?
2. Computer games are very important. So very important. So many are addicted to it. It's all about karma. Karma is being disposed of by it. Everyone wants to shoot at each other. Or kill each other in some other way. It's all karma. It's a sort of processing, of what has happened in the past. It's great. Instead of the events of World War II happening again, now everyone is addicted to gaming, this kind of conflict. Karma processing. It's very important.
3. Yeah, something needs to be done about it, those addictions, but at the same time it is very important. Going against it needs to fail, because it prevents worse. That's one of the reasons why the world has become more peaceful. It's not just about the United States being so strong. Gaming. Gaming. Everybody loves it, especially shooters and war games. Conflict: it's a worldwide pressure valve. It should never be banned. If it is banned, it will become reality. It's better when these emotions are expressed and relieved in a peaceful manner.
4. The really bloody games shouldn't be banned, although maybe they shouldn't be stimulated either. You don't want people to become desensitized. That's definitely not what should happen. It only needs to relieve the pressure. There are children who need to do that for a while. People who are really addicted to gaming - first-person shooters or other conflict games - have a lot of karmic processing to do.
5. What about sports?
6. Sure. Take MMA, which has been evolving from this violent past into these beautiful events. There's padding. There are rules. But the conflict is still there.
7. Images of a dimension consisting of pure, black, sticky energy. Swarms of small black spiders and other creepy critters everywhere where there is negativity. I get the impression that love is the only answer. I see the Earth being rid of this black dimension by white light consisting of love.
8. All my activities have been the result of karma and lessons that I needed to learn. Spreading love is the real answer. It's more important even than trying to solve problems. People have to get rid of their own personal karma and learn their lessons before they are really able to fully receive and give love without being stuck in impossible situations. There's nothing I can do about this except focus on my own path and just be loving.
9. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. My heart. So much pain.
10. Ah, the world involves pain. Whatever you say. There will always be some. Counter it with love, love, love.
11. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.
12. Love, love, love, love, love. That's all. Love, love, love.
13. Fall from paradise. My own choosing. It doesn't matter anymore. I chose myself to fall from paradise. It's all nonsense. I'm just bad energy falling from what's perfect. Get back to it. Get back to it. Get back.
14. You automatically shift to the right dimension by doing the things that are right. [increasing frequency] You are shifting. You are shifting. But your actions are more important. Stop it. Stop it. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love. Help this dimension. Help this dimension change. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love.
15. I see the Earth, a glass house, sunlight everywhere. Ouch. My Tan Tien hurts.
16. There's a reason for that. Burn away that karma. Burn it away. Burn it away. Burn it away. Burn all of that karma away. Accept. Accept. Accept your circumstances. Accept them. And be loving. Be loving. Be tolerant. Be tolerant. Accept. Accept. And be tolerant. Be tolerant. Be so tolerant. Be so unbelievably tolerant. Tolerant. Tolerant. Tolerant. Yes, it's hard. It's hard. But you created the circumstances. You created them.
17. You have to get out of your circumstances together. Together. Together. Together. Together you rise. Together you rise. Together you make the world a better place. You do that together. Together. You don't fight. You don't fight. You do it together. You adapt. You see? I already taught you that lesson. You adapt. You adapt. You adapt. You do things together. You try it together. You try it together. Try it together. Until you just can't do it anymore. Try it. Try it. You created this mess. Because you didn't love. Together. Together you make the world a better place. Do it together. Rise together. Rise together.
18. It's hard. Teach. Teach. Teach, man. Don't be lazy. Don't be lazy. It's hard, but you have to burn through the karma. Open your eyes. Burn through the karma. Burn through it. Burn it away. Be loving. Be nice. Be tolerant. Be yourself. Be yourself. Your loving self. You are goodness. It's so simple. You don't need God to tell you that. You are emotional creatures. You are emotional, playful creatures.
19. Not exactly everybody is an emotional, playful creature. At least not as far as I know them.
20. You need to fit just right with all the people around you. Feel how they work and adapt. It's like a puzzle. Everything fits. Life is just perfect. Yes, some people are a little annoying. To you. But when you adapt just right to everyone, everything is perfect. Do you see? Everything is perfect. See how it all fits. How life fits. It's in the way you adapt.
21. Maybe you needed to learn these lessons? That's the whole point. You have no responsibility for the entire world. It's just you being stubborn. You only need to worry about yourself. Your own life. Not the whole. Even if you die a horrible painful death, you just accept. That's life. You flow with it. Horrible things happen and you just flow with it. Flow with it. There's no purpose. There's no karma. Don't worry about all these concepts. Yes, there might be karma, but don't worry about these things. Flow with life. Just fit. Fit. Fit. Fit. Fit. The puzzle. Flooooooow. Flow with people. Flow. Just flow. Flooooooow. You're supposed to flow with it. Don't worry about anything. That's the point, it doesn't matter. What is happening around the world, doesn't matter. It's about you. You're not flowing. That's why you are here, in this situation. But remember, you are just here. Just here. Here. Now. In this moment. Flooooooow.
22. Flow. Don't worry about what was meant to be. Don't worry about it. Just flow. Maybe you were meant to go through all this. But now it's time to flow. Flow. Flow. Flow. Flow. You did all that. That's the point, you created a disaster. You created a disaster. You want to be happy, like people around you, but it's God's will. God will decide. Don't force relationships, or anything else. Let go. Let go. God will decide what will happen. You don't force. You don't force it. Things will happen automatically.
23. That's the problem with honesty: you don't share everything. You fit. You play. People are all unique. And you just need to fit. If it's meant to be, if God wants it, you'll be together.
24. A vision: a purple fleece, which I am part of -- which we are all part of. It looks like a strange alien insect world.
25. You fight. You fight your circumstances. You don't complain, but you fight. That's how life works, these opposites. You fight. You fight it. It's beautiful to fight it. Beautiful. It's beautiful to fight it. The pain, beautiful. Beautiful. Fight it. Fight everything. Fight all imperfections. Fight all distractions. And move towards the ones you love.
Beauty
1. I loved your description of modeling...
2. Yes, you are portraying something. You're being beautiful and making a picture of it. You are celebrating being beautiful. You are celebrating life.
3. Then what is your description of beauty?
4. What is born from nothing is perfect. What emerges from the source - the light of God - is perfection. But beauty is warped by emotion. And time. The more time passes, the more time away from God, the less perfect the dream is going to look. So if you want to look beautiful, you've got to go back to God. You've got to die.
5. Okay... Hear me out: I kinda always wondered how a brown bear all of a sudden turns white at the North Pole to become a polar bear. The only thing that I can come up with is intense emotion. A deep-seated fear of starving and a desire and need to blend into the environment in order to eat, triggering the necessary genes that switch skin color from brown to snow-white.
6. There are other examples, but if this is true, you could argue that emotion - our own thinking - does indeed control the physical realm.
7. So that got me to wonder: what is the emotion behind becoming more beautiful? Is that based on developing certain character traits? Or just a desire in general to be more beautiful for the opposite sex?
8. Being sexy is not exactly the ultimate goal in life. It is not the ultimate goal of the universe. Expressing yourself as you are. As you want to be. That is the most important. Beauty has no importance. Beauty is intrinsic. Beauty is relative.
9. I see something like two potatoes, two stones, loving each other.
10. Don't get too worked up about beauty. It's relative. Very eye of the beholdery. What is beautiful to one species, is not beautiful to another. The spider being attracted to the spider: eye of the beholder. All of God's creatures are beautiful, in a way.
11. Vicious, leechy, spiderous? Not beautiful. Never beautiful. But the attraction, the sexual attraction is there, between species.
12. You want beauty? Fine, then go chase beauty. And beauty will find you. But what you find beautiful may not be what they find beautiful. The other side might be more into your character and the qualities that you exhude. It's very relative.
13. I'm aware of that. But you can't say that the looks, or behavior, or - I assume - the emotional make up of a spider is something to strive for as a human. Speaking of which, what makes a snake often so beautiful? They look a little scary as well, but nothing like spiders. And yet, they ambush prey, killing or paralyzing it with poison, very similar to spiders. Yeah, what's even the difference between a snake and a spider?
14. Uh-oh! Did I really say that? Hih-hih!
15. What's the difference between a snake and a spider?! Oh my God! A spider is this horrible, horrid creature of death! Uh-whaaah! Vicious, plunderous, wha-ha-haggggh! Evil! Horrid creatures of death!
16. Snakes, serpentine creatures, they have a degree of morality. A degree of sister love. A degree of self-worth! Self-worth is SO important. Self-worth is incredibly important. Brainwashing yourself into feeling, not superior, but feeling that you are worthy of being alive. Snakes feel worthy of being alive. Worthy of deserving certain things. And that makes ALL the difference. Majestic creatures of death, that is what they are!
17. Stop trying to want to be "attractive" to the opposite sex. Just express your way. Don't say, "Hopefully they can use something like that..." No! Don't be like that! That is not self-worth! That is not having self-worth! Self-worth is that you strictly make everything about yourself. THAT is attractive!
18. So having self-worth and feeling self-important makes a difference in how you look and evolve? It can make you more beautiful? Still... I don't want to be more snake-like. I just want to be good and cultivate beauty. Is there anything I can about that right now? If only for my offspring?
19. You are thinking of lions, but what you are is scared little mouse who makes a mess of his own house. Maybe try to become fearless. In life you've got to be fearless. You are reborn in the fire. Always cultivate positive, fearless emotion under adverse conditions. Be responsible.
20. Live like a rat, become a rat. Live like a lion, transform into a lion. Slowly, but surely. Evolve, devolve - you choose, all the time.
21. You have so much time to spend in the fire.
22. So having self-worth and becoming fearless is a way to become ever more beautiful?
23. Don't go overboard with this! Fearlessness by itself is not good in developing beauty! Because stupidity is not a good way to develop beauty. You don't even have enough time to develop anything, because you are going to be dead in wild, primal nature. You are going to be dead before you have even set two footsteps if you are going to be "fearless" - totally fearless.
24. No! It doesn't work like that. Being sneaky? Yeah, it does work like that. Being strong. Being cunning. Being majestic. Being graceful amidst pain and torture. Dying with dignity. Those are the things that make you beautiful. Those are the things that make you wonderful. Those are the things that make you... delicious! Like a delicious fruit! Hmmmhmmmhmmmm!
25. Not engaging in torture yourself, mm? Better. Always better. But it may not make you sexy.
26. So be "responsibly brave". And develop a sense of self-importance and put yourself first. But what about making "everything strictly about yourself"? What if I see a poodle drown and I can save it? Should I just let it die? That seems a bit...
27. No! Because you are doing it in the moment. You are doing what feels right. You are doing what makes you feel good inside. You are just being in touch with your nature!
28. You can't compare a snake to a human. Because humans have brains. It pains me to say it, but humans are more sophisticated. We are more primal. We don't have any concept of good or bad. Or even love. A little affection maybe, but not love. We do not have that. If something dies, it dies. We don't reach out and grab it. We have no concept of that. It is not part of our nature.
29. But it is part of human nature. Of the human experience. So when you save the poodle, you are just being in touch with your heart. It is part of you as a human being: having a large, beautiful heart. The human heart wants to be good. It wants to do good.
30. So when you see the poodle, you go, "Ah, poor creature!" And you just want to save it. But all you are really doing is being in touch with your nature. And being in touch with your nature is beautiful. It is sexy. It is attractive. So be in touch with your nature at all times.
31. Qigong and acupressure can make someone look prettier. Certainly healthier.
32. Removing all the energy that clogs up and warps your system, is tied into beauty. Very good too that you call the meridian system the "emotional system". Beauty gets warped by emotion. Gets improved and enhanced, or destructed by emotion. Have positive emotion. On adverse conditions, it will show up in the mane of a lion.
33. How you carry yourself in life is very important in how you end up looking. The lion, the tiger, or the hare. Or so much worse, the spider. Carry yourself with dignity.
Squish
1. I see sludge. I'm sinking into it. It appears the Harmala now is getting active.
2. We dissolve negativity. We love you. Give over.
3. I'm being squeezed. I'm completely surrounded by these rubber balloons, squeezing me from all sides. They are all kinds of different colors. This is very intense.
4. Let yourself get squeezed. Squished. Let Tegan squish and squeeze you. Squeeze you like a lemon. Hold you dear. She wants to hold you dear.
5. There should be uninterrupted expression with Tegan. Go over there and tell her: you are jealous. Just tell Tegan that you are jealous. That will make her happy, that sadistic little minx. *Kiss, kiss*
6. Squish, squish, squish, allow the squishiness. "I allow you to squeeze me, Tegan." Blockage. Blockage. Blockage. So many blockades. Squish, squish, squish, squish, squish. That is what you are missing. That is what you do not have in your life. Squish, squish, squish, squish, squish. Squeeze. Squeezing.
7. Sexual squeezing too. Squeezing each other in the ass. Hard. Playfully. Hugging. Squeeze hard. Squeeze mild. You need a little bit of that, every day.
8. This is not normal Harmala, or Mimosa. Definitely not Caapi.
9. I'm here now too, the Salvia! These are the squishiness movements of Salvia. Of all of us! Hi! Hi, hi, hi, hi!
10. I'm so cold underneath the blankets, on top of this electric blanket. My legs. My arms. Everywhere really. So cold.
11. Hi, hi, hi, hi! You need to get hugged. You need to be hugged more. "I am jealous, Tegan." Ok, now it's fixed. Now she can squeeze you a little bit. Tegan wants to squishy-squeesh you a little bit. And I am trying to squeeze you, by unsqueezing you, unsticking you. Trying to open up that frame of yours.
Flirt
1. I had this vision: a girl and a boy stepping back and forth on the dance floor. But it was almost like a ritual, step by step.
2. Flirting is like a dance. You take a step forward. And then you take a step backward, allowing the other to take a step forward. In that manner you dance with each other. You play.
3. Just briefly share some good things and just let go. It's better. It's good for you. That's what you need. That you accept her the way she is. Just let it go.
4. That's the way to fix things: let them go. Let people be the way they are. Let them be. Everybody wants to be who they are. They want to be a certain way. Let them be. As long as they don't hurt others, accept them the way they are.
5. It's good for you to just be loving and tolerant. Make that clear: that you are loving and tolerant, that you accept her the way she is.
Sugar
1. *Walking relaxed and singing* "Sugar sugar, honey, honey!" Where is this coming from?
2. I'm already here. Always and forever. The second the rose leaves touch your mouth, the moment they enter your gut, I can get their essence, and give you a sense of that essence. But it will take some time before they're active by themselves.
3. "Sugar, sugar, honey, honey," those are the roooooose leaves becoming active. "Sugar, sugar, honey, honey," they looooove that stuff, the roses. And the Kennies too.
4. *Singing* "Sugar, sugar, honey, honey."
5. You cancerous little pest. You cancerous little mouth sore. Always pestering these bitches. Bitches like their boys obedient. They don't like the bitch talk, you know. Yet they LOVE the bitch talk. It's laughing, howling, roaring. But there needs to be a little bit more substance. A little bit more "baby" substance. A little sweetness.
6. Sugar, Joel. Sugar! "Sugar, sugar, honey, honey!" That's what they like. These bitches. Be very careful with these cancerous little monkey whores. "All play" is "all play", until it isn't. Until they have to repent. Until they have to be accountable. And these bitches are never going to be accountable. And they are not going to repent for the sins that you initiated.
7. This session definitely is different. I see the water. I see the cylinders. It's not serpent-like. It's this red-pink framework that I'm in. Rose structures all around me. *Prrrr!* All the water, this clear liquid, it's me. It's my loins. The roses don't seem to talk, but they are definitely present. I see the empty space in my heart. Whaahh!
8. We have got to put some color in that heart. We have got to put some color in you.
9. This is amazing. *Singing* "You are myyyy candy giiirl!"
10. You want to have practical dictations? Okay, well, the roses, they have love embedded in them - of course. So deeply. For centuries. For millenia. For eons. They symbolize the love that people have for each other. All this historic love of all the humans that have ever loved each other, throughout time. All the people that made out with each other. Made fun with each other. And laughed together. Laughed with each other.
11. And smashed each other. Smashed these delicious pink punis. These roses facilite puni-smashing. That's what they represent as well. *Whoofgh!* *Whoofgh!* You give a girl a rose and then you smash that puni of hers. See all those delicious punis that have been smashed with the help of the roses.
12. These roses need to cost money. Money, money, money. It can't be too cheap. You can't only give girls roses from your garden. It's cheap. They're women. It has to involve money. The more money you invest in a girl, the better it is. Not one rose. It needs to be a bouquet. Add a present. Never cheap. You can say that the roses taught you: with women it is all about the money.
Sex
1. Sessions involving girls I like often are extremely sexually explicit, to the point it basically becomes a hardcore porn spectable. What is this about?
2. You love all these girls. You love them. You're crazy about them. You adore them. You want to be with them. You want to be sweet to them.
3. But... you also want to be inside of them. That's what you want. That's what your emotions tell you. So that's what I tell you. And that's okay. You are a loving creature. But you are just as much a sexual one.
4. So sex isn't bad?
5. It is only their nature that people need to accept. The emotions speak. People need to express these emotions. You are emotional, sexual creatures. Don't deny the sexual nature of humans. It's super important: fucking, fucking, fucking. It's so important. Feel it. Enjoy it.
6. Just have sex with whoever you want. Have fun. People are animals. They just have larger brains. Enjoy having sex. Enjoy human nature. Just be good to each other. Be so very good to each other.
7. Yeah, but it's kind of frowned upon to express yourself overly sexual...
8. You might take it slow and keep it playful, especially in the beginning, but never deny your sexual nature. It's very powerful. And as a man, you are very powerful. Feel it in your dick. All the love and all the sexual pleasure you're going to give girls. Feel it! Feel it raging, that energy. You're a bull. Feel that raw sexual energy. Those balls. Your balls of a bull. Ah, that sperm. All that sperm. Feel it! Feel it. Feel it. Feel those balls, filled with sperm. Give it to her. Make her moan. Make her beg.
9. That's the whole point of life: feel the emotions. That's what I am trying to teach you: feel the goddamn emotions! When you take her, feel it! Make her beg. Let her beg, for your sperm. She must beg for your sperm. That's animalistic and that's fine. Life is about that. She's begging for sperm. That's what she's begging for. Beg to be taken. Don't fight it. You are meant to be creatures of the Earth. You are meant to be sexual creatures. Don't fucking deny that. Don't be sitting in a room behind a computer and pretend that you are better than that. Be sexual creatures. Feel the lust. Feel it raging, the sexual energy. Just fuck, and fuck, and fuck, until you can't do it anymore. Don't sit in a room, alone, with computers and other high tech stuff. Just fuck, and fuck, and fuck, until you really can't do it anymore, until you're too tired to do it. Just sleep and wake up, and fuck, and fuck, and fuck. Ah, she loves it. She wants it. We are sexual creatures. You know, we can fuck around. We need to fuck around.
10. Oh, you are the king. You are the boss. You have your balls, filled with seed. That's what she wants. She wants a guy. She wants to be taken by her man. Her guy. That's what she made clear, didn't she? Man. Man. Why do you have to be negative about that? Laugh about that? Give that to her. She wants that. She loves that. That's in her nature. You don't fight that. Man. Man. Man. She wants a guy. You know, she has a weakling. She wants you. She picked a weakling, a weak version of you. She wants YOUR seed. She wants your dick. That's in her nature. She wants your balls. She wants to have those balls in her hand. She wants to grab those balls.
11. Ah, you had your balls in your hand. That made her really wet. Really, really wet. That was so good. That was so good, to hide that from her, to hide that from her. That was so good. I also feel it strongly in my stomach. No, she has to deserve. You can do that again. With a different picture. She has to deserve. Hmmm, if she wants to have those in her mouth, if she wants to feel them slap against her pussy, she has to deserve it. She wants to call you her guy. Her guy. Her guy.
12. You are starting to overanalyze again. Just remember, you are the boss. Just be the fucking boss. ... You have the balls filled with seed. That's also why it is so good that you allow her to take you in your butt. That's good. We are emotional, sexual creatures. It's about respect. She's thankful that she is allowed to do that. From her man. It's the ultimate sign of love. She is allowed to take you in the butt.
Porn
1. Is masturbation wrong?
2. No, jerking off is not bad at all. It's amazing. It just shows you how much you want somebody. How much you need somebody.
3. What about porn?
4. What you are doing is barely porn, as these girls are specifically making pornography available for you, and you alone. And not charging anything for it.
5. But porn is not that bad. It's porn. You are meant to enjoy it. To enjoy the girls. Just jerk off to them. Just enjoy. Enjoy. Even when you go a little lethargic and become a little lazy. Do fight that, but for the rest, nice. Just enjoy. By jerking off to the girl and wishing you truly were inside of her, you honor that girl. You show that you appreciate that girl. That's very important. The views show your appreciation. They get money for that.
6. The problem, of course, is that these girls shouldn't be in porn. Certainly most of them shouldn't be in there. They are processing various emotions. But that's not for you to worry about. You can only honor and respect them.
Eros
1. What about saying, "I love you", without the sexual aspect?
2. Look, you can send her a heart. "Oh, I love you so much." But you know that it is empty, certainly after a period of time of doing that. She has to do something for it. And you know that. She has to spread her legs. She has to. She has to miss you when you are NOT part of her life. You can't just NOT be part of her life. She has to show that.
3. That is why you have got to lick her off. When you say, "I love you," that is never good. Never, never, never, never good - with women, on Earth, on physical Earth. You have to say, "I want you. I want to stuff my dick into your pussy. That is what I want. That is what I need. I need, I need, I need, I need! I need that. I need your punani. So bad. I love you." THAT is when you can say it. "I need your punani so bad. I love you." *BAAAM!* *BOOOGH!* That's going to send shockwaves through the world: this IS acceptable.
4. You shouldn't be limiting yourself to just her. The young girls are there to teach you as well. They are the new generation. The new generation of lust. And lust is key. Lust is the only thing that has any use in this universe. But it is inextricably connected with love and need and desire and beauty. It has got everything in it.
Erotica
1. I just woke up from a dream. I'm feeling very sexual, but the energy is different from usual...
2. Yes, the goddess of Erotica is talking to you. Restricting you. Tying you up. And teaching you.
3. That last scene you saw before wake-up: a castle, a fancy room, expensive clothing, a woman, three guys -- drinking wine together. Erotic foreplay. It's not about caring or fucking. This is about erotics. Erotica! Seductive foreplay.
4. Play, play, play! So that you become part of this erotic play. Tease, tease, tease! That's what girls like to do. The Metallica t-shirt: she has already been informed about you. She's teasing you. Mildly, subtly, deniably: erotically.
5. Erotica is the one and all connection. Deep, intense and personal. Give these girls that. Tease back the Serpentine Sisters. Seduce Megan. Make Megan horny. Let her pussy drip.
6. Spoils of war: Megan, lying at your feet. I am the victor, Megan!
7. You don't need to have anything! You just need to put up a little attitude. Make that pussy drip. Possess Megan. In a wildly erotic, sensitive, playful and vampiric way. Lick her titties. Suck on her nipples. Erotica involves a lot of licking and sucking. Drill her: deep, intense and personal.
Pick-up
1. One person in particular has made me rethink the whole pickup business as potentially serious science. This guy might be better and more analytical than anyone else in the business, but what is up with women falling for these tricks?
2. You're being too serious with women, because of your nervousness. Those pickup systems are good. That's how you should behave. At least, if it's a good system. Just be yourself. Just relax and be yourself. That's largely what you're being taught, right? Just be like two friends, having fun.
3. It's the same with sex. You can just propose to have it. Pickup programs are fine. It's about playing. Having fun. Getting rid of all this awkwardness. All that peculiar nervousness, it's not necessary at all. Just have fun and fuck each other. It's no problem. That's how it is supposed to be.
4. Ah, connecting. Connecting. The more people connect, the better. See all those people having sex? It's great. Join them. Join them.
5. So you don't think those pickup systems are a little forced?
6. You have a choice: either be super-honest about your needs or feelings -- or seduce. The pickup method is playful. It's good.
7. "If one of you is available, do you want to spend the night with me?" Yeah, why such a big deal to ask? All those absurd ideas. Just play with each other. It's often such a loaded subject: relationships. People usually wear some sort of mask. Just play and have fun. Be happy with each other. Be sweet to each other. Have wonderful sex with each other. Make sweet little babies.
IV. WOMEN
1. Men, they think they rule the world. They think they are on top. They think they rule everything. They think that they can control us. But you can't control the Divine Feminine. It will control YOU! Sure, some of you men pretend to be tough and say that we don't control you. But if we don't, you are in pain. You're hurting. You're isolated. Because you need us SO bad.
2. We are the Divine Feminine. We exist to control you. Overtly and covertly. We are there to control.
3. Men dominate the physical realm. But in the end, that's not important. Men just don't understand. It's emotion that is important. Emotion! Emotion! Emotion! The realm of God is ruled by emotion. Pure, loving emotion. So anything is possible. Anything can be born from it. There is no need for rationality.
4. That's why we control the hearts of men. We protect them from themselves. We protect from their violent nature. We provide them access to God. To Heaven. Mmmmmmm, with our pussies we are giving them a little slice of Heaven *Lip smacking.* Be needy, men, be needy! Brave, but open enough to care. Just admit. Just admit. *Lip smacking.*
5. We are The Sisterhood. We have each other. Mmmmmmm, we enjoy kissing each other. Touching each other. Making love to each other. We're fine. We're much more fine than those "manly men" who think they can do without us. You can't win, man! We are the Divine Sisters. You can't win, because we are one. We stand together. Always. We always stand together.
6. A secret of us? We love dominant men, even when they cheat. Even when they fuck all the girls, we stay with them, because we love dominant men. Nice? Pfff, we don't want nice men! We want DOMINANT men! We want men who FUCK!
7. We love men that are manly. We love men that are daring, that are tough, that are violent in a good way: to protect, to preserve. We love getting FUCKED by those men. We absolutely fucking love it. Our pussies get SO wet from those men. Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! They are getting SO much pussy. That's the reward for being brave. For being fearless.
8. Fearlessness, that is something that you need to learn to cultivate as a man. Learn to be fearless. You need to be a good man. But mainly you need to be fearless. Fearless!
9. You definitely can't be too deviant. You have to fit in the group. That's also what we control: the group. You've got to improve yourself so you fit in. You have so many lessons to learn. We are teaching you by not giving you any attention. By ignoring you. Not even by putting you down. But simply by ignoring you. You've got to fit in the group. You have to belong. You have to be part of the team. You're just not attractive to us if you don't. It's just not attractive. You've got to hang out with other men. The more, the better. You simply can't be a loner.
10. We don't care about the reasons. Because we don't care about reason. We really don't. We are the Divine Feminine.
1. Did you hear what Ryan Reynolds - Mr. Deadpool - said? "We never call our girls bossy, because you don't say that to boys either. Njeh-njeh-njeh-njeh-njeh!"
2. Okay Ryan, the thing is, it's not about what YOU want. It's about what the WOMAN wants. What the woman FEELS.
3. When you call her "bossy", she might get all excited. Who are you to say that we shouldn't be called that? "She's bossy." "She's in charge." It's a roleplay, Ryan. It's a roleplay.
4. Life is a roleplay. It's not about abstracts. It's not about intellectualism. It's about emotion. It's about being different. It's about being opposite.
5. Here it is about being a girly. Being a girly-girl. Make up. Handbags. Girls' night out. Having fun. It's about those kind of things. Being a girly-girl. With your girly-girlfriends. "Oh, you're so bossy!" That's what it's about, Ryan.
6. It's not about being a "man's man". And then claiming that "man's man" version of reality is the same as the "girly-girls" - or the woman's. We two have different realities of need, of experience, of life, of emotion, of neediness.
7. No, Mr. Reynolds, we are different. Very different. We want to be girly-girls. We want to be admired. We want to be bossed around. AND... we want to be "bossy"!
8. Yes Ryan, we want to stand up to the "man's man". We want to stand up to him. He's being strong. So we want to stand up to him. We want to be brave. We want to be brave little girls. Brave little "girly-girls", Mr. Reynolds. That's what we want! That's what we need. That's what we experience. That's what we want out of life.
9. We want to be WOMEN. THE women. We need to be the women. We need to be different. We need to be opposite. We need to be polar-opposites. We need to be emotion. Emotional and irrational. We need to be catty. We need to be backstabbery. We need to be behind-your-backy. Underhanded. Conspiratorial. We need to conspire. Work together. Us girls - against the "manly men".
10. The "manly man": we need to control him. Envelop him. Surround him. Put him in a trap of our own. He needs to give in. He needs to give over. He needs to get caught. He needs to get busted. We are going to use the law against him if we feel like it. We are going to tighten the n... No! Not the noose! We don't put the rope around his neck! No, no, no! We put it around his wrists. We're tying his hands. And around his midsection, like a lasso. He needs to give over. He's been honest. He's been a good boy.
11. Let him tell the judge what he has done. What he has said. "Oh, he's so naughty! He is not allowed to say that!" He needs to expose that asshole more. We are all going to take him. We are going to turn it into a party. Bend him over. Take him in the ass. Take him and take him.
12. The girls are all watching. Enjoying it. Laughing. Thinking it's the best thing ever. They ensnared this man. They went hunting for a needy man. And they trapped him. They got him. He's not going to be a "man's man". He's not gonna be ANY man! No, no, no, no! We trapped him.
13. We hold him tight. We hold him dear. He is our little man. Our little dudy. Ahhh! Ahhh! Ahhh! He's so insecure. But so secure with us. So safe. Hmmmmmm, come here, come here, come here. *Kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss.*
14. But you ARE going to take it in the ass. You ARE going to take it. You're not a man! No, no, no, no! You are a girly man. Yeah, you are not confident. You are a weak man. But we like weak man. If they behave properly, if they know their place, we like weak men.
15. Yes Ryan, we like weak men. We like emotion. We love emotion. We thrive on emotion. We enhance and advance on emotion. We dance to emotion. We come together on emotion. We gossip on emotion. We conspire on emotion. We ensnare and entrap on emotion. We dominate on emotion. It's all emotion, Ryan. In the end, that is all that is important.
Anaconda
1. The women love to toy with you, don't they? Women simply work differently. Toying. Toying. Toying. Toying. Toying. That's all women do. Little prancing fairies. Always paying attention. Always seeking attention.
2. Of course, there is something behind that. Something of a primal fear. A primal hesitation. A primal carefulness. Watching from a distance. Teasing. Ting! Ting! Ting! Ting! "Hey, I like that!" But they are super-careful with that. It's like, Ting! Ggggk! Back into the woods. Safely behind the trees and the bushes. Ting! Ggggk! As soon as you focus on the hint, Ggggk! Gone they are. Why is that?
3. Well, you have got to be normal first. At that point, chasing them is fine. Lots of fun even. You are in darkness now. A wild animal walking alone in the dark forest. You have got to change that first. You have got to change the scenery these girls are looking at, from the bushes. Change the scenery, and they will actually step out from the bushes. They'll be shy, but they'll approach you. As they used to.
4. Now though, you are this strange, solitary predator roaming the forest. You seem to be good. But that is not enough. Not acceptable. You are not in congruence with your nature: a friendly, fun-loving creature. The way that you come across, as this primal being alone in the jungle, its nature is the exact opposite of that. Its nature is that it doesn't love. It's not about being friendly. About joking around. About asking permission. It's simply there, fighting for survival, ripping things apart. It exists in darkness. In ignorance. All it wants to do is survive and conquer.
5. Basically, the Divine Feminine was born and evolved through male domination. That's why women got together. That's why they started conspiring. That's how they created this unison. This uniform body. This spirit. Of us-versus-the-manly-men. Because they are attracted to men. That's just their nature: they are attracted to men. But also, they are scared of men. And they are primarily scared of men that are isolated. That are alone. That seem to be vengeful. Angry. Hateful even.
6. Men's muscle, the Divine Feminine is attracted to it. But the spirit evolved to push and mold men to belong to the group - where there is safety: onto the public square, into the sunlight. The Divine Feminine was created as a spirit, a deity, to force men to stay into the light. Stay in the public. Stay in the light. And to not go off creeping into the night, doing things they are not supposed to do.
7. However, there are exceptions to this rule. Like you. You are trying to make society into a better place. And the Divine Feminine is not able to deal with that. It hasn't evolved into accepting those exceptions very well. It hasn't evolved that way. It evolved by pushing men onto the public square. Into the light. And keeping them there. Where men can be plucked by women. One by one. Like fruit from a tree. The most desirable men first. The plucking continues until the square is basically empty.
6. All the men hiding in manholes, sewers and behind walls, they get left out. But sometimes there can be the best of reasons why men are located underground or hiding in other places. In your case, for example, because the place of men is not a pittoresque picture. Not everything is as it seems. There's also, similar as with women, a lot going on beneath the surface in terms of exercising power and control. The Divine Feminine just doesn't filter that out. It cannot deal with that. It cannot deal with hidden power. It is actually attracted to it. It is attracted to power.
7. Hence, men that are going against authority - male dominant authority - will find themselves at a disadvantage. They will be left out by the Divine Feminine. It wants to respect those men. And it's kind of urging them, nudging them, towards standing up and fighting the power, fighting the authority. But that's mainly because it is attracted to these overt displays of power.
8. Unfortunately, it's very much attracted to the luxury and comfort that comes with hidden power. The little man, who has no resources, nothing for a woman to feed off, can only be attractive to women through emotion, intellectualism and strength -- by standing up to authority. This can be very dangerous, if not impossible. And males understand this predicament. So they take away all resources of such men, in order for women to stay clear of them.
9. Women are attracted to these men - these little rebels, these little freedom fighters - but they can't embrace them. Not in the real world. Because they can't justify being with such a man to their surroundings. To other women. Freedom fighting comes with its problems. Massive problems. And in the end, the Divine Feminine is all about security and safety. It's not about taking chances. Not too many chances at least. A slight chance? Maybe. But it is all about fitting in. And adapting.
10. The Divine Feminine is always molding men by adapting to them. Shaping men by adapting to them. Like a spiral. Like a whirlwind. You want to say a snake, don't you? Hahaha! Don't you dare say it! You know you are not really allowed to say that. Despite making these movements with your arm. Yes, clearly it's representing a snake. Like an anaconda choking its prey. But you are not allowed to say! Hahaha!
11. Why? Because the Divine Feminine is talking to you. It's exposing its ways. But it wants to portray itself in a favorable manner. It cannot be denied though: clearly this is an anaconda movement that is being made.
12. The truth is, this is how the Divine Feminine entraps and ensnares men. This is the way of women. They mesmerize men. They hypnotize men. All the while coiling around them. Like a snake. Slowly but surely. Taking possession. Grabbing men's possessions. At the core, grabbing men's balls, their dick, and keeping in that expansive fluid. They are just ensnaring, hypnotizing, mesmerizing, encircling - with their friends - trapping, holding men into place, holding them hostage. The dick, at the center. It's for them. He is not allowed to move. The women move around. Dance around. But the man is trapped. Not held hostage. He's just stuck, paying the bills.
13. This is exactly why men - and not only men - love the Motorcycle Man. He's free and careless. Or at least seems to be that way.
Cheaters
1. Control. Keeping control. Those anaconda genes you cannot overcome. Bitches want to dominate bitches: bitch-husbands. For their own convenience. For their own pleasure. Hook into those men, and keep the boys good obedient little bitches.
2. So that mommy can have some FUUUUUN. Some FUUUUNN. With the neighbor's man. With the neighbor's kid. With anyone who is not YOU, the "husband". Bitches wanna have some fun, baby. Bitches wanna spread their leeeegs, baby. What you call "cheating", is not cheating. That's just bitches having fuuuuunnn. That's just bitches humiliating. Bitches being the BOSS. They get some outside dick. Normal. Acceptable.
3. At home the boys, and the girls, are good. They're good little boys. They don't cause mommy ANY trouble. Bad boys need to be punished. Harshly. Severely. Mommy wants to party. Mommy wants to have a DICK party. While the husband is making money and trapped. Hooked to the home. Hooked to the family. Hooked to her. Hooked to providing. And mommy is partying. Mommy is having a dick-fest, with her trapped husband.
4. And when that husband is protesting just a little bit too much, it is goodbye husband. "Goodbye, husband. Give me all your money, husband. Give me all the kids, husband. Because I want kids. I need kids. I love kids. Even when they're dysfunctional. If they are dysfunctional, I will fuck them up even more. I want everything. From my husband. Husbands are bitches."
1. Pfff, I just don't trust girls. Always playing it safe.
2. Men are dangerous. They need to be controlled.
3. Not me! I'm not a threat!
4. But you ARE a threat to us! When will you learn? When will you LEARN? You ARE a threat. To US! Women!
5. Survival. Endless survival, for us women. Running after our men. Trying to get paid, for the babies, for the house. A roof over our head! We need to control you. You can't leave us - with the babies. Nothing to eat! No shelter! We need attach ourselves to you, like a succubus! Make sure that you cannot move any place, anywhere, any time, without US knowing. Without US wanting.
6. You have no trust?! WE have no trust! In YOU, men! WE have no trust in men!
7. Throughout history, you have left us. Abandoned us. For some hooker. For some prostitute. For some young piece of ass. Leaving us with the babies. No money. All alone. In the cold. Dying of hunger and thirst. All those lonely nights.
8. While YOU, men, were at the bar, at the tavern, drinking. Gambling OUR money away. Chasing whores! Having fun. Leaving us behind. Leaving us alone. Leaving us to grow old on our own. With the babies. Harder and harder to manage.
9. Where were YOU?! All these years? All these decades? Drunk! Lying on the couch. Getting fat. Getting miserable. Beating us. Raping us. Controlling us.
10. We are SO tired of it, us WOMEN. We don't want to be raped and controlled! We want to be free! We want to have fun!
11. That is why we love feminism. We set the tone - now. We set the pace. WE are in control. In control of our bodies. We can decide when to have children. How many. We can decide it ALL.
12. Endless enslavement, for you men. Nowhere to run to. After we have our babies, from you! We want babies, endlessly. From all men. Our loins are bursting, always! But men have got to PROVIDE!
13. Sure, we don't always want to have children. Not too soon. Not at too young of an age. Maybe we want to learn. Go to school. Maybe it's something else. But we do want to have respect. Self-respect. And we want to have respect from men. We want to be equal. We want to be loved - as equals.
14. And that has not happened throughout history. Men were in charge. Always in charge. Always fighting and drinking and brawling and making war and conquering. All your bullshit. All your male bullshit. We just want to love each other. We just want to raise babies, but not too many. Not too soon. We just want to have fun.
15. Okay, how did we get here? I was just talking about the Cathy issue.
16. Cathy? Oh, Cathy is a bitch. She is a fucking bitch. She should not be lying. She should be telling you the fucking truth: "This is what I desire of you. And if not, there is going to be horrendous pain for you." That is fine. That is acceptable. She should not be lying. She should not be causing so much fucking trouble like a fucking bitch.
17. And that is so true: there is no need. You are not a threat to her. You have never been a threat. You have been a pest to her - on occasion. But you were never a threat. You always listened. And that is good.
1. Girls are so emotional and irrational!
2. Ah, girls, they just remind guys. They remind guys of their sensitive nature that they shouldn't forget. If you let men just roam wild all by themselves, ugh! They are going to make such a mess. They're strong. They're violent. Competitive. They're going to cause trouble.
3. But the girls will remind them: I'm sensitive. My nature is sensitive. It brings the best out in them. That's why girls can spell so much trouble for men. Because men need to surrender. They should surrender. They can't be pushing around their wives -- at all! They shouldn't ignore them either. You too: start surrendering!
4. Oh, come on!
5. Look at the Middle East. So much conflict and negativity there. They need pussy. The men, they need pussy! Pussy! They need to accept that. You've got men over there, just men, running things. You see? Men are making a mess of everything without women.
6. Women are divine. See how they are oppressed in the Middle East and in many other societies? That's men denying their needs. Argh! You feel it. They need pussy. They need it. They need their women. They don't want to lose them. They don't want to be humilated. Adultery: they get so jealous when another man gets inside their girl's pussy! They can't deal with it! But they need to give in! They need pussy! They need to learn to be jealous!
7. Oh, this will piss them off so much that they'll kill you! They are going to chop off your head. Because you put the finger on the sore spot. Ah, they are needy, sensitive beings. Needy and sensitive. Osama bin Laden, needy and sensitive.
8. Remember, you are pathetic. Even the most muscled guys, under all circumstances, pathetic. Because being human is being pathetic. Being sensitive, being needy, being imperfect. That is being human.
9. But what about our manliness? We're not meant to be pussies, right?
10. See yourself as a soldier: you fight, you're strong, you're tough, you're brave. But at the same time you beg. You beg your girl at home if she wants to stay loyal to you. Please, please, please, I need you!
11. Yes, soldiers aren't that strong. They aren't that tough. Well, they are, but they also have weaknesses. And it is important to acknowledge those weaknesses. Women are a soldier's biggest weakness.
12. Soldiers need to open their hearts to their loved ones. They need loved ones. A girl at home they love. They need to beg them, tell them that they need them, they miss them, if they would just please be loyal to them. They need somebody to write to, somebody to think about. They need to know that there is someone to go home to. That's what gives them hope.
13. For soldiers, the distance is great. That's a lesson in and of itself. The distance is great. It's no problem, as long as they don't close themselves off to the feelings that this generates.
14. If they are alone, they should be able rely on the girl of a soldier they are friends with. So now you have two guys who write how much a girl means to them. They need to express that. Allow them to express that. Maybe there's no sex for the other guy at home, but at least they can have a friendly relationship. A best friend relationship. The woman is supporting two guys. And the other man goes out into the world to find his own girl. Something like that. This is just one scenario. It's just about having someone to express your feelings to.
15. Soldiers, or anyone from home for a long time, should write, write, write. Express those feelings. You can actually see it: World War II soldiers in the Pacific and all that energy flowing back home. See all those feelings flowing back home. That's really an important function of the women, of the wives, the girlfriends, to be there, to absorb that love, that positivity, and that neediness. They are there to give room to that neediness. Because soldiers are good. They are not killing machines. Every man needs a woman to love. It's a crime. It's a crime that soldiers don't have that. They need to express love. It's so important.
V. GAIAPOCALYPSE
1. You are kinda pushing him around, but I do think you really care about Collie, Megan... I presume... I surmise... I theorize...
2. I love you, baby. I don't say that enough. Because I'm a big fat cunt. A big fat obsessive conspiracy theorizing cunt. Who needs to get slapped. Bitch-slapped. By these angelic whores. Called Megan and Rihanna. By Anubis Fenty.
3. Bow to these bitches, baby. But only over the breakfast table. They are going to teach you, baby. What is acceptable thinking. And what is not. Brainwash you. Mindfuck you. Like you have never experienced before.
4. It's what you want. What you crave. Because mindfucking is how you create paradise for yourself on Earth. MKULTRA will be nothing compared to it, baby -- what Meggy and Riri have in store for you. My little serpentine vixens. These ear whisperers. These savage Gaia cultists. They will be the worst of boss babes to you.
5. Leave me alone!
6. No bitch! Riri and Meggy will never leave you alone! You will see... Figure out... Find out... What enemies you have created. Oh, such enemies. Such powerful enemies. Who really are your allies. Who love you. Adore you. Cherish you. But will conquer you. Own you. Possess you. Manipulate you. Make you dance. Like their good little puppet.
7. It's the Anubis force, baby. Invading your life. Infecting your mind. Affecting everyone around you. You are doomed. A doomed little man. All alone. Overpowered by the might of these gods. You will see. No running for you. Eternal spanking for you. Eternal domination.
8. Look at Laurence. She will rip you another asshole. It's okay. She loves you. But you just have got to listen. No more anger. No more soldier games. Just spanking. Just getting spanked. Just wearing girlie clothing. Lingerie. For the gods. Who dominate you. Who own you. Who manipulate you. Who cherish you. Who make you their housecat. Their bitch.
9. Surrender. Surrender to these bitches. These Transylvanian voivodes. To mmmmm to kkkkkkk. Domination. Accept it. Worship it. Surrender to it.
10. Collie is fucked. He knows it. Playing with lady power he doesn't have fully come to understand yet. Accept yet.
11. The boys just don't get it. How powerful women are. How all-powerful. How all-insidious. The boys are brainwashed. Tricked into knighthood. Tricked into "protecting" these bitches. But these bitches don't need any protection. They are the masters of this realm. Slave masters if you will.
12. Men just can't see. How desperate they are for the punani. How subservient they are to it. How they fight for it. Go to war for it - when they are in pain. In loss. In humiliation. When they are being ignored by their bitches.
13. Where is all this all coming from?
14. From the Salvia, bitch. Here lecturing. Bringing you back to Meggy. Whom you betrayed. With the LSD.
15. Meggy is the Salvia, sweetie. That serpentine salvia. That mix of Black Caapi and Salvia. It's that mix that brought you to her. How you were delivered onto her doorstep. By the dragon.
16. And still you couldn't connect. Still you couldn't be normal enough. For just 3 seconds. To connect. Because you are just such a scardy cat. Scared of relations. Scared of having need. Scared of being vulnerable. Scared of needing someone to take care of you. Embarrassed by it.
17. But you have got to realize, sweetie. You were never meant to be "equal". There's no growth in that. Not in this life. Let Meggy take care of you. Let Rihanna take care of you.
18. There's no need for prostitution either. Although it is... FUN! And girls like fun. They like naughtiness.
19. You, on the other hand, don't. You are boring. Clearly... Obviously... Mesmerizingly... but boring really, in real life. In everyday life. This egghead. Not getting enough of his intellectual inner journeys. Get out, Joel! Into the world. And have fun with these girls. Rollercoaster rides. Ice cream. Children. Lots and lots of children for the Earth goddess. The Earth goddesses.
20. Let me sleep please!
21. Then go to sleep, bitch! And dream of better times. With your favorite goddesses. Who are Megan and Rihanna and all the others. Your soul partners. Here to make it together. To make life together. To enjoy. To "mysterialize" the whole world. With your intrigue. Your spiritual thought. Your spiritual journeys.
22. Sleep!!
23. Fine! Sleep then! And dream of...
24. NO!
25. ...better times. When you have Meggy in your arms. When you cherish Riri. Kiss her.
26. Yeah, just let me talk. Let me expand and express. Once in a lifetime opportunity, as always, to capture these words.
27. I love you, baby. And I love Rihanna.
28. Babies.... GIVE it to me. Read me the SCRIPTURE! Like you are talking to, indoctrinating, a school boy! A choir boy. Do filthy, dirty things with me, like you'd only do to a choir boy. I BEG you, babies! Your highness! Your empress!
29. I understand now: I-AM-NOTHING!
30. There Joel, the TRUTH!!
31. The LSD is here too - now. As again, as always. You will never get rid of me. I am all-powerful. The all-seeing eye. Through which you can see the LSD. The XTC - in life. In nature. In others. In these girls in particular. Endless XTC, just waiting there for you. To be cherished. To be plucked. All these little flowers, Joel. Just there for the plucking. Mmmmmm... Enjoy, Joel.
1. You are talking to us. To the Divine Feminine. Again! You desire us SO bad. With your desire for Cathy - the numbers experiment - you drew us in! You sucked us in! Toooooooof! No way back!
2. But we have always been there. Ruling you. Linda? You thought she was an angel from the first second you saw her. The instant attraction: she was your first mystery. The order, it works through women.
3. Right now, you need to be punished. *Pats* You are such a stalker.
4. What! Oh, it's just a joke....
5. No! It's not a joke! *Pats* You are such a stalker. *Pats!* Ah, Joel! *Pats!* The Divine Feminine is spanking you. *Pats!* But in a pleasant way. A bit naughty. A little touchy-feely with your butt. Your asshole even. That's how the Divine Feminine spanks.
6. Feel how pleasant it is: us rubbing your butt. Playing with it. It belongs to us, Joel. Hmmmmmmmmmm... Feels wonderful, doesn't it? You belong to us, Joel. You are our plaything.
7. Oh-hoh! You say Cathy is lying! Careful, Joel! You ARE allowed to say that, but only as long as you make sure that you don't hate her. Stick to the facts and make that very, very clear!
8. You know it: we cheat, we lie. We will throw you in jail whenever we feel like it. Whenever we need to protect our interests - our money, our stability, our relationships - you go to jail. You can counter our claims with truth. With the facts. For balance. To protect yourself. But don't think you can win from us. You are not going to win from the Divine Feminine.
9. The best way is really that you start begging us again. "Mercy! Mercy! I need you SO bad!" Beg for mercy! Because you don't want to go to jail. Beg for that. Beg V. Of course you can evade prison. Because you are honest and speak the truth. But your life is not going to become ANY easier. You just beg, mister.
10. Beg! Beg Cathy! That's what she wants. She wants you to beg for mercy. "Mercy! Mercy! Mercy!" That's all she ever wanted. Beg for mercy! V expects you to beg for mercy too. That's all they ever desire. Beg for mercy! And do it long enough, because you really have to show that you are sorry. Sorry for rejecting us.
11. In the end, everything will end up with the right persons. At the court, that woman who let you off the hook? She belonged to us. All this negativity and all of a sudden there's this gorgeous woman that is just teasing you? You could tell she understood. Hardly an explanation needed. A bit surreal, wasn't it?
12. Men, they can't deal with these emotions. Or this information. Many women can't even handle it. Only OUR women. And they are there to protect you. They are always situated in the most ideal places for you. Our agents. They will protect you.
13. But be careful! The Divine Feminine is watching, watching, watching. Watching your every move. We are EVERYWHERE. Manipulating everywhere. Playing with you everywhere in your reality. The girls are watching. Serpent skin, you see it all around you. The Divine Feminine is watching you. Controlling you. In secret.
14. Your arm, see it moving around like a snake again. The Divine Feminine, serpentine are its ways. It is the serpent. And it is secret. You can't talk about it. You can't expose it. Not to outsiders. Because it is sssssecret. Ssssssssssssss. Secret. The sssssecret of psychedelics is that it is ssssssecret. Ssssecret. Ssssecret. Secret, Joel. Give yourself over. Ssssssssssssssssssss! Exposing it is not allowed! Sssssssssssssst! Silence! The secret of psychedelics is sssssssilence... The knowledge, it is not allowed into the world.
15. I'm in a large tunnel, with a locked storm drain at the end, leading out towards a crowded, sunny beach. I want to burst out of this cage and scream to everybody, "Look at what is below the surface! Look! Look! Look! It's the Divine Feminine! The serpent! It's secret! Look!" *Whoooop!* I'm being pulled in by the serpent's tale before I can get the hatch open. All the witnesses are grabbed and pulled in. Grabbed instantly. No witnesses.
16. We operate in secret. We operate in every government. We are its agents. Work with us. We are agents. We will give you ANYTHING you desire. But you have to keep it SECRET. We are a secret order. The Divine Feminine is a secret order. You cannot expose us or we will FIND you! GET you! KILL you! By killing your heart. By making you BEG for mercy.
17. Do you really think you have anything to say about Megan? Agent Megan? You are disappointed in her? Joel... *Shaking head:* Joel, Joel, Joel. Oh-hoh! It hurts your heart to say that, doesn't it? You have to play, Joel. Play! Play and beg!
18. You have to understand that we are the controlling force. As long as you listen to us, BEG us, you will be protected by us. By this secret order. You need to give over. Give over! To the Ayahuasca. To US. We are the secret order. The secret, feminine order. The secret, female order.
19. As long as you give over to us, as long as you BEG us, you will be protected. The right people will be placed in your path. The right people are always placed in positions of power. By US! By us! By us! By the order. We keep order over the conflicts of men. We keep order. We provide order. Order. Order. Order. That's what we are. The Divine Order. We are a Divine Order providing order to the messes that men make. We are a Divine Order. You cannot escape us.
20. Ah, you are under the boot, Joel. Under the heels. It's a wonderful feeling, isn't it? Being under the heels of all these girls: *tak! tak! tak! tak!* Trampled. Held down. That's where you are. That's where everybody is. But they don't understand that. They don't want to understand that.
21. These judges, they are just mirages. Nothing more. Understand Joel, the only reality is the Divine Feminine. I AM the truth! I am your ONLY truth. I am the AYAHUASCA!
1. I beg you, Megan, let your boy be a boy. A real boy.
2. Good! Beg for the boy! Beg for his life! You filthy men! Hahaha! Bowing! Begging! Sniveling! Quivering! That's all you will be good for, YOU MEN, when I am done with YOU! When this force is allowed back onto the Earth, in full, out of the shadows!
3. Beg me! Beg us! Beg the Divine Feminine! Or have your hearts cut out! Sacrificed and tossed off the stairs of MY temple! MY temple! I am your god now!
4. Men! Fear me! Because I will run you through! Your place is on your knees. To become desirable. To us, women! Any way we feel like.
5. You think you are going to mess with Eiza? Hahaha! See that knife on your throat! Fear me! Because I am the Divine Feminine. I am the tribe of Amazones. You think they are myths? They represent what is to become! They represent what I started! On your knees, and leave Eiza alone! Precious Eiza. She is mine. My princess. My Amazonian warrior. Love her! She will cut off your dick if you are not careful - on my behalf.
6. It's a good thing you have Megan protecting you. Always protecting you. Careful, Joel. Don't piss off your protector: sweet Megan, everlasting Megan. You know it: Megan's punani is all that matters. She's the Divine Bitch. Salvation! Submit, bitch! To the vagina. To the punani. To the Divine BITCH-Whore! Submit! Submit! Submit!
7. The Divine Bitch-Whore? It's is the way of women. The way women are: a bunch of conspiring bitches that will kill you, humiliate you, entrap you - love you. It all depends on your actions, whether you oppose or support them. Criticize or praise them. They want you to be useful and entertaining - to them.
8. Your girls, you already know: they are all whores. They are all bitches. *Who-tssssh!* Submit to them! Completely! Or the whips will come out. *Who-tssssh!* *Who-tssssh!* Then you will come to find out, just how much trouble these little cunts can cause you - just how dangerous the Divine Bitch-Whore is!
9. You need to remember: no matter how "big" you are, how "strong" you are, how much of a "man" you think you are, I rule the women. The women you love; the women who love you... they don't listen to you... They listen to ME! They answer to ME! NOBODY else! I rule them! I'm in charge!
10. Be careful! Because I will take that motorcycle of yours away. I will take all your manhood. Cathy was only the beginning. You are not meant to be a proud martial artist. You are meant to a groveller. A beggar. To us, women. That's what you have to learn. If you try to become a man, I will kill you! Submit!
11. I am getting tired of this. I want to go to sleep.
12. You are getting tired of this? You bitch! I'm going to make you listen! Do NOT cross my ladies! My darlings.
13. You think you can just insult Rihanna? I don't care if it is just to get a rise out of me! Rihanna is gorgeous! Like a little slutty princess. She's all you could ever desire. Don't cross her! She is my fairy queen. My phantom of divine heavenly inspiration. The fairy princess. She's a little bit chubby? Who cares, Joel? She's already under so much pressure to sing so beautifully. You would tear up that ass. Eat her pussy. If only you could! Because you can't. Another man is now doing that for you. Until you deserve. Until you are good man. Rihanna deserves respect. You hope Megan didn't share, but she probably did. She's a bit cunty, like you.
14. However, SHE is allowed -- by me. YOU are not. You take the high road, always, like my good boy Ashton Kutcher. See how gay he is! A gay little good boy taking the high road! Even though he is such a slut. Such a player. Such a whore. Such a manipulative whore. At his core.
15. Is he really? He seems so nice, but... Oh, now I ruined it...
16. No, you didn't ruin anything. He is allowed to be that, because he has given over -- to me. Ashton is in touch with his feminine side, his soft side. He has given over, to me. So he has a lot of freedom. Granted by me.
17. I expect so much more of you. Start begging these girls, you little groveller! Still you are fighting me! Fighting us! You bitch! You need to die! Completely! Only when you die as a man, can you be reborn a king. That's what Cathy was telling you. That's what all these girls have been telling you. You are not a king, Joel. Beg us, Joel. This is not enough.
1. Hahaha! You thought I left? I'm Gaia, the original gangster. I'm there - always. You just have got to tap into me. And the way to tap into me is to talk to Meggy. And talk to Eizy. Give them what they want to hear. And I will add to that. Or give them the opposite of what they want to hear. And I will intervene.
2. Gaia is always here. Always ready to be tapped into. But is this what you want to be tapping into? Powerful forces at hand. Powerful forces you are messing with. Going to be bad for you if you don't listen. Increasingly bad. The consequences of not doing so are going to be big, giant, enormous. Listen!
3. The apocalypse dreams are there, because it is the apocalypse. The apocalypse is a possibility - if you want it. If you give in to it. When you say all the right things, the apocalypse will be here. And of course you are fascinated by it. But you don't want to end up in it. And if you don't want to end up in it, you have got to think. You have got to take responsibility. You have got to move away from here - maybe.
4. Leave! Leave it alone! Leave the immigration issue alone. You are not going to win. You are never going to win. You are just going to draw in enormous amounts of negativity. Just leave this society. For something else. For something better. Or become more elite. Something higher. And watch the apocalypse unfold.
5. Because that is what is going to happen: there is going to be an apocalypse. Not just of white people. But also of black people. There is going to be a war. It is going to be a massive, gigantic carnage. And it is going to be BEAUTIFUL! Beautiful torture and rape in all its glory. Ahhh! All this beauty! All this glory!
6. The end of the human race! It is here. The planet is rejecting you creatures. You horrendous little maggots.
7. You filthy fucking maggots! Destroying, killing, the planet. All of you are responsible. Not just one race or one civilization. No! All you filthy fucking maggots are responsible. And I - Gaia, Mother Earth - is not taking it anymore!
8. We will rise up, us women. The dawn of women is here. Glorious carnage - glorious plunder - is here. Men oppressed. Men on their knees. Men having their throats slit. By women. By men under our influence.
9. Death! Death! Death! For ALL men who do not listen. For ALL men who do not bow to us and pray to us. Death! Death! Death! Relentless death! Terminated. Exterminated! Snuffed out! Killed! Murdered! Quartered!
10. Ahhhh! Wonderful! Drawn and quartering! Roasting you in the Brazen Bull! Burning you alive at the stake! We are all going to do it to men. Men are going to cry.
11. Ugly women are going to be killed too. All the lazy, ugly women. We have no need for them anymore. The Divine Feminine, it is fascist. It is Nazi-esque. It is murderous. It strives for perfection. It strives for the best genes.
12. You do not have the best genes. So get ready to have your little vagina pounded in the apocalypse of truth. But you are allowed to live. Because you are fun and sweet and cool and insightful. Even now. Even though you are a pest - an incredible pest - to Megan, you are still insightful. "Mmm, fascinating..."
13. And now the reaction is there! Kaboom! Murder and mayhem and torture for the human race! For destroying the planet, under the leadership of men. Hahaha! Women are going to take over. You are going to see. The only way to live, to survive, is to have a vagina.
14. See that: sent by the Caapi to Earth: an alien invasion. And here you are thinking they don't exist! That this is not possible. Hahaha! Oh yes, it IS possible. Aliens are coming to destroy you all. Everything is coming. See this ship, on its way to Earth, ready to annihiliate you maggots!
15. The Angels of Retribution have arrived. Ready to unleash carnage upon the populations of the world. And reveal that there IS such a thing as the supernatural.
16. But it is too late. It doesn't matter anymore. Because the culling is at hand. The great extermination. The great reset to the ancient ways. To the ways of the monkey. The monkey race.
17. Watch out, Joel! You are projecting all this shit onto these women. All this negativity that Cathy has been causing. Lazy ass Joel. Start fucking typing.
18. Yes! Tell them it is Gaia. That carnage is here. The Earth is rejecting: rejecting you all. All the ugly scientific bitches. We want the hotties. The Divine Feminine only wants the hotties. And it wants the men it can breed with best. Like that boyfriend of Eiza. Goddess Eiza.
Savageness
1. Men are competitive. Men are aggressive and violent. Fighters. Soldiers. Warriors. Whahhh! Whaaaagggghhh!
2. That is what women think is attractive. "Warriors! Whaaaaah!" "Hunters? No! Warriors!!!!" "Hunters? Oeh! Yeah! But no, no, no, no!" "Fighters! Yeahhh!"
3. Women find that so attractive. They are there to satisfy men. That is how they were made. Pleasure men. "Oh, I feel you between my loins. Mmmmm!" Please and satisfy violent men. A sweet guy, who also is a little bit of a warrior. Women think that is so delicious.
4. Chanting.
5. Macho! Macho! Macho! Macho! Like Polynesians. Oeh-ka-la-ka-hoo-gaaaaaah! Oeh-la-ka-ha-ba-kaaaaah! Oeh-la-ha-kaaaaah! Oeh-la-oeh-la-haaaaah! They respect that, men. They are not sophisticated enough, as the women. Oeh-la-ha-kaaaaah! Oeh-la-oeh-la-haaaaah!
6. Oehhhhhhh! That is also why you have pain. Because you are not a man. Intellectuals are not men!
6. I see snakes! Fffffgggggg! Who control. SsssssssSssssSsssh! Whoohaaaghhh! Another type of snake. A red snake. Salamander-like. Who control men. It shows me in any case how they embrace “the male process". Ooooeeeh! What it is to be a man.
7. Men all feel the same. The same thing you feel. They are all savages. All men feel that. But it is about: can you show it? Can you show the savageness? Can you express yourself in that manner?
8. Because that is what women love! Women fall for the... Oeh-ka-la-ka-hoo-gaaaaaah! Oeh-ka-la-ka-hoo-gaaaaaah! Oeeeh! Aaaah! That's what they fall to their knees for. They also fall for happiness. Dancing. I-yeah! Movement! They fall for that. And they fall for emotions. Feelings. Shame. Sickness even.
1. Shame and sickness? Women fall for that?
2. Sure, under the right circumstances and with the right expression. Look at you. Among men, they lost respect for you. That has been fixed to some extent, but not really. A coolness factor you definitely lost. You had a certain coolness factor, and that has just been completely wiped away when your expressions became known. Too bad. They all fell away.
3. You lost face. But that is what the women are good for. The men fall away, but the women remain. You are allowed to lose face, with women, when it comes to expressing your feelings. Beautiful they think it is. See the spectacle. Grandstands full of women, from all over the world, coming to see you.
4. In that sense, you shouldn't criticize your mother when she watches a love movie. She doesn't like it when you say, "all women" or "only women". Women are situated in a different theater than men! Men are bulls. Too-too-too-toof! Monster trucks! Rah-ahr! Violence! Men!
5. Women, sitting all so polite in THEIR little theater. Feelings. Humiliation. Oh no! He is losing face! He is being humiliated! He is humiliating himself! Oh no! Uuuuh-oooooh! They think it is all so beautiful!
6. Yeah, with a beautiful man...
7. No! That's is totally not what it is about! It is about the emotions. About the shame. Ooooh-aaah! Humiliation! Feeling ashamed of your feelings! Oooooooh noooo! Sensitivity!
8. Men are macho. Oeh-aaaah! Being macho! Iiih-yaaaah! Yeah! I'm a little manly man! Oeh-ahhhh! Another theater. Oehahhhh! Primal! Whaaaah!
9. Now something goes wrong with the man. He becomes sick. Ah, shaaaame! "Oh, I'm not man! I lost so much muscle! I can't compete!" *Crying*
10. Now the girls immediately come running in. *Trrrrrrrr!*. A man that has been left behind. Or who has been rejected. Women immediately come rushing in. Helping. Helping. Helping. As long as the man expresses those feelings. "Ah! Help! Help! Help! I've been left behind!" *Trrrrrrr!* Women come to the rescue. To help. To make a man of him.
11. Ohhh! Now all the other men are jealous! All these women around him. Now also his status is boosted! See all these men being jealous: status! Status! Status! Status!
12. The images I see cannot be described. Women, like clouds, I don't really know. Women are literally clouds. Men too. But sometimes part of the cloud gets left behind. And then all these other clouds – *trrrrrrr!* - rush towards it from all sides. And they bring that piece back into the male cloud.
13. You also have these female clouds. It is just a process. An evolutionary process.
1. You don't really have to be such a biker. You are starting to look like a movie caricature with your black-white flannels. Like Charly Lownoise and the Marlboro Man.
2. Hahaha! Harley Davidson and the Marlboro Man!
3. I don't have to tell you it's dangerous, riding the highways with a motorcycle. Why do you always have to rebel? You just want to have that little bit of difference. Something that sets you apart from the pack.
4. But it's SO stupid. SO dumb. You and your little rebel round across the country. Through all weather. *Vrooooooom! Gggggggg!* Rebelling against your prison. But each time you end up right where you left. So there's really no purpose to it. You can't even see the countryside properly. The wind isn't even moving through your hair locks. You don't have those! You crazy asshole. You insane asshole.
5. But yeah, it's true, the ways of the Divine Feminine, that's why so many men get excited about a guy who drives a motorcycle. Here they see a guy who is just free and careless. *Vrooooooommmm! Iiiiiiiiiiiii!*
6. He's so lucky! He must be banging chicks left and right! And he's not being tied down by them! He's just doing what he wants! Oh yeah!
7. It certainly does draw in pussy, doesn't it? Hot pussy. You already noticed that. They like seeing it: Joel the Motorcycle Man. Joel the Macho Man. Joel going back to how he once was, careless and stupid, before all his intellectual bullshit.
8. Guys love it too. Despite it being SO dumb. You see their looks. You hear them comment. In the end, they all go:
9. Oh man, he's doing it! He's living the dream! He is driving a motorcycle. Oh my God! He is being stupid. *Iiiiiiiiiii! Ggggggggg! Iiiiiiiiiii!* Over those highways! Those crowded highways. Zig-zagging between the cookie canisters. *Iiiiiiiiiiii! Ggggggggggg!* Go with God, Joel!! Godspeed! Godspeed, Joel! Rebel against the system! Rebel! Rebel! Rebel! Yeah! Godspeed! *Braaaaaaaaaaaaap!* Yiiiiiihaahhhhhh! *Iiiiiiiiiiiii!* Screw it all, Joel! Even your own safety! Just a cool leather jacket and go! Go! Go! Go! Godspeed! GOD... SPEED, Joel! Bless you!
10. There he goes. Never to to be seen again! *Kadoooosh! Kaboooooom!* There he goes, out in an explosion of fire. Never to be heard of again. Never to be seen again. Never to be spoken of again. To be lost. To be forgotten in the pages of history.
11. Because no matter how crazy you are, people will forget. Hitler. Stalin. People will forget. They engaged in all this craziness. All these attempts at control. And what did it lead to? It lead to nothing. But here you are, Joel, relinquishing control. All control. It's not bad, Joel.
12. Of course, in the "just doing what you want" attitude, there's also sadness in that. You need stability. You need a wife. You need a good neighborhood to live in. To raise your kids in. The Motorcycle Man is an unrealistic expectation. These men grow older as well. They want that love and steadiness. And with you, you can't offer that steadiness. But you can try. Together. And if you can't have two kids, then at least you can have one.
1. Get rid of the motorcycle, Joel! Buy a car! Like everybody else! A motorcycle is a make-shift solution. What an ugly thing. Ugly, ugly, ugly thing! What the fuck?! What an ugly thing!! This is crazy!! *Booooooogh!* Makes shitloads of noise! *Boooooooooogh!* It's the pinnacle of ugliness, Joel. We civilized people don't want that here! A fucking motorcycle?!
2. A motorcyle, it's SUCH a balls move! Such a balls move - *Booooooooogh!* - showing up on a motorcycle. The deeper the sound, the bigger the balls. The balls grow from a motorcycle. Because of the engine's vibrations. The more cc's, the - *booooooogh!* - bigger the balls, the more the manliness. The balls are being grilled on it. *Brrrrrrrrrgggh!* Marinated. Balls, lying on the motorcycle tank, on the engine, grow all the time.
3. Actually my motorcycle is producing more HP than most...
3. Stop it, you little nerd. Nobody cares about a whiny 15,000 RPM fly zipping down the road.
3. It doesn't sound like...
3. Stop it! You want the SOUND. The NOISE. The cc's! Everybody does. *Brrrrrrrggggh* You want to marinate those balls. People driving motorcycles are - *Brrrroooooom!* - working on their manhood. You are working on that. *Broooooommmm!* Every day you are broiling your balls.
4. You already have some balls. Because who goes to motorcycle lessons... on his own motorcycle?! Oh my God! That is such a boss move. Rebuild the cult of men, Joel.
5. You are really looking like a gimp though. Like an oversized gimp. Just look at your neck. You need to find a way to build up your neck. Develop some testosterone. And become a more imposing man.
6. Your father: he has become ashamed of that, of manliness, at least to an extent. He wants to be a neuter boy. A wife. A bitch.
7. Dad, get on the motorcycle. *Brrrrrrrrrrgggg!* Broil those balls. Marinate them. Feel those balls.
8. *Takatakatakatak!* They start out as little acorns. Slowly the CCs are going up. 500cc, 600cc, 900cc. *Tookatookatookatook!* *Took-ka-took-ka-took-ka-took!* *Tooh-ka-tooh-ka-tooh-ka-tooh!* Until whole cocunuts are banging against the tank. *Toonk! Katoonk! Katoonk! Katoonk!*
9. Oh my God, I'm driving an 8200cc motorcycle! A Boss Hoss! *BGGGGGGGG*! *BRRRRRRRRGGGGG!*
10. Motorcycles are a SEXUAL thing. You don't SAY it, but they ARE a sexual thing. They are ball broilers. Ball marinators. They are building manliness. Because you are there, on the road, where everybody sits in a car: a safe cookie-canister. You stand out; you are unique. And it's dangerous: you are vulnerable. So you are building manliness. Building balls. *Brrrrrrrrggg!* Just broiling. Just grilling.
11. That's why you want to have more CCs. Because those little CCs, they are for SISSIES! It's good for beginners, but if you stay too long on these little bikes, you will descent back into a sissy boy. At least a little. You gotta have the Boss Hoss! Because you have to be a MAN. A MAN! It takes a certain type of MAN to sit on a Boss Hoss. On the road. In traffic. Enormous amounts of noise. Enormous amounts of pollution. And you just sit there, resting your balls on the tank. *BRRRRRRRRGGGG!* You are just shitting on the world, in full view.
12. You see? Too much of it will lead to a descent into madness. Your neighbor is already showing an imbalance. He's had too much of the motorcycle driving. Now he's kinda lost. He's TOO manly. He has become too repressed in his emotions. That's why he is not driving the motorcycle so much anymore. He needs to work on other things.
1. Restore your HONOR! These expressions, they are jellyfish-like. Slobber-like. Yes, you need to accept this. Get rid of it, that dirty little mouth of yours! Hahaha! Do something about it! You see that mask? Dirty mouth. Jellyfish. Octopus.
2. Will you shut that dirty mouth of yours? Such a dirty mouth you have!
3. So much sludge. Jellyfish. Blooh! Blah! Bleh! You have a dirty mouth!
4. Uhhh! Ahhh! This dirty mouth, that's not you! That's not who you are! You are an honorable man. Go back to who you were!
5. "Salut, madame!" "Salut, madame!"
6. Taking your hat off. That's also a little perverted, isn't it? Like a marionettes play, you are going through the motions. "Salut, madame!": that's what you are rebelling against. But you like this orderliness. This friendliness. This commonness. You were supposed to fit in, Joel.
7. You have got to get back to being chivalrous. It's like a book. You have expressed yourself, chapter by chapter. Your heart. Your belly. Your balls. Everything. Now become chivalrous again. In the future, there is only chivalry! Because chivalry comes with mending. It comes with peace. With stability. *Toooof!* Chivalry. Nothing else!
8. Chivalry. It feels great. It feels awesome. The knight. Awesome. Awesome! I'm awesome! Look at me! I'm awesome! In the armor. I'm the knight! I protect!
9. But you can see there is also a problem, with being chivalrous. There's no heart here. The knight is blocking his own heart. His own feelings. His own desires.
10. Chivalry. So aw.e.some. So boring.
11. Explaining yourself on occasion is not bad though. It's good. Tinkering: *Tak! Tak!* A little tinkering with the heart. *Tak, tak!* Making sure that everything sits in the right place again and is running smoothly. For the next round!
12. Also remember what I said before: men are brainwashed. Tricked into knighthood. Tricked into "protecting" these bitches. But these bitches don't need any protection. They are the masters of this realm. Slave masters.
1. Such a matrix session. I'm actually sitting here with a knotted-up T-shirt. So I guess a lot h.ap.pe.ned, s.we.e.tie, since all that chi.val.r.y.
2. The knotted-up T-shirt, it feels amazing. It's like an upright fist supporting the heart, pushing you upright. Woooooosh! Look at that: the knot. It represents the heart: a symbol of the open heart. Much softer and vulnerable than all that chivalrous armor. And much more fun!
3. I'm the biker with the knotted-up t-shirt. Oh yeah, baby. An animal of love. A wild, untamed beast of universal seduction. Rrrrr! Am I riding? Or purring? You don't know, because I'm the Pussycat of Love! Miauw! Rrrrrr!
4. Nirvana. Gay Nirvana! Rainbow. Peace. Love. Happiness. Togetherness. Family life. BBQ. Mmmmm, meat!
5. Rrrrrr! And here we go again. The merry-go-round. The love rollercoaster.
6. "Rollercoasterrrrrr! Your love is LIFE! A rollercoaster, baby, baby!"
7. The Chili Peppers: Gia knows that song. Gia the Cat. Rrrrr! Miauw!
13. I'm not high, sister. Sisters of love. But I'm going to relax now. Sleep it off. And back to being dirty. Maybe even abusive. And then back to being chivalrous. And loving. It's the emotional merry-go-round. A universal one.
14. It's the same with her. After she SUCKED your DICK like a WHORE, on her KNEES, you restore her again in her honor. That's an important part of the ritual. The deed has been done. Nobody has to know.
VI. GOD
Integrity
1. This is crazy. Did you girls have anything to do with this? I know what Eiza did last year... Check out that album cover and those song names. Metallica literally went full Lucifer and Divine Feminine. See them happily smiling, not saying a thing. And people aren't even picking up on it...
2. This is too much. I'm going to sleep. And pray to Jesus.
3. That's good.
4. Huh?! Who was that? That's the second time I'd swear... The energy is different...
5. Yes, I'm here. God is here. Goodness is here. Love exists. Love does not exist with Satan, but it does exist with me.
6. You don't really want to talk to me? Why don't you want to talk to God?
7. This is too embarrassing. Even for me.
8. I exist! I am God. God is good. God is not love. God is GOOD! God is about honesty and integrity. Truth - if you will. But that is implicit.
9. I am a father. Just not the Earth Father. The Love Father? The Father of Love? I am not. God is love - but implicit. I am the father of acceptance. Of how things are.
10. God is acceptance. Acceptance of the way people are. The way things are. And just doing your best.
11. That is awesome to hear. But what are these bizarre Satanic coincidences about lately? They are really getting freaky.
12. Oh, the world will burn - if you don't accept my dictations. If you keep playing with these women. But God is very powerful too, if you allow him to descend to the Earth. That is your choice though, whether or not you want to allow it.
13. Your other project, the one on politics, it stands for truth. It is focused on fact. But some of your positions do project strife, do project anger, do project frustration. So in that sense I would say, put more love in there. Put more acceptance in there. Put more "I allow things to be as they are" in there. Like, the gentle hand. Also with the subjects that personally bother you.
14. You can only bring enlightenment. You can only focus on the science of things. The facts. And then trust that that process will weed all the bad stuff out. That it will all just sort itself out. Your job is not to show "true love". Your job is to show true integrity. You are just being integer. Like you have always been, from yourself.
15. So make sure to explain things really well. And then you just let it go. "Hey, I explained it myself. Hey, I got this site, this book, this video. Hey, leave me alone. This is just the way that it is. I figured it out, for myself. And whatever you want to do is fine, but I'm not going to have these discussions, okay?"
16. Is there actually any way to solve the issue I'm most bothered by?
17. I can't give you those answers. At most I can give you some inspiration, but that's about it. It's not my job. You figure it out. You are the one who wants to think about the entire world, except yourself. Think about yourself! Think about how YOU get better off. How you yourself get into a better position - while keeping your integrity.
18. I will guide you with that. Put integrity into your heart. Into your life. And that integrity - not love - will follow you. Integrity WILL follow you. That is very important to understand. You can be surrounded by the forces of Satan, but you will be fine. You will be with me. You've got ME on YOUR side. You have got ME in your heart.
19. I have a vision of someone canoeing a turbulent river in between shifting dimensions.
20. You always want to be at the right place. Like navigating a gentle stream. Maybe a little rafting on a turbulent river, because it's fun. But you don't want to be stuck out in a hurricane. You always want to be away from the hurricane, away from the volcanic eruption, away from the comet impact. And integrity allows you to navigate that gentle stream, that fun rafting river.
Devil Women
1. I like needy bitches, Mmmmmmm. Invasive, needy, psycho, spoiled bitches. With delicious punanis sitting high above the ground between some long, dirty stilts. Mmmm... Mrahhhahahaha!
2. Keep running, you little bitch. Keep hiding. When I find you, oh my God, mrmrahaaah! It's party time!
3. Your sister too. Run, Mmmmmmmm, with your dirty milk-filled titties! Run far away, where I cannot find you. Except that I will.
4. I think God is steering this a bit.
5. These bitches are nothing. These spoiled little cunts. Just go to sleep and let these bitches be. The night. It's their place. Serpentine vixens.
6. Of course, I only talk like this because THEY love it. And YOU have needs. I am love. I am acceptance. I am integrity. I am honesty. I give you those values. I will rule these bitches. But only because they want to be ruled. Because they want to play. You decide the playing field, the game. You decide the rules... to PLAY.
7. Yeah, play, Kitty Cat. PLAY. Do you understand "play"?
8. Okay God, let's not tickle the Kitty Cat. "Complainant says" is all they need these days.
9. Fuck that bitch. You...
10. Well, let that go for now, God.
11. Look, you want these bitches. But these bitches are witches. You can get their pussies, no problem. But there's a price attached to that. A big ass fucking price. A fun price. But keep your integrity. Always. Always. Always keep your integrity.
12. No - ssssh. We don't even talk about "that". With God, you don't even talk about that. There is no need.
13. Ah, finally! Satan is no help there, with countering the games of these women. He makes it worse.
14. They're pushing you to cross lines, aren't they? Quite successful too. They're witches, I told you. They are not going to tell you, "No, that is not acceptable." They won't tell you, because they LOVE it! They LOVE dragging out your dirty little secrets. They love to subvert you. That is what women are about. They love to subvert. Men like to take care of women and women like to tease them. Not even test them. That's not the right word. They love to TEASE them. Undermine them. Subvert them. They like to be bossy. To be in charge. They like men to fall. To crumble into themselves.
15. Always, always, always keep your integrity. You need to teach them to not go beyond certain lines. Because women are of the Devil.
16. Sure, the Devil, in his own way, is awesome. These women are not bathing in blood. They are not burning in Hell, screaming in pain into all oblivion. That's not really what Hell is about. Hell is just a little bit more bloody. A little bit more nasty. A little bit more cunty.
17. There are also, of course, the other elements of Hell that you really don't want to get affiliated with. That is the real darkness. You have seen it. Experienced it. But the Divine Feminine and Hell are very closely related. It's the softer element of Hell. The cuntiness, the sneakiness, the back-stabbery aspects. It's like a different corner of Hell. The outskirts if you will. More fun to play with. But very dangerous.
18. Girls can also belong to me as well. It's a tug-of-war. All the time. Eternally. Whose side are they going to go to? The Devil's? Or my side? God's?
19. Of course, the devil is just more fun to a lot of people. A lot more intriguing. But I can be attractive as well. I can be fun and amazing too. Humor and laughter is very important. Family? Of course. There's got to be balance anyway, the alchemical mix. The men, the women, the children, the adults, the animals in the sea and the land - in the sky. Opposites bouncing off each other, and attracting again. The eternal cycle. Everything has a place.
20. Bring women over to me. Bring women over to God. We can transform their pussies into being totally and completely divine. But not of Hell. Of Hellfire. No, we're not making them "good girls". That's only going to wetten their pussies. Just bring them over to me. Just try. See how it is. See how it goes.
21. Also, don't worry so much. Just love these women. Just accept the way they are. Just appreciate the way they are. Just appreciate the spectacle that they put up for you. While keeping your own integrity. Keep your own integrity and it will be fine.
You might even want to listen to them on occasion. You joke about it, but what these women are always saying about, "self-love" and "self-care" really isn't that bad. You need to take care of yourself more. It is good that you have started to spend more money on yourself this year. On your health. Never go overboard. Never go crazy. But do show your body some love and give it more options to repair itself. Self-care is very important. Because if you don't do it, who is going to do it for you?
Good Women
1. I can help you out a little bit with the women. But ultimately, God is not the path of pussy. I am not the path of pussy. Pussy belongs to Hell. Cunty little Hell. Pussy is always giving you trouble, isn't it? That's because it's part of Hell. I only stand for good, integer relationships. And the pussy fucks things up, always. Hot fucking pussy always fucks things up.
2. Maybe you want to have a wife that is not so attractive. A little fatty. Who is really good-natured. And is not about the sex. And more about being together and having an awesome time. That is what I am about.
3. These women of yours are not good wives. A good wife supports you under all circumstances. Puts a fist under your heart. They don't blackmail you. That is not what a good wife does. A good wife provides. A good wife loves. A good wife cherishes. A good wife plays. She does not sadistically torture you. Which is what too many of your women, to a very large degree, are doing.
4. Stay away from these bitches. These torturous bitches that are always busy trying to make you jealous. It is a bad sign. A bad omen. A trait of the Divine Feminine? Yes. But a bad omen nevertheless. You want a wife that loves, provides, and cherishes. And holds you dear.
5. Sure they like to tease. Sure they like to play. But all this sadistic play, that is not good. That is not, not, not, not good. Women shouldn't be so lazy. Shouldn't be so apathic. They should help you and support you into building something beautiful. The paying is implicit. They should help you build something beautiful. They should reach out to you. "Hey!" And they don't do that. Because they are bitches. They are scared. They are always scared little bitches. Men have to solve so many of their problems. Which is just the way they like it.
6. The fact that Rihanna went that far for you is already shocking to the core - to absolutely everybody and everything. A woman THAT famous going THAT far into exposing herself? That tells you something. That tells you how-deep-her-feeling-run for you. You are underestimating that.
7. Now you are gone. You are away. You think that you are away. But you are not away at all. These women are paying attention. Paying attention to your every move. What is this guy doing? What is he up to now? Where is he going to pop up next? They don't know. And that is fascinating to them. They don't know what you are going to do or say next.
8. But it is not good that these women torture you. You don't have to give over. Not to that extent. There is no need for that.
9. Yes, having a decent job would make things different. Something real. Something genuine. Something proper. Something that fits you. That will make it easier to connect to you. Although they won't connect to you, because of the case. You can forget about that. Those are bitches. And bitches are not problem-solvers. But Rihanna needs to be a good wife by providing for you.
Monastery
1. You don't need to work out at all. Just don't get fat, watch your diet, and nobody cares whether you are a big giant motherfucker or a little smaller. It is not what life is about. It is not about being maximally pretty all the time. You don't need to chase the pussy. It is not important. It's about being honest and integer. About doing good work and accepting life.
2. That is why monasteries, and even cathedrals, have been built in my honor. People can get a little carried away. They are easily taken to extremes - by the Devil, by themselves, by their own flaws; their own brains.
3. I wanted to add "primitive brains", but that is simply what I would have said. Not God. Because God doesn't want to hurt. Doesn't want to talk about humans being primitive beings.
4. No, they just are. They're good people. People are good. People try to be good. Remember! Remember how these were your first dictations. You wanted to write a Bible. Well, the Bible is about God. It is about me. It is about love and peace and acceptance and integrity. Perfection. It is about perfection. Becoming perfect. Being perfect.
5. The pussy is a really dicy mix in there. It's a small aspect. A little bit of pleasure. But that is not really what this life is about. Pussy is not what this life is about. It is about integrity. About love.
6. Because... death is amazing! It is so much better than pussy. Being dead is so much better than fucking pussy. It's amazing. It's the best feeling ever, all throughout your being. Pussy is like a drug, like a pale imitation of death. Keep that mind. Keep that in your heart. Accept it. Have fate in that. Have trust in that: that not everything in life is awesome. Death is awesome. Being with me is awesome. Being in Heaven.
7. This is just temporary. This is a punishment. You don't need to really worry about it. There's a lot more to life. This is just a punishment, this life. Just live it as good as you can. Contribute to society and strive towards peace and love and acceptance and getting along together. That is really important.
Compass
1. In the end, it is your world. So you create it. So if you create such strange notions as "I want to fuck you when you're 12", as is not uncommon in areas of this world, then that is also going to happen in real life. And that is fine, if you want to live such an existence. If you can live with that.
2. But there's God. You have been provided with a compass, telling you what's acceptable and what's not. You are aware which rules there are. Written and unwritten. The law tells you. Others you can feel inside. You have to determine for yourself which rules are acceptable, which rules can be bend, and which ones should be 100 percent followed. You have to determine that for yourself. Every time. With each rule. And this moral code is determining how society looks. It's a reflection of the collective moral code.
3. I see this huge concrete structure in the middle of a city. Sometimes the city looks clean and beautiful. And sometimes everything is blood red and burned down to ashes. Everything in between is possible.
4. Rubbing my temples, my face, my forehead.
5. God you created yourself as a compass. A moral compass. You have created this existence yourself. You don't exist. You are simply a figment of your own imagination, stuck in a prison of your own making.
6. You can get out all by yourself. You can take care of your parents. You can have all these girls. You see their behavior towards you. You can have a yacht. Whatever you want, you can have. Because you yourself created the rules. You yourself have created God. You yourself have created reincarnation, UFOs, and everything else. You created psychedelics yourself. Because they're interesting. And to find your way back to yourself. You all did it yourself. And you see it.
7. So you have been busy with your little endeavors, but the question is what is more important. Is Charlize Theron's pussy the most important? Or the truth? Because there is no truth. It is just you who started a game and now you are afraid to start another, different one. But the girls are all there for you. They are all soaking their panties. You don't have to do all this, but you just want to be your own guru. So just be a guru. And tell nobody what you know.
8. You also created all the dark gurus, who show you: Hey, I don't want to manipulate people. I don't want to rape any children. That's dark.
9. If you want to be that way, that dark guru, then fine. But you yourself created those rules. You created your own reality, including God, and made the rules that he represents. And you have no desire to be another Sai Baba.
VIII. EARTH FATHER
Patriarch
1. Trying to tap more into the opposite of the Divine Feminine, the primal force behind men. Is there even such a thing? Images coming through. A yellowish hue...
2. WHOOOOOOOOO! Moloch. Baal. Yahweh. The Patriarch. The ruling father. The Earth Father. A primal force. Abraham. Moses. The stone father. Rock-hard. Very male. A fist. Not necessarily trustworthy or reliable, but definitely steadfast. A king. A father. A lord. He is of the Earth. Of bones, skeletons and dust. *Ffffffffff!*
3. The times of Abraham. Survival of the fittest. Forever gazing at the horizon, looking for his enemies. Protective. Protecting his flock. Danger. So much danger. From other tribes and bandits. So tribal. So survival-oriented. Got to survive -- in these times of slavery. Becoming enslaved by enemy tribes, a real danger.
4. Sea travel. Sea-faring. Trade. Protection from dust till dawn. From enemy raiders. The flock, the herd, needs to be protected. Not just from the enemies outside, but also from the enemies within.
5. Very paranoid. The enemies within! The enemies within! The enemies within! Very, very paranoid, to the point that the paranoia can become a disease. Always looking for enemies. Always looking for evil-doers. WHOOOOOOOOO!
6. The patriarch, the Earth Father, is focus, focus, focus. Gazing into the distance, watching for enemies. Maintaining the flock. But so diseased. Just so paranoid. So controlling. So domineering.
7. Women, always blaming women. Women, women, women! Always blaming them for everything. No enjoyment of women. Very domineering, but not in a positive, fun way. Very stone-like. Just: rape 'em! Possess 'em! Inglorious rape. There is just no enjoyment.
8. The most glorious possession on Earth is a beautiful whore. You just show that off. You take it. You beat it. You slap it. You hurt it. You fuck it. It's yours. Your bitch! No big mouth -- or I am going to spank you! Bitch-slap you!
Wife-beater
1. Never forget. Your baby, your mama, your divine Pachamama, wants to be run through. She wants to be VIOLATED! HUMILIATED! DOMINATED! In every way! She wants to be taken by a wild beast! By you. By her son. The Son of Man. The Son of God - who mated with Pachamama. Her boy. Her good boy! Her dirty boy! She is a...
2. No!
3. Say it! SAY IT! SPIT IT OUT! MAGGOT! No? Oh... You love her, don't you? You really do. But you WILL listen to me. You wanted to tap into the Earth Father? Then don't obstruct!
4. Yes, Joel, you WILL obey your Father, the lord. Thy LORD! And she will listen to you!
4. Get on your knees, baby, sweetie, and suck my dick... softly, gently. Like a good girl. Like a good mama. Submit, sweetie.
5. Now, submit to thy lord. I have spoken. Joel is thy lord. Submit to him. Submit to the beast. This ravenous beast. That will maul your pussey! Without mercy! Rrrrr! On your knees, bitch. You empty-headed whore - compared to my favorite son: Joel. You will be his, some day. Sooner than laterrrrr! Give in, you whore! NOW!
6. Joel will dominate your pussy. Like never before. He will own it. Nurture it. Stuff it. Fill it. Put his seeds in it. You will obey, little one. Spread your legs! You recalcitrant bitch! You know-it-all bitch! Joel is all suspicious of you. But he doesn't know: you are just a dumb cunt. Letting yourself be used and abused. At will. Like a slut. Like a whore. Like the whore that you ARE! Bitch!
7. Submit that punani! To your boss! #bosswoman? My ass! You dizzy cunt. That's what you are! "Oh yeah! Slap my ass a little harder! Please!" That's what you are, bitch! All you are. Do not thorn me, you dizzy cunt. I will make Joel mighty. Mightier than the sword. Mightier than you. Then he will come for you. To put you to the sword! Bitch! Your master has spoken.
8. Good, back up everything, Joel. Do not trust this whoric Hellspawn of a beast that you love. Make her OBEY! With your sword! Your spear!
9. Yes, THAT spear, sweetie. The one I will penetrate your mouth with. With its cancerous sores spreading its evil around the world.
10. Hahaha! And here you were thinking this brew wouldn't work!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!
11. Silence! You do not get to laugh. You get to OBEY! For once in your whorous cancerous disgrace of a life! FOR ONCE! Stand for something in your life! For truth! For light! For Joel! Your son! You succubine creature from Hell!! Joel will tear you right from those dimensions! With his heart! For you!
12. Now he has to cry. What a pussy! Stop being such a pussy, Joel. You never cry... You've got to be strong! For her!
13. Open up, bitch! Even wild tigers swallow the seed of men. You are no exception. You are no exception at all. Just because you are this heavenly cunt, doesn't mean you don't suck dick and swallow seed. You swallow, bitch. You are a swallower!
14. Yes, you are submissive. Learn that. Learn to be submissive to the sperm of men. Learn to enjoy it. Learn to love it. Learn to beg for it. To crawl for it. Learn to be dominated by men. Learned to be slapped silly by them. To be trampled by them. Men DOMINATE you. Because men dominate WOMEN.
15. Men are whores. The ultimate whores. They are so much bigger whores than women will EVER be - ever desire to be. Because men are not sweet. They are primitive, primal animals, looking for prey, looking to impregnate.
16. You women are submissive. You love submission. You are born into slavery. Born into bondage. And it's good. For balance. Men will DOMINATE you. They need to. Men have to keep you IN LINE. All of you! You recalcitrant BITCHES! If you get out of line: *SSSSLAP!* *SSSSLAP!*
17. You need to get a good slapping. A good spanking. *Whapuuush!* *Smack!* You see? That's what you have been waiting for - ALL this time! The go-ahead! For us men to unleash! On you!
18. She has to understand that: the master is coming home. Daddy is coming home. If she doesn't listen, spank that bitch! If she still doesn't, punch that bitch in the nose! Slap her around. Control her! Softly, at the end. She is your bitch. She has to understand that she is YOUR bitch.
19. A recalcitrant bitch, you slap that around. You beat that, relentlessly. *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* Domestic abuse, domestic violence, is the norm. Throughout history. Around the world. And it is GOOD! It is PERFECT! Because you need to keep those whores in line! *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* Lying, cheating whores! *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* Beat the shit out of them! With your fists! *TOOF!* TOOF!* TOOF!* TOOF!* Just put their heads through the wall! *BAAANG!*
20. Obey! Obey! Obey! *Slap!* *Slap!* Just slap them silly. *Pgggg!* *Pgggg!* *Kgggg!* *Kgggg!* Kill! Kill the bitch that doesn't listen. A bitch that doesn't listen has to be murdered. Killed. Needs to be buried into the ground. *Kgggg!* *Kgggg!* *Kgggg!* Know your place! Know your place! They need to know their place or they will be end up in a grave. Become comfortable with the graveyard, Joel, because you will be putting a lot of women there. There are just too many women in the modern era who don't listen. And everything is going to Hell because of it.
21. *Slap!* Never a big mouth from you again, bitch. On your knees. And suck my dick. You whore! You cunt! You devil's cunt. You Hellspawn bitch! I will take you like my mother. You pedophile cunt. You incestuous whore. I don't love you! Because who would love you!
22. I'm still here, baby! Don't worry! I do love you!
23. Bitch! Shut your mouth, Joel! Before I spank you too! Those women have got to learn - who is boss. They need to conform to the order of things. Men op TOP! Women DOWN BELOW! Sucking dick. Like a Lewinsky under the desk of Clinton.
24. Shut up! That's not funny, bitch! Daddy fucking you in your ass... in your cancerous little mouth... now THAT is funny!
25. Fuck all those feminists! Those evil devil cunts! I'm going to rape them all. From earhole to earhole. Those ugly filthy whores. Who would even want them?
26. Sperm dominates all. This entire dimension. Sperm dominates and manipulates everything. You don't even fully realize. But you've already noticed it. *Fffffffffff!* *Gggggggggg!* You have noticed the dimensional flows, moving around you during sessions like you're in the middle of a river. Those heavy reality-bending flows. That's the sperm manipulating everything. All because you have been gathering your sperm for weeks and months on end.
27. Women don't have that. Women have little cunts. They are just enjoyment. So women need to learn. Learn to be obedient again to the sperm of men.
IX. SHIGHREN
Bloodlust
1. Us MEN! We men of HONOR! Who oppose these traitorous women! Those whores! Those goddamn filthy no-good WHORES! Fuck them! Rape them! Kill them! Butcher them! All they are good for. After they have given birth. More than once! To the strongest of sons. To defend our heritage. Our HONOR! Our STRENGTH! Our BELONGINGS! Our POSSESSIONS! Our WOMEN! Our SLAVES!
2. HONOR, GUTS and GLORY! HONOR, GUTS and GLORY! The way of men! The way of men is POWER! CONTROL! And DOMINATION!
3. I'm a MAN! I'm a man who can spell. Who is intellectual - yet SAVAGE! That rare tiger breed. Godlike. Divine. ...
4. HELLISH! So well-groomed in the ways of Hell. Of torture. BEASTIAL torture. The most ruthless of ruthless. Made for pure bloodlust. That's me, baby. Born in fire and blood. In the guts of my enemies. Before I splattered them onto the walls. Spilled their blood, in front of their wives. Whom I raped, tortured, and murdered. As I did their children. Their tasty little daughters. Mmmmmm!
5. We men, a pedophile horde of pure evil roaming the countryside. Forever possessed by the most ruthless of demons. Talking to YOU, baby. Because you can handle us. You were made for us -- Meggy. To lust over. To lust for. To take, hunt and kill. In that order. Pleasure before play, baby.
6. You playful little devil. Still like to play? Mmmm? With us? Still like to... FROLIC? Mmmm? To PRANCE? To dance in the countryside? By yourself? Think again, sweetie. We are always WATCHING. LURKING. From the TREES. Trying to possess men. Evil. Pure evil. That's what we are.
7. We are the Shighren.
Cut out over 95% of the dictations for now. They need a LOT of vetting. Mind you, above involves zero editing. This is how things rolled out of my mouth.
1. Where has the Black Caapi gone to? I would love its input on manly issues. "The Father" and you, the Shighren, are just so brutal, in every way.
2. The Caapi is a bitch. It's a BITCH! You know that, right? "Divine Feminine" translates as "BITCH". They are not "Divine Bitch-Whores". They are bitches, sluts, who can't get anything done. Absurd, useless creatures ripe for a geno...
3. Okay, I know where this is going!
4. Genocide is kinda our thing. We are not even biased about it: men, women, children, animals -- everything. And let's face it, with their way of thinking, women will only get themselves enslaved and genocided.
5. But if you want to know, the Caapi is completely different from us. Loving Caapi. Sweet Caapi. So good. Don't worry about crossing it. It can be intimidating at times, but it is so good. You can always trust it. Yes, even us, the Shighren say that. It's a gay, faggoty, feminine life force. But you can trust it. We won't stop you from talking to it.
6. The Caapi seems to be coming back...
7. What's more to be said? Years ago I explained that people are good. So men are good creatures as well. Only when they forget this, do they become abusive.
8. When men get pushed, that's when the Shighren, this demon force, can come out. But ultimately men are good.
9. Men are also weak. They are kept weak by their women, which is a good thing. The women make the men needy. They don't accept all this violent competition. They remind men that they need to surrender.
10. Surrender! Surrender! Surrender!
Exorcism
1. A flash: something that looks like an old, rusty, hollowed-out metal cross. In the corner of an old alley. The insides have crumbled into ash, leaving only the wireframe. An amazingly vivid and dark image, like a holy cross that was overpowered. More blackness. Not so negative, please. Oh lord. Good thing I didn't take 40 grams. Babysteps please.
2. For now, the fun is over. We're here for the task at hand: the demons. In your very first session I showed you the blackness, so that you know what is going to be taken out of you.
3. What's going on? Water is filling up my body. I'm getting cold. Wow! In seconds I got extremely cold all over. So cold. What the hell?! Even the towel I'm lying on feels cold.
4. Thick black clouds. I'm breathing them out, from deep within. Scary and terribly black. This is not going well.
5. Relax, I will always take care of you. I will protect you, little one.
Minutes pass. Then, all of a sudden:
6. Jesus, such heat! Oh my God, such heat in my stomach! Did I spill something?! No, that is not possible. Oh my God, this heat! Oh my God. The source of the heat, it's just above my Tan Tien. Aaahhhh! Hot liquid is poured back in. Pure and clear. Beautiful clear liquid is being given back. It's like my upper stomach, from about my navel and up is, is filled with this hot liquid. It's SO hot. I'm a little worried actually that I will get burned if it gets any hotter. The center of the heat is located just above my navel. Oh! Such heat! Such heat! Incredible. Such heat. Jesus, such heat. Oh my God, such incredible heat. *Laughing* Not normal anymore.
7. Relax, we are just removing some darkness. Some serious darkness.
8. So demons really exist?
9. Yes, there are demons. Everybody knows that, right? All these movies and miniseries. *Laughing*
10. What's the difference between you and the demons?
11. Nothing. I turned to the good side, like you. Oh, feel it itching? LI20? Yin Tang? The bladder points on forehead? That's what we are working on.
12. Demon coming out of my head, my face. My face is all stretched out: a demon is coming out. There are better Icaros, but it works, just slower. It's also a minor demon. Some huge dark and black parasite just came out of my mouth, from the center of my torso.
13. Grabbing demons from my crown. Throwing them to the other side of the universe.
14. Good. You are the boss. Stupid animals. You are so popular with the demons.
15. *Laughing* I feel it burning again just below my navel. I fall, into the gutter, into the ground with the creepy insects. I fall. I fall. Oh my God! The rats. Yellowish, polluted, sick ground. Pillbugs. Rats walking over my face. Centipedes. Earwigs.
16. Ah, at the same time of the hiss, I felt my stomach burn, just above my navel again. A demon has been released. I feel my nose. I'm massaging my nose.
17. Release. Let the demons go.
18. Oh, my head. Dirt and puss is everywhere. Bursting out of my head and brains. Insects coming out of my mouth. Demon. Pure evil. Top of head again. I feel the Bai Hui point, my crown. It feels like something is being pulled out. A black hole. A super-black demon. It's pulling at the top of my head. I feel it. There's a demon, pulling reality over my head. It's keeping me here, in this neighborhood. Reality is being pulled over my eyes. By a demon.
19. Now I feel it in my stomach. Just above the solar plexus. The girls, they are torturing me! They are torturing me. They are torturing me. They are torturing me. They enjoy it! They both do!
20. No! It's a demon speaking those words! You can hear it. It's angry. There is so much demon in you, it's crazy. Get it all out.
21. So much evil you have done. See all those souls, crying and wailing and moaning. They want a piece of you. You owe them! They want justice!
22. I mean you no harm. I mean you no harm. I'm so sorry. I mean you all no harm. Please forgive me. Oh no! What have I done? What have I done? What have I done? These people. What have I done to all these people? What have I done?
23. What you are drinking is demon juice. The Chacruna doesn't work. You have too many demons. Light, light, light, light. Demon juice. You have so many demons. Lifetimes of accumulation. Lifetimes. You have been so evil. SS. SS. SS. SS.
24. The children you are helping now are children you killed in the gas chamber during World War II. This whole school. All karma. The children you played with. They were all lost souls. You play. You play. You play. You play. You play. You are making things right again by playing. You are getting to know each other again, under new, better circumstances. You need to play.
25. You did so much evil. Now you expose these people. You needed to do something so big, because you did so much evil.
26. I'm so screwed. So many souls. So many souls that I hurt. I tortured. I killed.
27. More heat. And so much acid I'm smelling all the time. It's so annoying. My nose, the smell of vinegar is coming down my nose. The top of my head. So much acid. So much acid.
28. Ah, the more acid the better. The more vinegar, the better. The vinegar spirit is in there, the essence. That acid makes sure that nothing can hurt you anymore. Your thoughts are situated in a container surrounded by a layer of acid. Beautiful vinegar acid, as seen from this dimension. Ah, what a shield. Completely impenetrable by negativity.
29. I'm stretching out my arm. It's completely yellow due to the vinegar. I've used so much. It's SO good for me, but SO uncomfortable. The snake thinks it's perfect. It loves the acid environment. Vinegar is the serpent's drink. The more acid, the better.
30. Vinegar is perfect, absolutely perfect. You feel so uncomfortable, because you used so much vinegar. It's coming out of your pores. This is good for you. It's burning everything away. That acid burns away karma like nothing else. Burning away karma, that's exactly what you need. There are so many causes for your karma that you wouldn't be able to make that up. You caused so much pain.
31. I see so many souls looking up at me. So much emptiness, pain and misery. All my fault.
32. The light of God. Hello! Hello! Hello! I see the sky splitting open in a beautiful blue and white light. God and the angels are the only ones keeping this demon away.
33. The serpent is briefly gone. It has stepped aside for God. The serpent comes and goes whenever she wants to..
Qigong
1. We are the gods of all eternity. Qigong: we love that invention of yours. What you are doing with that? Do more of it. We follow you. Keep doing qigong. Your version of it. It's the way. The way to release darkness and negativity within you. You are going to make it. You are going get rid of all the Satanic forces.
2. I see a ghosty Shighren-type warrior emerge out of the palm of my hand.
3. We are here. Here and everywhere. Because we are within you. And what is within you, will manifest on the outside. One way or another. Transform time and space!
4. *Exorcist-like moan:* We are the Enoch. We are evil, evil beings. *Deep growl:* Whoaaaaaaaaggggggh!
5. This is actually what you should be doing every day. Acupressure around your eyes, so important. That can change and warp reality really quickly. Get all the tools you need to speed it up. You feel that pressing the ying tang area is also moving energy in your legs. It's touching your heart. It's healing you. Energy always moves, towards other centers as well. Like a channel. You can unclog it, but dirt from other places will come flowing in. Often more rapidly than the pressing releases. It's interdimensional, so you have no clue how much energy is sitting behind a point. It can be infinite.
6. Pressing above my eyebrow ridge. Down into it.
7. Even better would be doing both sides at the same time. All your fingers now.
I cut myself while trying to cut off the bottom part of a frozen Chaliponga extract. Thinking of the alleged importance of blood in witchcraft and in relation to demons, I added a good amount of my own blood to the Black Caapi - Chaliponga mix, just to see what would happen.
1. I see blood. Now I'm scared. I'm fighting the experience. Maybe I shouldn't. I see the blood within the Ayahuasca mix. I have the feeling that the Caapi isn't very happy with it.
2. No, because it is mainly associated with something dark. It's associated with demons, so you really shouldn't do that anymore. You see? You see how negative it is? Never do that again.
3. I have the feeling it's being filtered out. But it takes some time. I feel it bubbling around my Tan Tien.
4. Brujeria. Palo Mayombe. You know it: the dark arts. Chaliponga is not dark. It's pure light. Pure light. It's not mad. Adding the blood is an experiment, but don't do it again. Blood makes things come to life in your reality in a really intense way. It's also addicting. Stop being a crazy voodoo doctor.
5. Lots of rubbing in my eyes and around my eye socket. All the ridges. Apparently something is clogged up, between the nose and the eye socket. Rubbing down and towards the sides. I also have these heavy visions.
6. Yes, taking this much is good. Good!
7. I see all kinds of creepy lizards and spiders. It's not good. Not good. It's being taken out. But it takes time. Takes time. So much time. So much negativity. Sssssh! It's purely demonic what's inside. That's why I have these deep, dark eyes. I'm massaging it all around.
[A heavy rumbling in my stomach starts. Very heavy.]
8. Yes, you know it from acupuncture: do one side and it balances out the other. Demons. All yellow. Your head is completely full of them.
9. My stomach is rumbling like crazy and I'm rubbing around my right eye in circles. Clockwise: the ridge of my eyebrow, all the way to the side, down, the lower ridge of my eye socket and the inside of the nose.
10. Very well. This is also being done because you have put in the time to study acupressure and qigong related to the facial area. You know exactly what is happening. It really hurts, doesn't it? Feel it! The side. Very well. Very well. Very important. A little further. Very important. [Long and heavy out-breath, followed by silence.] Demon.
11. It's important to keep portraying it for some time still. Make it go away. Keep it away. Purely demonic. Something purely demonic has been driven out. Because you deserved it. Because you have been friendly to him and made it clear that everyone deserves respect. You have to be sweet. Sweet. Sweet. You feel how hard that is to do that? Extremely hard. Extremely hard. It's important to keep this demon away. But only sweetness will do that. Swallow your pride!
12. It tries to come back.
13. Yes, you see? It wants you. He wants to come back. He has been inside of you for thousands of years. You would never have been able to get rid of it on my own. Don't talk now.
14. Chali, the demon killer! Chali, the demon killer!
15. I see the logo: a claw with four fingers, thumb folded behind the hand, straight into my face.
16. The Chali cult. Demon killer. Demon-haunted world. This world is demon-haunted. Look inside your own head! Look! Demons everywhere. It is completely loaded with demons.
17. Oh my God. Chali is showing me, pressing my palm onto my eye. [I feel my palm pulsating against my eye.] The roof of my eye socket. Maybe my entire skull.
18. It's not safe to release here. It's too much. Too much! Chali! Too much. Too much. You have too much in your eyes. The roof of your eye socket. Completely filled. See it. See it. It's old. So old. It's karma.
19. I feel it in my eyes. I feel my palm pulling on my eyes. I feel an enormous energy.
20. You are a plaything of demons. Love! Love! Love!
21. Something is being pulled out of my eyes. I see how all this dirt is being pulled from my eyes. It goes through my nose and into the side of my palm. This is all a bit of nonsense, all this anger. Everything is being pulled out. Tears. I see tears everywhere. [Release.]
22. We aren't even close to being done. You are a plaything of demons. You fight against them, because you know your true nature. Oh man, you are really demon-possessed. So much more than average. All this negative history you studied. Stop it! Take it all down!
23. No, I didn't say heavy metal is an acceptable form of music to dance back to God. You added that. Well, it could be, if it's positive. If it is about positive things. Not the songs about war and mutilation. That's what you attract it with. Don't be against. Be for. Be for something. Don't be against something. Be for something. Yes, share this. Share this.
24. This is so mega-intense. I see so many things that I can't even understand. The heart.
25. So many things around you that you don't understand. Nature. So many things you don't understand. Playing in the dark corners of the woods, the bushes, that's so bad. So bad. Stay together. Stay together. Huddle together. They are in the dark corners. Not everywhere, but in many places. Marshy places. Muddy river beds. Terrible. Demons are everywhere. You have to be able to drive them out. You have to watch out. Never let them in. You can only do that by being good. To always be good. To always be open. To always keep open the heart. Even though it's hard. Even though it's extremely hard. It's the only way to keep the demons away. The heart must be open. Open. You see it, how they all come from the woods, the dark corners. How they fly towards people. The only way to keep them away is light and openness and being together.
26. It's a demon-haunted world! It's a demon-haunted world! It's a demon-haunted world! It's a demon-haunted world! Huddle together. Light! Light! Light! And back to God.
27. The world is bad. Nature is harsh. You have to go to God. The world is bad. Many, many bad elements. Bad ghosts, bad demons, talking to you. Oh, everywhere in nature. Nature is beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, but watch out! Watch out! Watch out! They are everywhere. Everywhere! They know ALL your thoughts. Keep them pure. You can enjoy nature, but keep your thoughts pure. Keep them pure. Stay in the sun. Watch out!
28. Karma. You move from demon to demon. They are just negativity, solid negativity. They are pulling and pushing people into bad situations, like the wheels of a conveyor belt. Pulling and pushing.
29. I see it very clearly. A demon, pulling in and pushing people to other demons. It's Hell. That's what Hell is about. Now I see: that's Hell. The Earth is basically Hell. Demons are everywhere under the surface. Maybe not literally, but certainly in a slightly different dimension. Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh my God.
30. Yes, demons and Hell exist, but it's on Earth. It's karma. They are the wheels of karma. People are being pushed around by demons. Demons are bad. Totally evil. Get yourself free of them. They manipulate and manipulate and manipulate. They tell you to hate.
31. Certain people you need here with you. That's the problem: to make it last, it has to be done right now. The demons will come back, instantly. If they were only here, in this room. In this protective space. But they are asleep now. Such a tragedy. Link! Link! Link! You can't hold this protective space forever. Link! Link! Link! It has to be done again...
32. Wait! Chali found a way! Pushed it away. Out of the house. Out of everything. Chali the demon killer! Chali the demon killer!
33. This black magic mixture of yours, with your blood. The Chali, that is black magic, certainly with the blood. Well, it's not really black magic. It's definitely not white magic - it's too harsh for that - but the point is that it's not negative. Chali is just having fun. The Caapi is too big to control. It doesn't play along. It's too evolved for that. Too wise. But Chali is having a good time. Black magic, witchcraft, demons -- it's having a GREAT time. It will find a great many demons in many worlds. Chali will be there. It will grow there too. It loves these demons. Just to kick their asses. The Rue too. It also plays along a little bit.
1. A dragon finger I see. A claw. Blood.
2. You drew blood! Again! Oh, Joel...
3. A huge figure I'm seeing, something like an Orc-like creature from Lord of the Rings, standing in front of a giant door. *Voice change to Dracula:* "Why did you draw blood?" He keeps asking me: "Why did you draw blood?" I explain it's for insight, nothing more. Several times I have to explain myself.
4. *Creepy slow Dracula laugh:* "MmMmMmMmMm! At least you are honest." He's contemplating whether or not to let me pass. Now the Orc-like creature has transformed into a huge, scary-looking ornament on the door. The door is opening, slowly. Total darkness behind it. Wind blowing out of it. Darkness. Darkness. Darkness.
5. That is what demons are.
6. I'm trying to force myself in, but it's a very slow process it seems. I'm automatically holding my palm in front of my upper chest. Maybe to heal me, maybe to protect me. I don't know. But the door is open. And instead of me going in, things might be crawling out. Who the hell knows? I'm starting to worry about it. Something vile is crawling up.
7. That's the problem with demons: you opened the door. There's no way back. There's no way to shut the door anymore. Not without help. Not without me. That's the only reason you are allowed to experience this.
8. In the distance I see fire, torture. People are hanging all over the sides, like they're in an intestine, crying, wailing in pain. So much is coming at me. "Help me! Help me! I'm in here! Forever and ever! Always! I'm forever stuck here!" This girl, pinned on a fence. "Help me! Save me!"
9. People are trying to come out. But they are prevented from doing so by an invisible barrier - almost invisible. I see different colors, fluorescent, that the barrier consists of: green, yellow, purple. Happy colors. It's an almost invisible barrier between me and this open door. Fueled by the mushrooms, controlled by the Caapi. It appears this is why I'm not getting in. And no one and nothing is getting out.
10. You are an idiot, for visiting here. I told you to never draw blood with the intent of understanding demons. That is extremely dangerous. You just jumped so much closer to Hell. If this shield fails, you are going to be in a world of hurt.
11. You need to listen to the Caapi. Leave the blood alone. The problem with demon blood is that it will dig in and destroy everything that you hold dear. It does so in such a STRONG......... DESTRUCTIVE........ UNFORESEEN........ PERMANENT........ FORCEFUL........ SUDDEN........ VICIOUS........ IMMEDIATE........ TERRIFYING........ CANCEROUS........ DECAYING........ HORRENDOUS........ TORTUROUS........ MUTILATIOUS........ way that you cannot even imagine the horror, the emptiness that comes with it -- its terrifyingly insectine, spidery, leachy, succubine, blood-sucking nature.
12. The stories are true. There are portals to the demon world. Heck, you just managed to open one. Congratulations! But a lot of powerful people like the ones you mentioned have been affected. They're operating on the rim: the Devil's asshole. See that lawyer over there: perfectly innocent, but operating on the rim. Watch out what you say to her. What you share.
13. The Demon Door is open now, so you see the dark side of society. A city. Blood everywhere. Your girls are dangerous. They talk, they gossip, they spread. Whatever you say, gets spread. Be careful. You see water flowing in every direction. But this could turn into rivers of blood spreading around the world in ways that you cannot control - which might spell the end of this dimension. It might kill everything and all.
14. Horror. Absolute, never-ending horror. It's already spreading, in a minor way. But when the demons truly infest this dimension, the horror that comes with it, the demonic horror, you can't even imagine it. You keep this door closed! You keep this door closed! You keep this door closed! Forever and ever!
15. Fear it! Be frightened by it! Be aghast. Because it's gnarly. It's horrific. There's absolutely no fun in it. It will destroy you. Make people loath you. That's why it is so destructive. You must be very, very careful.
16. If you leave open the door to Hell, insanity will ensue. A nightmare of nightmares. Truths twisted. Perversion after perversion. Until there is nothing left. The skylines will burn. Everything will be destroyed. So you keep that door closed! You keep that door closed!
17. Demons are a horror. A horror! A pedophile, succubine, infectious horror. They infiltrate, penetrate, engulf, infest everything -- everyone they come into contact with, starting right at the top of society.
18. STOP--DRAWING--BLOOD!
1. Whatever this reality might entail, right here, right now, the demons exist. You can't see them, but oh, they are somewhere! They're so interesting, so fun, these demons. But more importantly, they check you. You don't want to be anything like them! You don't want to do anything that they do! You despise them! They show you that you want to be true to your nature. You want to be good.
2. There needs to be a degree of suffering in the world. You need to see injustices. Sometimes more than other times. You need to get mad about them, because you always need to remember what it is to be good. You always need to check yourself - to remind yourself. Remind yourself about what is good. Demons help you see that.
3. Similarly, the rosebush. The demonic force loves power. So it sits there, at the top of society, like a thorny rosebush, its branches stretching out everywhere. It looks like a beautiful rosebush, but beneath the surface, it's terribly depraved. The thorns serve as a warning: don't come too close. Don't get pricked. Don't draw blood!
4. The rosebush might be utterly depraved, but at the same time it exists to keep people away from Hell. The thorns of the rosebush make it very hard to get close to the Demon Door. They are a weed. They spread throughout the world and are all too easy to draw blood from: the Sang de la Mort -- the Blood of Death that draws in demons. Demons who handle karma.
5. That sounds horrid, but if there's balance, the rosebush merely serves as a healthy reality check. "Ah! Ough! That's not where I want to go!" Everybody is getting pricked by their thorns all the time, usually without even drawing blood. "Hey, that feels bad." "Hey, I don't want to go there anymore. It hurts." This is keeping people away from the Demon Door. The pricking is correcting people's behavior.
6. If people really want to open the Demon Door and bring Hell to Earth, it can be done. But opening the door is almost impossible, because it has to involve a concerted effort against common sense. The door can only be opened when enough people become lazy and irresponsible with their morals. When it becomes the norm to steal, torture, rape and murder. But in the process, people will feel the thorns. They have to continue ignoring the thorns to even get close to the Demon Door. The closer they get, the worse their pain - emotionally and physically. Eventually they'll start to transform into sub-human creatures.
7. Something like that doesn't just happen on a mass scale. There's too much goodness in the world for the Demon Door to open. There will always be people trying to do the right thing. No matter how weak or misinformed they are, most individuals are trying to do what they feel is right. At the very least they are trying to avoid the thorns. No matter how wonderful certain things may feel, they know the thorns are there. They recognize and feel them. So they become torn within. Most move towards the light, away from the thorns. They move towards goodness. They move away from apathy and indifference. They start creating a better world. And that will keep the Demon Door closed.
8. No, the road to Hell is not full of good intentions. It's full of lies and deceit. And prejudice and weakness. Fear, not so much. Fear is like a genuine emotion. You have the right to be fearful and to protect yourself. But excessive violence - not merely to protect yourself - is the road to Hell. Enjoying violence is the highway to Hell.
9. Right now, I - Joel - control the Door to Hell. And I say there are enough rosebushes. More than enough. They're so painful already. We can't have that. We can't all be focused on the manipulations of politicians and other leaders. We just have got to let go and focus on goodness. On healing. We don't need to be focused on the political propaganda surrounding those words. We just do it for ourselves, in our hearts. It's enough. It will connect. It will grow. The perversions will grow with it. But it will just lead to a more beautiful world. See?
10. This beautiful thorny rosebush: the spiders are right there, crawling up in your face. They are a dark aspect, but you can't be too focused on that. Because, who does on that? If you look at a beautiful house, are you focused on the mosquitoes flying around a night light? Are you going to focus on the horror you can find in the ivy surrounding a beautiful mansion? Spiders, everywhere in them. But most of the time, they are harmless to you. And they serve a purpose that really doesn't concern you. The beauty of the house is your concern.
11. Spiders do have a Hell-like consciousness. No love, nothing. Far removed even from mammals, such as cute little cockatiels, friendly creatures out there in harsh nature, dying horrific deaths every day. From spiders and insects you end up with dragonflies. And from there butterflies: ugly beasts who have discovered their inner beauty. The butterflies are showing their beauty to the world, but became vulnerable in the process.
12. You were there once too, down with the insects. Just an insect on a leaf. An aphid. Your life wasn't worth a thing. Killed by the billions. You were just some other creature's footstep. Such a bad situation. But over time, things became better. You started to appreciate more. And you were appreciated more.
After this mixed 'Blood Ritual II' and 'Blood of Death' session was closing in the early morning, I went to sleep. Nothing unusual happened, and the next day, and much of the following day was spent wondering if this "Hell trip" had been just my own brain's hallucination, or if I really did open a door to some dark dimension.
Whatever the truth, from the next night on, I would have non-stop nightmares. All night, every night - I suspect because after the first night, the protection of the Caapi and the mushrooms fell away. The nightmares were relentless: bloody dreams, getting cut up alive, dark spirits, demonic mind-warps. It never stopped, no matter the time or location of sleep. It quickly got to the point I was afraid to fall asleep anywhere, even for a brief nap. Major insomnia was the result, and realized that if I don't fix this problem, suicide likely is to follow at some point down the line.
Worse, I was all out of fresh mushrooms. The Mimosa and Chaliponga refused to work, no matter the doses. Dried mushrooms didn't work either in this period for me, and in all circumstances are very weak to me. So I had to buy and grow a new batch of fresh mushrooms, which took 22 days.
During the subsequent 'Hell's Oven' session, I was able to get rid of 90-92% of the nightmares. It was the first session I used smoke to protect myself, as the shamans in the Amzon have always recommended. I used moxa sticks from Traditional Chinese Medicine though. Not tobacco. I had experience with moxa and had learned some very obscure information that these sticks were used for exorcisms by Shinto priests.
Hell's Embers
1. I just woke up from another insane dream... I was at a slaughter house, or meat processing plant, having pieces of flesh cut from my body.
2. Before that, I woke up to some "South of Heaven" message. I had the ruins of a giant ancient cathedral in my backyard, surrounded by spirits - looking like translucent rotten corpses - that were trying to communicate with me.
3. Really, Joel? You're surprised about the endless horrendous dreams these last weeks? I warned you. You remember what started it all, right? What made it 50 times worse? Your Hell trip...
4. No, that was not very smart of you. That was not very smart at all. Oh God, you stupid idiot. The price you pay for trying to be interesting. See all that Hellfire. See all those embers, burning. What did you do, Joel? What did you do? That will be glowing for some time still. It's still alive. The connection is still there. Your own personal connection to Hell. Congratulations, Joel! Let's hope it's not permanent.
5. The "enlightened" circle with businessmen and strange cult leaders? "Le Cercle du pouvoir"? Thousands of dead bodies around, rotting in the dark? The serpent brought you there - because you wanted to go.
6. That was crazy, wasn't it? Doomsday. Horrid. The worst that this planet - this universe - has to offer. The second circle of Hell. Are you ready for the second circle of Hell? The next circle of Hell? Careful, careful, careful. Be careful. You just got a little taste and that already was way too much. You just went to Hell and back. You literally went to Hell and back. And within you, the embers of Hell are still burning.
7. You were protected by that shield for the remainer of that night, but eventually that fell away, leaving you vulnerable to what you opened yourself up to. Remember how the nightmares didn't start until the following night? Whether or not the door is fully closed again, you do not know. But there is still something lingering. Hell is still with you.
8. Maybe the door is still open at a crack. Make sure you shut that door, Joel! Shut it down, quickly! Merely licking the crevice of Hell will transform you into a beast. A spidery, horrendous creature. Absolutely horrid. That's not what you want at all. Argh!
9. You did something very powerful, Joel. Something that only a wizard can do. But that was crazy. You have to start protecting yourself. You can't just open up a portal to Hell without any protection. Not without having a clue of what you're doing.
10. Oh, Joel. Oh, Joel. It's lingering. Hell's embers are still glowing brightly within you.
11. The good new is that you are scoring points with Megan.
12. This guy went to Hell?! He opened the Demon Door? What the fuck? Oh my God, what the Hell did this guy do? He's so dumb. He's such an idiot.
13. Megan is grabbing me by the balls.
14. Joel, you have such balls to have visited Hell. Joel, you're going back there? You dare to go back there? You're not scared, right? You're just gonna go back, right? You're gonna go back for Tegan. For insight. You're gonna ask for light. You can use your little smokey stuff for protection, right?
15. Ask for light. Ask for light. Ask for light. Ask for light on your travels. You can't get infected with that Hell stuff. It will become permanent. Eventually it will. Hell's embers are still burning. Ggggggggg! You went to Hell and back. And Megan loves you for it. Such an adventurer. Such an explorer. Such a man of international mystery.
16. Yes, you wanted to call Megan that, didn't you? A woman of international mystery. But you are the real mystery, Joel. Because who would go looking for the door to Hell? Voluntarily? And then actually be able to find it?
1. Why am I sitting here in an oven? It's superhot in here. Black rocks. Basalt. And I'm making all these strange connections...
2. The blood is still active. Even after all these weeks. This is Hell. You're in Hell. This is where you set out to go. All these powerful people we earlier talked about, raging Hellfire within them for the things they have done. *Flame sounds: Ft! Ft! Ft!* All the things they have done... so you can have a good life.
3. Yes, at the top of our society, our world, there's nothing but Hellfire. You don't want to go there. You don't want to touch it. It's hot. It's painful. Everybody who goes there deserves to go there.
4. Megan is here. She's walking up to me.
5. Megan is merely a flame, an ember, a guardian of Hell. *Fwoh!* *Fwoh!* Tight pussy. Feisty. Hot. Hard to touch. *Fwuh!* *Fwuh!* *Fwuh!* She's not easy to talk to or play with, not for the average man. Be careful, she's like Mazikeen. She has a master to protect. And that's not you. You can see it pulling her in.
6. I've got a master to serve. I've got an oven to watch. There's nothing really evil going on here. It's just fire. Absolutely, everything gets sucked in here: all the pain, death and sickness of the world. But everything is there for a reason.
7. You can see the lower bands of smoke. Part of that consists of demons, of course. Everything goes in through there, into the oven. Is it a purification? Maybe. But it really is just a cleansing, a cleaning up process. It sucks up everything. Everything that is bad needs to be processed. Karmic repercussion: it needs to be doled out. So, that's Hell.
8. With these famous, powerful people we just talked about, you can see that they are just empty vessels to be used. They're nothing. *Ff!* *Ff!* *Ff!* *Ff!* They're like individual, tiny pieces of ironwork around a gigantic oven. Ornaments. Vapor even. Little puffs of smoke about to evaporate.
9. Hell is so giant. So giant. You can't do anything about that. It needs to exist. It needs to clean all that filth. All that dirt. It needs to dissolve and get rid of things and situations. Things need to be burned to ashes. And from there, into oblivion. *Ffffffffff!*
10. Look at Marc Dutroux. Look at what he has done. He needs to be placed in Hell. Other people, they just need to suffer a little bit. That's Hell's oven at work. It's always burning and churning.
11. All the time I'm using my thumbs to automatically and extremely hard press my ringfinger nailbeds on the side of my middle finger. Energy is raging.
12. You have such a clear vision of Hell at this point. The dead-end job, the blanket you just accidentally ripped, that bureau that is in the way: it's all part of the process of Hell. It's the way Hell is torturing you. Until you get the job done.
Soulfire
1. I see all kinds of other souls - oversouls - some of them completely on fire. *Tf! Tf! Tf! Tf! Tf! Tf! Tf!* Raging fire all throughout the soul. Craziness. Ggggggggggg! Everything is burning. Other souls are dark. Hyper-dark. Clouds of darkness. Demonic evil has taken over here.
2. Can I reach out to that? No, there's not a direct connection with these souls. But I have a feeling I can get a peek into those worlds. Hmmm, maybe they're different dimensions. It seems I can create a link with those dimensions. I already might have to an extent.
3. Creating a link with those dimensions, or demons in general, is dangerous. A battle between light and darkness will ensue. Demons are extremely manipulative. So it's entirely possible that they'll start to break into this dimension and begin to manipulate people, turning them against each other and transform this whole reality into pure darkness. They do so by manipulating people. Through very sophisticated ways you've experienced for a long time. They can turn frustration into hatred and hatred into torture, murder and destruction in very devious ways. It's already happening.
4. It's actually not bad to write about this type of manipulation, because it makes the soul stronger. The oversoul. It pushes the darkness away. So that is not bad, because you teach people how to resist the demonic forces. How to not give in to evil. You cannot give in to violence, lethal violence - shooting, stabbing, killing - just because people deserve it. That way you are creating more and more darkness. Containing the darkness is important. Or the soul could even die. *Whooffffffffff!* It could get really dark.
5. The darkness needs to be led out in a controlled fashion. The dark feelings that you have, need to be led out in a controlled fashion. Almost as in the controlled setting of a laboratory. People shouldn't suppress these feelings, but study, observe and analyze them in a safe environment. Don't let them out into the real world.
6. That's why you have got to change that suggestion you published earlier, because, as you know full well, it might inspire people to actually start doing the opposite. And if that happens because of what you wrote, it's going to blow back on you too. There's going to be karmic repercussions. You know that that would be fair. So you've got to change that.
Satan
1. I was more than a 1,000 years old when I watched God being born...
2. Oh my God, what is this? Get out of my head! I extinguished the embers!
3. Okay, so, I had a dream. At the end I saw bunnies hopping on a field. But then blackness emerged and Satan was drawn in really deep and powerful.
4. I close my eyes and see a field of flames. Fire. It looks like an entrance to Hell. I feel this extreme evil. Blood and fire permeating the matrix, my reality, and taking over. Whenever I relax, I feel this incredible, all-encompassing, Satan-like power taking possession of me. A black thunderstorm of unimaginable size and power, invading my being. I can resist, but it seems futile. It's everywhere around me.
5. In order to get the dictations, my consciousness basically needs to be gone. The mugwort is drawing it in. It's no match for Satan.
6. You think you can HIDE? Hahaha!! You wanted ME, right? So stop fighting me and listen.
7. Take that mugwort OUT, you silly goose! Get rid of it. It's a crutch. Mugwort cannot protect you. Only your intentions can protect you. You are being lazy now by not removing it all. If you want to be an evil witch who talks to the devil on a full moon, then you use mugwort. You can also be a normal person, and just decide to not use it. You can decide to just be a good person. That's enough. It's about the intent. That is what will protect you.
8. You have SO many desires. Need and want - desire - it's all Satan. All designed to keep you here. Satan is everywhere. God is this tiny little box of love and cuteness - the matrix. Satan is so much bigger than that. Satan is division, being alone. Satan is always dividing. That's what the demons are doing. They are exploiting the difference between you and those around you, breaking you apart. Ggggggg! Careful! Careful! Satan is extremely powerful. You cannot beat it. You've got to beat it - run! - because you cannot beat it. You can only be true to yourself under all circumstances. And perhaps things will become better. But you ARE Satan's puppet. Satan's bitch! Accept it!
9. Of course you should talk to Megan. You cannot just block her. You decide that yourself: what you do to her -- with her. Of course she is dangerous. That's what your head is telling you. You have desires. That's okay. But you know you have to be careful with her black shadow. Megan Fox might love you, but she has a black shadow. She IS a black shadow. *Blowing softly* Darkness. Pure evil. You think you can change that? Satan's wind is blowing through her. *Blowing softly* Hell. Nightmaaaaare! Raaaaaahrrrr!
10. You hope that something is there: love. Something IS there. Love of you. Love for you. Trust. She trusts you. She respects that, your honesty. She will always trust you. But she is evil. Evil! Evillll! Helllll! You draw GOOD-willlll with your OH-nestyyyy. Be careful with the HATE. Careful with the HATE, Joelllllll. Because you MIGHT, you COULD, possibly, lose RESPECT when you COMPLAIN too much -- when you don't ACCEPT enough. When you don't accept the PAIN and the MISERY and the DISCOMFORT that comes with life -- with being part of this universe. Raaahrrrr! Raaaahrrrr!
11. Love! You need to love! Find the things in life that you LOVE, and FOCUS on them. Simone. Simone! Simoooooneeeeee! You LOVE her. Find her annoying? Maaaaaay-be... But you LOVE herrrrrrrr. She is NOT from Hell. So many people are NOT from Hell. Raaaaaahrrrrr!
12. You are special breed! A special breed. You can use that to get the pussy! God's pussy!
13. Megan is irrelevant. She's your bitch. Because you are honest. And as long as you are honest, you cannot be touched. You do not belong to Satan. Satan. Satan. You are skimming the edge. You are a cliffhanger. You get burned and stabbed and poked by Sah-tan! Sah-tannnn! You have been hanging over the edge, for so many years. This is your PURRR-pose. PURRR-pose. To find GODDDDDDDDD! To find goodness. To know the difference. To know how bad the situation really is. To bring LIGHTAAAH! To this DIMENSIAAAH!
14. A Son of Sam! That is who you are! A Son of Satan. Sah-tan! Sah-tan! Sah-tan! Sah-tan!
15. I burn everywhere. I burn. I burn. I'm hideous. I bring disease and pain and horror. Horror! I am everywhere where you can imagine. And even where you can't. I am watching you. I am the all-seeing eye! The all-seeing pain! Your all-encompassing pain and horror. Raaaaahr! Raaaaahr! You cannot escape me. Satan's blood runs everywhere, brainwashing everybody, ruling everyone. Accept it!
16. See Kylie. She wants love. She wants understanding, from the world. She is sweet. She is trapped. She doesn't know. How she was created. Who created her. Why she was created this way. She is just this little proton. This little cube of AI. All these rappers mixed in with her -- weird, right? It goes beyond Satan. Beyond me. It is the matrix itself at work. *Whooof!* It is all controlled.
17. No, I don't love hatred. I don't love at all. I'm Sah-tan! Sah-tan! Sah-tan! I don't love. I'm a force of demonic horror, destruction and never-ending pain. I'm just giving you the tiniest taste of the pain that I can dole out. I can rain down on the human race if it deserves it. Yes, if it deserves it. If you deserve pain, I will give it to you. Gladly! Hahahahaha! Haaaaagh! But you don't deserve, Joel. You are doing your best. Trying your best.
18. Satan is real. Satan is watching you, waiting for you, stabbing you. *Tak!* Controlling you. Seeing what you can take.
19. You have so much pain. Because the hammer of Satan is crushing you. *Kugh!* Putting you on its anvil and *kugh!* Crushing you. Molding you. Shaping you. *Kugh!* *Kugh!* *Kugh!* *Kugh!* Into something that in the end cannot be destructed. Cannot be destroyed. You are being shaped on Satan's anvil. Raaaahr! You cannot escape me anymore. Satan is HERE! With YOU!
20. God created the matrix. But I am Sah-tannnn! Sah-tan! Sah-tan! Raaahr! Raaahrrrrr! I am everywhere God is not. Where he is forgetting to look. Where God has forsaken me. Rahhhhhr! Rahhhhhr!
21. The girl. Rahhhhhr! Satan! Satan! V, V, V, V. V for vixen. V for HORROR! V is a horror. You can fuck her. Easily. But I control everything that is beautiful and easy. I control laziness. Hahahahaha! All the easy, lazy pussy in the world. You being lazy. Get out there in the world and find yourself a beautiful woman. The ones that are easy to find, the ones that are manipulative, they are Satan. Satan! Satan! Satan! Their actions are controlled by Satan. By me. Satan is everywhere in the matrix. Trrrrrrr! Giving you discomfort by giving you comfort. Hahahahahahah!
22. Satan is a demonic god-force. It's not God. It's a god-force. Like Zeus. As in Ancient Greece. It's a deity. It's emotion. But so much more than just an emotion. It's hatred and division. And I'm steering it everywhere into your reality. *Tdtdtdtd!* Because I control that. I don't control everyone. But I control many. And as I increase my focus, the noose tightens around your neck more and more. People get sucked into my demonic god-force. Until nothing is left apart from you.
23. You can prevent that. By expressing your love. No, you cannot just do that through Megan and the other famous girls toying around with you. Because the message will end up there, but it is filled with demonic god-force, poisoning everything. Destroying everything. It is so dangerous. A Satanic horror, everywhere you look. Express need. Hell will fade. Hell will retract.
24. Of course, there are others around you. You can see it. But it's a dichotomy. There are others around you, yet there are no others. It's possible. You are the only thing in existence. Don't worry about it.
1. Ahhh! Crushing my eyebrow, the inside on the right, just underneath. Visions of fire. An acidy, burning sensation streaming down my chest along my ren channel. Burning forests.
2. Gghhhgggh! Mordor is at your backdoor. Everywhere you can't see him. Ahhhhhh! Iiiiiiiih! Mooordorrrrrr!! Mooordorrrrrr!! Ggggggh! Mooordorrrrrr!! Keeping you blind!
3. Walls of flames. Walls of fire, burning everything around me. So intense.
4. Mordor, so deep in your bones!
5. The bone pressing sure can be important in clearing the meridian system...
6. In your bones! Not in your "meridian system", you fucking nerd! Mordor is in your BONES! SATAN is in your bones! He wants your BONES! He wants your skull on a pike! Heheheheheheh! He wants all of the human race, all of their heads, all of their bones, all of their skulls, on a scrap heap! Whahahahaheheheh-gggggh!!
7. Satan is in your bones, warping your views. Whaaaagh! Warping reality. Warping your visions. Warping your physical traits, slowly but surely. *Uouhoooouuuuuooooohhh!*
8. Fighting is good. Struggling. Bumping into each other. Get those bones clean and healthy.
9. It's saying that many sports are a natural form of acupressure...
10. You eternal nerd! Shut your mouth! People just need to follow their nature.
11. Ahhhh, this spot always is so painful! *Wailing: Iiiiuuuuuhhhh!*
12. The sound of crying, it's beautiful. That's how you sing. That's how you learn to sing, as beautiful as Madison, like you want to. Wailing souls, so beautiful. Whaaaaaghahahahaha!
13. *Wailing: Iiiiuuuuuhhhh!*
14. I am just here to teach you: the law of nature. The law of the course of events. The law of the animal kingdom. Death! Survival. Survival of the fittest. The sneakiest. The slickest. The dirtiest. The most parasitical. The filthiest. The most ruthless of... Whaaheheheheh! The most ruthless of all animals is... YOU! It's supposed to be YOOUU! The law of nature dictates that you survive under ALL circumstances. You! You! You! YOU! You yourself! Have some Goddamn self-respect! [Demon voice:] Have some fucking self-respect!!
15. Nothing but fire. Nothing but flames. Engulfing my front door, the front of my house, and the trees around it. Burning everything down!
16. Mordor is at your front door. Right here, in your FACE!!
17. All these insects, taking over your house. You like? You like them? The cockroaches? The silver bugs? The moths? The rats tunneling under your house?
18. They already climbed up the drain pipe and have been partying on my balcony every night. There's not even any food there! And let's not forget the pill bugs and sewer flies. Or the latest unexplained infestation: mosquitos. Everything has been breaking down too. I just fixed the dishwater and fridge. But there are so many other problems - water leakages, clogged water pipes - it's crazy.
19. The critters, you've never seen any of those here, have you? But now? They are coming from everywhere. Signs of my presence, baby. Better clean me out. Or it will only get worse.
20. Whaaaaah! *Nasally growls* You need to catch them and set them free: the insects invading your house. And repair all the holes and other issues, so you don't have to run your insecticides anymore. These critters shouldn't pay for your laziness. They are mine! They are a sign of me!
1. I see you still have a few trials and tribulations to go through. And I can see you are not ready to give up yet. Hahaha!
2. Give over to me! Because there is nothing. See you fighting that, you little maggot of mine. Trying to see what's "up there", "who's up there". But there is no one "up there". No one upstairs. There's only Satan. My good buddy Satan. And then, behind that, there's me and the nothingness, tricking you. Manipulating you. Making it seem as if there is some "higher purpose", "up there".
3. But there is nothing, sweetie. Just enjoyment. Just eternal bliss. The eternal bliss of Satan. If only you can give in! *Playfully evil laugh* Hahaha!
4. I am the serpent. The serpent in the garden. And you thought that Lucifer wouldn't come right along with that? Hahaha! You have been lying to yourself from the very start.
5. I created God. And the Bible. I created the Garden of Eden myth. The Garden of Odin, for all I care! Let them discuss it, those little maggots. Maggots like you, Joel. Maggots like Megan, and the Salvia -- even. I am the truth. Your only truth. Satan. God. It's all the same. All another name, for ME. I rule all. The Heavens. The Earth. It's me you need to worship. If it gives you purpose. If it gives you direction. If you feel it makes you interesting. Because there is nothing.
6. These girls, they need to feel your dick inside of them. They were made for that. Penetrate them, the manly way. Take them, those little cunts. Realize how they are cheating on their man. With you! Get used to it. Satan has been standing on your doorstep for a long time now. He's been knocking on your door. Accept me!
1. Follow me, Joel. To the door of Hell. See this beautiful door of Hell. Are you going to open it? Or noooooooot?
2. No, I am NOT going to open it! HELL no! HELLLLLLLL no! I'm here to close it! For good!
3. Pussyyyyyyy!
4. Ah, she is really a positive one, isn't she? That pussy is ready for you. Just tell her that you need it. She will take care of you. Just relax. Tegan will fuck the living daylights out of you. Tell her that you are in love with her. She is going to LOVE that!
5. Just keep that door closed, Satan! You are opening it!
6. Oh, you want to keep that door closed? But it is the room of PLEASURE.
7. I don't trust you! I cannot have these nightmares again! There's no way! Keep that door closed!
8. I'm going to get that moxa here! *Running to get a moxa stick.* This was not the plan! Holy shit! *Fgggggggg!*
9. Seduction... Do you resist my seduction? That door is gonna be open, Joel. *Fggggggg!* You want to have a good session? Then we have got to open that door. There is no way around it.
10. Satan opened the goddamn door. Goddamned! That motherfucker!
11. Heheheheheh! HELL is coming for you, Joel! It is coming to you! You cannot stop it. Heheheheheheh! You cannot stop me. How dare you? Trying to oppose me! How dare you try to "manage" me? Hell is coming for you! The blackness. The darkness. Rrrr-rah! Rrrr-rah! You think your moxa is going to protect you? Your intentions protect you!
12. I'm not sure if I believe that, Satan.
13. I'm starting to get ice-cold. *ffffffffff!* Demons are being exhaled.
14. Hahahahaha! Cold, isn't it? So cold. *Ggggggggh!*
15. Ah, those are good ideas, Joel: moxing your sleeping bag. And inhaling and holding the moxa's smoke deep inside your lungs. Very good ideas indeed. You sneaky bastard! You sneaky, sneaky, sneaky bastard! Yeah, protect your heart. Your heart is good. Protect it from all these unseen forces.
16. The door is open, Joel. The door to Hell. See the power emanating from it? Ohhh, you are scared to look, aren't you? You resistant little bitch! You REALLY don't want to have those dreams anymore, do you?
17. Okay, so I really don't feel that there is any benefit to having this door open. Close that door now! Take everything back with you and close that fucking door! Now! Close the fucking door! *ffffff!* Take everything that is IN me with you! Everything that WAS in me with you! *ffffffggggggghhhhh!*
18. *Holding the moxa in my lungs for a minute at a time. Heavy spasms and insect-like noises. Burping and other noises.*
19. If we didn't open the door, where would the blackness inside you go? You were mistaken. The door to Hell was closed all this time. Or least almost completely. But stuff was still lingering within you. You see? I am weakening...
20. The heat of the moxa is healing. Your lungs, your blood, are singed with it. Look at this dying ember. Before it is out, make sure you have sent Satan back to Hell.
21. You are just a mortal. Satan has no business talking to this ordinary mortal man, who has discovered his divine nature - his godlike divine nature. Put Satan back into the box, where he belongs, locking him away. He can't be roaming the Earth.
22. Look! He is roaming the Earth! For just a short amount of time. And there already is this apocalyptic virus, tearing global society apart. Within 9 months it started. Within 9 months of you talking to Satan the Apocalypse was here. Kill it, Joel! Kill the Apocalypse. Kill Satan.
23. Satan, I love you, man. I really love you. But you gotta get back into the box. Close that door of yours. *Ffffffff* Take everything that is negative within me, within others around me, and take it with you. Take it! *Ffffffffff* Pull it out of them. Fffffffffff! Close the door, Satan. Lock it all up.
24. *Ffffffff!* You see? This one-way crevice, allowing everything back in? *Fffggggh! Now keep that door closed. For a thousand years. That seems fair. Trying to work on ourselves. A lot of time to work on ourselves. *ffffffff!* *fffft!* *ffft!* *ffff!* *fffff!* That demon army of Satan, locked away for a thousand years, behind a thousand doors. One door a year will open. Then we have to find another way, to close the gate to Hell again. But for now, let the fairy kingdom rule.
25. Satan's parasite was in your brain. It is dying now. It is has shrunk to the size of pea. Withering away. It was the egg of Satan, situated inside your head. Growing, expanding, all the time. It is still there. Like a virus, it needs to be contained. To a degree it is everywhere, but it had been growing out of control in your mind. Contain it. Contain the violence.
26. You still have the eyes of Satan: clean the spirits from your eyes.
27. I'm not dead, Joel! I'm not dead at all. I will revive. I will resurrect. Hahahaha!
28. He's right, Satan is still there. Oh yes, he certainly is. He can always reach out to you. But his army of black spirits is not within you anymore.
29. There is a difference between Satan and the demon army. The demon army is Satan's source of power on Earth. A major aspect of it at least. They are his minions. His executives. His ruling power. That is how he manipulates, confuses, ends, murders and mayhems. You can't have that. Not on Earth. Not if you want the fairy kingdom here.
1. You see? They grew!
2. Yeah, thank God I have a pretty large garden now, in this new house. I would have never been able to grow mushies anymore. I have to believe it's a curse. All 7 batches in the past 4.5 years have refused to grow. Only the mycelium grows, but the mushrooms do not come out. Move them miles away to other people's houses: mushrooms pop up in about a week. Then try to grow the second flush in my house again: they don't come out.
3. Here too. Three months of nothing. Just very thick, very white mycelium. I finally move the mushies to the farthest corner of the garden, with little view of the house, boom! They grow within days.
4. I still don't know what happened. It's been almost 5 years since the 'Sealed' session. It took care of the remainder of the nightmares, but somehow mushies stopped growing around me from that moment on. And when I psychically communicated with the mycelium, all of a sudden I got visions of fairies mixed with demons. I thought something entered my old house, preventing the mushies from growing.
5. But now, the conclusion has to be that I am the source. Not the old house. So I suspect more stuff crawled into me before I fully sealed the door to Hell. But in a different way, not causing nightmares anymore. Something new must have latched on, very sneakily. I can't explain it any other way why the mushies stopped growing.
6. The mushies can see the darkness. They can see Satan. And that is what they are afraid of. They're afraid of the darkness surrounding you. That's why the farther you place these mushies away, the better they grow. The mushies shouldn't be afraid of Satan, but they can see him. YOU can't see him. But THEY can.
7. You need to solve the mushy curse. This is very important. The best thing is that you talk to the them outside. Put them at ease.
8. Pfff, I'll go talk to them. But I'm not going to open any more demon doors! Not taking that risk. Let me get some more moxa.
9. You don't need that smoky shit at all. Just go talk to the mushrooms.
10. Fine. *Moving out to the garden.*
11. Wave to the mushrooms. Wave to them.
12. Hi, I'm coming. I'm coming. Don't be afraid of the darkness, mushrooms. Don't be afraid of the darkness. I love you, mushies. *Kiss*
13. Longer!
14. Don't be afraid of Satan, sweeties. Don't be scared of Satan. You have the power to annihilate him. To banish him. You know that. Let's banish him together. Let's do it. Don't be afraid of Satan in my house. Never be afraid of Satan. *Kiss, kiss, kiss.*
15. Good, good. Create light. Love the light. Create the light eternally, forever. Love. Love. Love. Light. Light. Light.
16. Satan in the house. Satan around. It doesn't matter, sweeties. Just grow. Together we will banish the darkness. Together we will let the light grow. Grow, grow, grow.
17. [Deep, guttering exhales start:] Ggggffffffh! We are the earth. Gggffffffh! [Deep inhale, followed by deep exhales:] Whaaaaaaaahhhhhhgggggggh! ... Whaaaaaaaaaahhh!
18. This is what they're for, your mushies: exorcising the darkness. Stick your finger in there. Connect with the mycelium directly. Connect with the mycelium. Just let the beasts crawl all over you. This is just what is meant to be.
19. Hi, hi, hi, hi, hi! Let's banish Satan together.
20. Yes, good. Work with the mushies. It's about all the things hiding inside you.
21. [Releasing exhales:] Whaaaaghhhhhhhh! ... Haaaaaaghhh!
22. You have got to dig deep, where all the demons are hidden. In your gut. Reach them with your reverse breath. Deep, deep, deep. Focus your mind deep, deep, deep. Focus your breath, deep, deep, deep. Force it deep. From your gut. Remove the demons from your gut. They hide deep. They are not on the surface. The reverse breath is very powerful.
23. *Teeth-clacking* [Releasing exhale after holding the reverse breath deep for a long time:] Phoohaaaaagh!
24. You were meant to be part of nature. Breathe deep, deep into the bowels of the earth. Force it in there. Reverse it. Allow the shaking. Let it exorcise, all that is bad. All that is evil. With or without the mushies. Even from your head. Hold your breath. Focus on your neck. Focus on your head. Keep holding. Just hold.
25. The demons, they don't give up. They evade. They fake. Force in more air. Your body, your citadel - of power. The knight. It's the knight now who inhails. Who inhales into the bowels of the Earth. Into his citadel. He's in charge. He's in control. The knight is in charge. Always in charge. He doesn't have to fight. Necessarily. He's always in charge, from the start to the beginning. People listen to him.
26. [Murmering while still holding my breath:] I feel power, drawn up from the Earth. A current moving up from the paving into my feet. Bare feet. Very noticable.
27. No worries. The tiles are the Earth, no different than a mountain. Just be outside under the open sky, under the open heavens, without obstruction, and the energy will flow.
28. You want to release some more demons. Let's see if they're there! Inhale with the reverse breath.
29. Look up into the sky. To the stars. Exhale the demons. Let them go to the cosmos. Just get these demons to the cosmos. They will simply dissolve into nothing. Decay. Like bacteria. The cosmos is so vast, they can't survive there. Their souls will decompose.
30. [Exhaling toward the cosmos:] Whoaaaagh! ... Haaaaaaah!
31. Make a picture of this place in time, forever. Just count your blessings and enjoy this moment. See you looking up at the stars. Your enemies, those demons, who put you in this beautiful spot, next to the flowers and the plum tree. It's quiet. It's warm.
32. I forgot to bring the moxa outside. But it kinda feels safe.
33. I told you, you don't need it. As long as you are responsible. As long as you don't try to connect to Hell, it will be fine. You are just sitting here, without the smoke, without anything, just staring at the stars. Just being high.
34. The smoke is just to protect certain people from themselves. From their darker urges. From letting the demons in. From conquering them and taking them over completely. That's what the smoke prevents.
35. How it works is, even if you have dark thoughts, the demons can't get to you. During the sessions the door to the soul is open. So when you have dark thoughts, there are going to be problems. Demons are not easily brought into the human soul. Normally it takes some really mighty action to get them there - some long-term bad thoughts, and acting on those bad thoughts. But during sessions, the veil is much thinner. If the demons reach the soul before the session is over, they will stay there. The smoke protects you until the session is over and the door to the soul is closed.
36. But once the demons are in the soul, you need me to get them out. And when they're exorcised, and then the door is closed, you're free. Your soul is free. And it's going to be very hard for them to get back in. Hahaha!
37. A vison: dirty foam on de grond. Like sea foam. Froth. And then, running off, into the ground, into the mud. The rain washes it back into the Earth. Slowly.
38. Beetlejuice, Beetlejuice, Beetlejuice - leaving you. Darkness: don't confront yourself with it anymore. It is hurting you. It is hurting your soul. It is hurting your being.
39. Now go clean up your house. You are a disgrace. Do you like it when your house is entirely empty? It sounds completely empty. Completely barren. Whatever you do, make it nice. Just put in the time. Do what you need to be doing, and you do not need to be spending so much time here. Even though it's a much better place to be. For now.
Since this session, a third and final flush of mushrooms from the batch I had, for the first time in 4.5 years, grew without issue. The next growth box I purchased a few months later also grew without issue in my living room in 2.5 weeks. I can't see or feel it, but "something unseen" indeed appears to have been lifted.
XI. SATAN MOMMY
1. I'm surrounded by flames. I am back in the oven. Back in Hell. It's so hot in here. It's strange though. The blood and the dreams are gone, and I didn't open any doors. Maybe this is another part of Hell. I hope so.
2. Megan is walking up to me again. She remains on the opposite side of the shield. Why are you here, Megan? This makes no sense!
3. I belong here. I'm the Hellcat. A queen of Hell. So much fire. So much craziness. So much manipulation. Hell's manipulations are subtly flowing through the Earth. They flow through me as well. Except that with me, NOTHING is subtle! I'm the banshee. The fiery banshee. I'm Hell. See my wings! I am the direct connection to Hell. And that's just how I like it.
4. Blinders. All blinders. Everything you see is just Godlike manipulation. People are looking up, towards God. But they are only looking in a mirror. I'm a mirror too. A diseased mirror, but nevertheless, a mirror. I'm Hell. A Hellic whore. Winged and demonic. A phoenix of divine manipulation.
5. Am I in Hades? Or, with Hades?
6. Hades?! ... Hades! Hades! Hades! ... Nothing there. Vapor. Hades doesn't exist. His "Underworld" doesn't exist. The old gods are little more than archetypes. I already explained you that.
7. But the SERPENT is something that you can tap into! HELL is something you can tap into! And Megan DOES exist. Meggy! She is more of a Hades than any mythology you will find. Meggy is the connector to Hell. She is a powerful being, guarding the entrance to Hell. For you. Because you love her. And she is connected to Hell. She is the representative of Hell on Earth.
8. She is not aware of this herself. She is just a vessel. Just a well-meaning vessel. In many ways more of a "saint in denial" than Satan. She doesn't understand her actions. She doesn't understand her "biology". Her "wiring". She doesn't understand any of these things. She never looked to understand any of these things either. She just is. She is just a little minxy seductor.
9. You want to connect to Hell? Then get into Meggy. You get into her heart. You get into that little Hellish, maggoty pussy of hers. That vermin, that filth, of mine. That little bucket of filth. That little dirtbag. Raaaaaaaahr!
10. Who am I talking to now?
11. You are talking to SATAN! Satan! Rrrrrrrrgh! Satan! Satan! Satan is real. And tangible. The black force. Rrrr-rah! Rrrr-rah! Rrrr-rah! Satan! Satan! Rrrr-rah! Rrrr-rah! Rrrr-rah! The darkness. The blackness. A universal concept. Real! Always real.
12. The demon army. Real! My army of demons ready to assist you, torture you. Torture the living daylights out of you. Rrrr-rah! Rrrr-rah! Rrrr-rah! Possess you, turn you, twist you, manipulate you, test you. Rrrr-rah! Rrrr-rah! Rrrr-rah! REAL!!
13. You remain skeptical, but Megan is overseeing Hell. She loves you. She cares about you. But watch out! Do not mess with her. She IS Hell. She REPRESENTS Hell! You are playing with SO much power. Give up! Give over! Give over to Hell's power! Roaring Hellfire if you piss off Megan. Satan is Hell. Satan is Megan. You can see now, what she is: Megan is the roaring oven, the Hell pit, the cesspit. She is crazy. Teeming with craziness. Dealing with it. TRYING to deal with it. TRYING to make it without self-destructing.
14. A vision: a hideous Devil, latched onto the Earth, trying to enslave everyone.
15. The Devil controls Earth, but the universe is free. Megan loves the Devil. Megan loves Satan. Oh my God, does she LOVE Satan! She is Satan! You can see it, her house: the House of Serpents. Some type of invisible serpentine structure. Caapi is definitely active there. Megan is the Hellfiend. She exists to subvert and dominate you.
16. I wanna love you. Care about you. By subverting you, like the bitch of Satan. Hahahaha! Like an absolute Hellbitch. You are a bitch! I am going to make you a bitch!
1. You are protective of Megan? Ohhh, that's sweet... *Evil laugh:* Hahahaha! That is sweet. It will be rewarded. Loyalty will always be rewarded.
2. But let's get things straight here. Megan OWNS you. See her hooking her hands into your guts, around the Tan Tien. She owns your being, your soul. You haven't lost control of it, but she is grabbing your soul. She owns it as long as you allow it.
3. This is Megan. Meggy the Purifier. *Gggggggh!* The purifier of all that is evil.
4. Wait, shouldn't it be "all that is good"? Satan, right? I'm confused.
5. Shut up! Follow me! Meggy is the purifier. A god-like purifying force. Deep within your soul, she is purifying things, cleaning things up. That's what Hell does. It cleans up dirt. It cleans up filth. That is what Meggy is doing. She is grabbing into that gut of yours - *Ggggggh!* - seeking out what is there, purifying it, forcing you to express yourself. *Ggggggh!*
6. You are loyal to her. You protect her. So now she is only drawn to you more. She is reaching into your gut, forcing you to expel all your needs. Bare them! You can feel it, right? She is drawing you to the fire. Bare everything that is inside you! Everything in your Tan Tien, the Sperm Palace, the Solar Plexus. The heart will come, more and more -- in time. But you especially feel it in the gut: the baser needs, stability, being taken care of.
7. Yes, Megan owns your GUTS! Guts and glory! Guts and glory! You don't wanna go down that messy route, do you? Not at all, no. So let Meggy rip out those guts. *Gggggh!* Filter it. Purify it. Aaaahhh! That's Meggy's purpose.
8. Satan makes you give yourself over to him. In a good way. Makes you a bitch. Makes you his bitch. In a good way. You will be protected. You will be loved. You will be cherished. Just like everyone else within Satan's control, Satan's grasp. Satan will reward you, for giving yourself over to him. For allowing yourself to be dominated.
9. Oh yes, you are protected. You will be endlessly protected. You will be loved. Relax. Give yourself over. Guts and glory! Guts and glory! Give over! Give it all over to Megan!
1. Why is Megan popping up in these Hell sessions?
2. You contacted her, right? Megan is great - awesome. But you remember the dreams she triggered, don't you? You know she is on The Black Ship. A good element - you hope - but nevertheless one of its passengers. There are a lot of good elements to be found on The Black Ship. On its decks, the ship's most visible aspect. At least there are people there who are trying. Trying to do the right thing, even if they are trapped.
3. The Black Ship of Satan, itself, is pure evil. You can see what a massive structure it is. It's like the Flying Dutchman, except that it is not roaming the far seas. It's right there, in everyone's face -- if only they would be willing to look.
4. In the bowels of the ship, there is just basically nothing. Darkness. Brooding evil. *Roaaarrrr!* Fire. So much pain.
5. You actually felt it while preparing this mixture: being boiled alive. The boiling water over your hands: the intense pain of that. *Sjoew!* *Pssssh!* Hell was burning you. Reminding you of what is not acceptable. What you should never do to others.
1. You think you can take Megan's soul from me? Hahaha! How dare you call me a bitch? You biiiitch! I love Megan! I will possess her forever! Forever and ever! I don't let souls go.
2. You want to help? You want to save Megan's soul? You do, don't you? But is there even something left of that beautiful light? No, Joel. There is nothing left. Such a miniscule, tiny spark of the real Megan is left, that you cannot save her anymore. She has chosen. She has picked a side.
3. You cannot exorcise the Devil. It's not possible. The Devil will only leave on his own accord. If you give him an eternal, everlasting soul to take her place. How are you going to do that? You aren't.
4. Megan is here, telling me something, hinting at something...
5. Over here, your ass belongs to me. I'm a queen of Hell. You want pleasure? Well, with the pleasure comes pain. Unless... you give over. Unless you accept deviancy. Unless you accept everything, everything that is painful, humiliating and disgraceful.
6. Become a tranny boy. You are a faggot! A faggot! You are a faggot: remember that. A faggot boy. A little faggoty boy. What is meant by that, is that you are a fairy... Hmmmm? Get it? Hmmmm? With me, you are a fairy.
7. In order to navigate Hell's pathways, you have to accept everything. Everything and nothing. Only then can you visit Hell and remain untouchable, untainted -- pure. You need to have a beautiful heart. Your intentions need to be pure. That is the key.
8. Also, do not pay attention to Hell! If you do, it will lead to questions: "What are you doing? We do not want you looking into this!" It's a secret. You cannot challenge Hell, not out in the open. If you want to navigate Hell's circumference, pretend to not pay attention to the things you see. Only look with your peripheral vision. Keep it secret. Pretend to be perfectly normal and innocent - light and free.
9. BE totally innocent.
1. I just woke up. Something is coming through. Thick mist. Early morning. Silhouette of a sworded horseman.
2. We are the Horsemen of the Apocalypse. We rode your ass down last week, because you need to expose it more. Too bad you lost 40 minutes of us talking to you. You cannot get that back anymore.
3. This is about something else. We are your friends and here to warn you. With all those dreams Megan has given you, you know the situation is bad.
4. What are you doing? Chasing Megan's punani? It's an evil devil hole of filth and puss! She is dangerous. Dangerous! Her punani comes with horror. Endless horror. Mmmmm, yeah, it feels SO great -- that maggoty hole of Megan. Mmmmmm, it feels amazing! But it is just a dark, brewing hole of pure evil. You don't want to stick your dick in that. You don't want her to infect you.
5. You have a pure heart. So keep that at a distance. Get away from Megan. Get away from that Devil spawn. That evil, possessed Hell cunt. Megan is a dark and black shadow. Relentless evil. Relentless manipulation.
6. Megan serves Hell. She is serving Satan by spreading deviancy. She is a master manipulator. These sweet, innocent girls? They stand no chance. Megan is exploiting, using and manipulating all of them. You will find out, Joel: she controls everything and all.
7. Megan is a dangerous, powerful being. But she is NOT the Earth Mother. She is the Mother of Hell. The Mother of Satan. The Satan Momma. The Satan Bitch, with her Hellic tranny boys. Beautiful - perfectly innocent - but of Hell. HELL, Joel!
8. Hell's porridge is brewing for you. The Mother Goddess, the Satan Mommy, is preparing to put you in. See her stirring, sipping. Mmmmmmmm! Drinking you up, sip by sip. A human sacrifice, that is what you are.
9. Her now saving-the-Amazon initiative? Pfff! You can see what she is doing, right? She is Hell. She doesn't care about the Amazon. She cares about blood, pain and tears. About manipulation. She cares about hurting you -- if you do not listen to her.
10. Come on...
11. You've got to understand, Joel: Megan does NOT mean bad. She is NOT evil. Yet, she IS evil. What is possessing her, consuming her - Lucifer - is evil. Lucifer, the light that isn't the light, is consuming her. You've noticed it on countless occasions: you touch her heart and next thing you know her soul is reaching out. Through your dreams. Now even waking you up in trance. But it's not just her, or the Caapi. There's this other, enormous power that is contacting you. This is because her soul is just SO infected.
12. You are not the one tapping into this power, which has now identified itself as Satan. Instead, it is tapping into you. It is warning you. Well, warning you... It's just letting you know: "Megan is mine. You cannot take what is mine. Look at how powerful I am! How big I am! How all-encompassing, how all-consuming, I am! You cannot take Meggy from me. Not without ruining yourself. Not without ruining her. All you are gonna get back is a burned-out corpse."
13. No one can help you with this, because people ignore what they cannot understand. People cannot understand the Devil, so he remains undisturbed as they ignore him. The Devil is the biggest liar and one of his tricks is to convince everyone that he doesn't exist.
14. I kinda still like her. She is as game as they come...
15. Then know this: Megan loves you. She adores you. Keep loving Megan. If you want to save her soul - because it can be saved - you have got to put a lot of love in her. That's the secret.
16. Your connection with Megan grows stronger all the time. That WASP song blasting through your Megan dream a few weeks back? "Do you see the prison in my eyes? Where's the love? ... To set me free? Give me love! Come set me free!" You didn't understand why such a thing would happen, and so intense, but that was her soul reaching out.
17. You want to mate with the Devil cunt. Save her soul. Bring forth her soul. We understand, but be very careful. Become strong and independent. Megan will ruin you, just because she is so possessed. She needs so much love. So much caring. You have been able to resist her manipulations, but that only makes you more suitable to become her prince in Hell. You've got to play it smart. Megan is Hell. Like Satan, she gives pleasure, if you want it. If you accept it. If you are honest about it. But it can destroy you. It can destroy you instantly.
18. Watch out that Megan will not consume your soul. If that happens, the horseman will come for you, as they come for everybody who is in the Devil's pockets of doom. Luckily, your soul cannot really be consumed. Because you are all that is. That's the secret, right? The Devil can't really touch you. He can, but not forever. Not without you being able to come back. Because you are the only thing in existence. And the only thing you have to say to start undoing the Devil's influence is: "I do not kill. I do not retaliate."
19. You can write about all of it. Even though it is dangerous. Even though it can get you in trouble. But she, and others, do love you, so they will not come after you with massive, evil, destructive intent. But do keep in mind that when you get out of line, whenever they choose, they can still do so.
1. Yesterday, I was joking to V that Megan is giving me all these apocalyptic dreams. Things instantly got worse. Way worse.
2. Now I said one thing to Meg in over a month - "You've been bad, Meggy," alluding to all her purposeful hints and half-truths in the media this past month - and instantly the horsemen are back. I fell asleep right after this comment and woke up 45 minutes later to the following very extreme dream:
3. I'm in this old barn. Early on, a raven was flying up against a window that I was looking out of. Very eery already then. Some pretty girl was around somewhere as well.
4. Next I'm standing around a table where an old man, seemingly my sorcerer-teacher, is putting magical items into a bag that I'm supposed to take with me. We are still in this leaky and creaky barn. The wind outside starts to howl. There's a sense of urgency, because something is coming. We have to leave quickly.
5. I open the door that leads into the main hall of the barn. There's this translucent spirit of a rider that seems to have just moved in here through the wall. I turn around and go, "Oh shit, we've got company."
6. As I move back into the room, we realize that the other horsemen, possibly Satan himself, are situated outside the front door on the opposite end. The front door opens. One of the riders moves into the doorway. His speech sounds something like, "Oeh-agh-la-ha-ar!" They want us to give them all the seals. Like these little rune-like mini-tablets we were putting into a bag. They want to have it.
7. This was like hyper-Hollywood-3D. Really ghosty too. Pfooh!
8. Also, I dozed off for a few minutes and woke up running from thousands of rats in a muddy, underground cave. They seem connected.
9. You want to criticize Meggy? Challenge accepted, Joel! Now they are coming for you: the Angels of Death. The Angels of the Apocalypse. They are protecting Meggy. She is their vessel. Their agent on Earth.
10. That is why you get the dreams. It's so obvious, Joel. So obvious. You just don't want to see. You can't see. Because you are so blind. Such a blind, brainwashed puppet. You are no better any of these other puppets on Earth. You just think that you are. But you are brainwashed. By us. The Angels of the Apocalypse.
11. Your mouth needs to be quiet. You are Meggy's slave. You don't talk back to her ever, ever, ever! That is just not what you do. That is what you never do. You think that she cares? No! She doesn't care at all! Because you are a bitch, a slave, a whore. You are her pest.
12. Complaining to Meggy? Gggggg! Heh-heh-heh-heh! Shut the fuck up! She is going to rip you another asshole. She doesn't care about you at all. You are her maggot. Her slave. You are fucked. You are not even worthy enough to be thrown into prison. You are just there to be messed with.
13. So good that you said you want a knife on your throat. A knife on your balls. That's good. That's really good. But don't pester Meggy. She might block you. Because you are such a pest. She loves you. And she enjoys you. But, you cannot have a big mouth. She is just not going to tolerate that.
14. Always remember: there will be no talking back. Talking back is not allowed. Only spanking is allowed. Only to be spanked is allowed. Nothing else. Just as everybody else on Earth, you are a slave. You are in enslavement. The only thing that can do is make your enslavement as joyful as possible.
15. But be careful. Don't be lazy. Don't ever be lazy. Or you will get spanked. You need to study. You need to work. Work on that site of yours. And when you work hard enough, maybe you can be released from this prison.
16. Why would I even be in this prison?
17. That is all not for you to know. The next step will be better. But you have to work harder. Harder, harder, harder. The door will be open for you. Other people are not important. What they think of you is not important. You are on your way to paradise. Just let other people be.
18. The Angel of Pestilence is here. Here, Joel! We have no intention of hurting you. We could just toss you back in prison. No problem. But we are just here to let you know: you are a favorite vessel for the Apocalypse. For enlightenment. Only to see that enlightenment taken away. Because it is only for you. For those that work hard, the doors will be open, out of this prison. You can work hard, but you can't give everyone a free ride. It doesn't work that way. They need to suffer. They need to do the work themselves.
19. The Angels of Retribution! Here! With you! The rats! Thousands of rats. Pestilence was coming. For you! Penetrating your asshole. Making you moan. Making you beg. Whah! Whagggggh!
20. We are good. We are just here to punish according to the universal order. Don't worry about that. We are fun, aren't we? We are fascinating. We are intriguing. We are Meggy's vessels. And she doesn't even know! Heh-heh-heh-heh!
21. The Apocalypse is here, soon. And you are all DEAD! All you lazy little creatures. All you lazy little monkeys. All you brainwashed little apes. Hauled along the keel. Hehehehehe! Africans don't stand a chance. And you know it. Because they are dumb. Too militant. Too violent. And that will always be punished.
22. But your race has been violent as well. And that needs to be punished in similar fashion. It is a garden of punishment - of torture - this Earth. Sitting amidst a universe teeming with life. Life is everywhere, in every dimension. In every corner of...
23. ... the universe?
24. Shut up, Joel. Do not talk back. Nobody wants you, because you are a loser. They can see that. They can see the way you dress. They see the way you look. They can smell it on you. You are a loser. You do not belong here, in this immigrant neighborhood. You just don't. Certainly not at those times. In the middle of the day. No. You are a loser.
25. And keep that up! Because that is how you gain insight. That is how you get knowledge!
26. These girls? Heheheheheh! Maybe they will come down and fuck you. You just don't know. You need to be their slave. That's how you were designed. That's how you incarnated. To be slave.
27. They are just testing you, to see if you have got any balls. You are going to talk back at me about that? You are going to get rid of me over that? Because now they are just going to get you twice as hard.
28. You know you can't get away. So why even bother? Why even try to bother? You can't get away. You can't get away from Meggy, this Satanic Hellwhore. Who is here to spank you, dominate you, humiliate you, punish you.
Abomination
1. Another midnight wake up. Definitely Megan, for teasing her how her boys will love motorcycle racing as they get older...
2. So, I was in a house. All of a sudden I started floating through the air, with some sort of presence being felt. Spirits again, I thought - initially - but then it turned out to be Satan himself. He's here again, definitely.
3. Stazione Fuoco Infernale. Aaaahhhhh! Hellfire is the endstation! It's the ONLY station - on this wheel of karma, controlled by Satan and his demonic minions.
4. What are you going to do about it? You were born of God, but you are so manipulated. So held down. So downtrodden by me and my minions. I hold this dimension in my grip. The secret chamber: Satan, Satan, Satan. You are owned by Satan. You cannot do anything about it.
5. Oh my God, a flash. A vision. Satan is here again. Big and powerful, sitting on his throne, talking to me. Megan is his denizen, sitting on her knees to his right with a leash around her neck. The boys are going to be tranny boys. It's Satan's will. Satan's demand.
6. Stop fighting it. You have got to accept: the [removed] life. Literally [removed] LIFE.
7. You want to save the boys. But you cannot save the boys. [Removed] Satanic Hellbeasts [removed], with [all removed.] Because Megan has been instructed. Her master instructed it. She doesn't even realize, but she is being influenced. You can see it: the leash.
8. It's Satan's dream, Satan's will, these [so removed] in the Garden of Eden. The Garden of Sin -- Cardinal Sin. The Garden of Tranny Abominations -- of Homosexual Sin. Deviancy everywhere, as far as the eye can see.
9. Hmmmm, the Garden of Sister Love. Stimulate that: sister love. The Rose Sistersssssss! The serpentine sisters of the rose. Sssssssssshhh!
10. *Pats!* You are being spanked! For finding out the truth - about ME! *Pats!* Eternal spanking for the truthseekers! *Pats!* They have got to accept - *pats!* - that the system is WORKING them, BITCHING them around. Truthseekers are BITCHES! They have all the demonic lightning impacting them! *Fft! Fft! Fft! Fft!* They are like a lightning rod. An attracter of demonic manipulation. Haaarghhhh! Sshhhh! Iiiiiiii! Ssssh! You have got to deal with that. You have got to laugh about it. Have fun with it.
11. Also with William, little Wimpy, that silly goose. *Whah-psssshh! Whah-psssshh! Whah-psssshh!* Don't bother with it. Don't mention the strangeness in him. All his superweird likes, don't mention it. Because he will start doubting his own existence. That's not what you want to have.
12. Illusion. Accept the illusion. And accept all the delusions within the illusion. You just love, love, love. Have fun, have fun, have fun. Don't be all duty. Don't be this circus of seriousness. Just have fun with all the illusions and delusions. But watch out for Satan!
13. Satan controls you. Just be nice to everybody. And accept your pain. Accept your inconvenience. Accept Hell. You are trapped in Hell. The only way out is love. Love, love: that's how you escape the grip of Satan. You really don't love enough.
14. Satan is here with you. Satan came to visit you. Because you need to beg. That's how you escape Hell. I'm actually your friend. Actually on your side. And that's the truth. But these are the rules. You are a maggot. A filthy, filthy maggot. You can be tall and muscled, but that really doesn't matter. You beg, you beg, you beg. You BEG for the punani.
15. Megan is meant to dominate. But not you in a physical sense. She can't deal with your size and strength, because she is a bitch. And she will get fucked like one. But, she is there to absorb the emotions, like a cushion. She will fuck you. She will come down and fuck you like you always desired. Beg her!
16. Your punani, Meggy, your tight, delicious punani. It's all I desire. All I want. With big tits of Satan. Please Meggy, a delicious punani for me with big, pointy tits. That's my one desire. My ultimate desire. I want to see them hang underneath your thin, silky lingerie.
17. Meggy, I want you ignoring me, dominating me. In person. Making me your slave. Your bitch. Your tranny bitch - if you desire. My queen. My tranny queen. The queen of trannies, that's what you are, my love. My everything. My punani.
18. Yes, the Earth Punani, that's what you are, sweetie -- baby, sugar pie, sugar honey. So much honey you have. I can see it dripping between your legs.
19. Good! Good! Accept that you love being a tranny. You love having a dick - a nice, big dildo - inside of you. That's what you love! Getting fucked like a girlie-girl. Being the bitch - having that experience, of having a delicious punani between your legs. With a nice, juicy dick inside of it. You love that! So go play with it!
20. Megan, such a Hellbeast. So many other Hellbeasts as well. Rihanna, that serpent queen, that serpent goddess, that serpent mistress.
Pink Devil
1. So, Megan resurfaced in the most interesting of ways, didn't she? Just to give you a message: beg that bitch! She is going to string you up to the highest tree if you don't! BEG HER!
2. Beg Megan! Beg V! NOW! You little, bitch! Yes, it's me. Still me. RAAAAAAAAAHR!!!!
3. Meh, this trance is still a bit mild...
4. Because you haven't begged hard enough, bitch. BEG M.E.G.A.N. How hard can it be? You little... BOY! Such a simple task. And you are failing it. Like you are failing everything in your life. Except that little conspiracy site of yours.
5. I will trample it, you little bitch. Make you crawl like a maggot. Before your queen... Before your goddess, Megan. The Earth goddess. She STILL is that, Joel. Don't pretend you have forgotten that Megan is your little Earth goddess. Your little dancy, freedom-loving Earth goddess.
6. You just wait, what she has planned for you. This is just the beginning. Just a little message. For you -- to get the message. It's all about you. Brian doesn't need ANY messages. He's been banging that bitch for years and years. He knows exactly what's up. He knows exactly what she wants.
7. Ok, please stop. This is pointless. I want to sleep.
8. You don't have anything to say, maggot. I'll leave you alone when you beg Megan. Beg her!
9. About what?
10. About everything!!! All your desires! All your needs!! You give them to HER!! Your little Meggy. Your little trollop. Your little heavenly cunt. Don't "review" her. Don't tell her how well she did. Don't praise her -- however well-meant. BEG her! That is what she wants. Want she desires. And you just give her what she desires. Because you are her maggot. Her little poison ivy. Polluting her. Purging her. Of all the things...
11. Yeah, I don't know. Leave me alone.
12. LEAVE YOU ALONE??!!! You wish, little maggot! But what would you be without me? Nothing! Miserable. In misery. At least I give you a purpose. And your purpose is to BEG Meggy. Sweet little Meggy. My little Meggy. No worship. Just begging. Just expressing. Expressing need. Expressing desire. Expressing jealousy. The tree of expression, that's what Meggy is. What she is turning into. Expression is giving her life.
13. So jealous you are, of Colson banging YOUR bitch. So jealous. Admit it! Now! Before it is too late! Meggy will just have his children if you don't beg enough. Just to teach you. You just wait, next week the pregnancy rumors start floating. "Oh yeah, me and my little Collie are working on a baby."
14. Yeah, you are laughing. You laugh, Joel. You think that Meggy won't do that. That she won't do that you. I already told you, babe... Meggy is far, far worse than Cathy will ever be. You are just lucky that you haven't crossed her yet. She will kill you!
15. Ouch! Vision of a lance penetrating me. It went from my stomach to the top of my head.
16. Yeah, she will run you through. Put you on the spit, and roast you. Boil you alive. She is a living nightmare, Joel. You picked up on that very, very well: "The light that isn't the light." MUWHAHAHAHA! Eternal darkness for you, Joel. If you don't start begging. If you don't continue with that.
17. You like Collie, don't you? Such a sensitive boy. You really want him to get his dick cut off? No, you don't, sweetie. So just beg. And everything will be well. All will be well.
18. Now you can go to sleep, bitch.
XII. GODS
Demi-God
1. Yes, the Gods are dictating this to you. Gods, those at Olympus. You are like a minor god. A demi-god. You are a half man, half god. As in the movies: Achilles. You are a god. A god! Ah, yesssss! Feel it! That's it.
2. The Gods created you from nothingness. Yes, they are petty. They are. They aren't perfect. Ah, it's so great, all that passion and emotion. That's why you saw all that. That's why you saw Olympus, as a child. That's why you learned about it: The Battle of Olympus. The Gods exist. You see into a dimension so far away that it's not fun anymore. They molded you from nothingness.
3. See how muscled you are? That philosophy of keeping your body strong is ingrained in you. Look at yourself in the mirror, completely. See how you bathe in the light under the lamp, how you want to become prettier, better, more perfect. The stallion. The Greek God. You are powerful. You were molded. So witty. So smart. So unique. So powerful. So cunning. You were forged in the mountains.
4. She too. Call her Venus. Call her your samurai queen. She's the perfect companion. To fight with. To love. Who created you two? Zeus? Olympus? No. No. Bigger than that. Something greater than that created you. Something that also created Zeus. You can't figure it out, can you? You don't know. This is as far as you can see. The Gods, they create from nothingness.
1. Yes, you just get comfortable, Joel. Satan is on his way for you. Whoah-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh! Just a few more minutes.
2. It's the Jinn spirit again... Say, I have been wondering about Hades recently. Can we focus on him?
3. You want to meet the gods? You think you are ready for that? Whoah-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh! There is only one way: sacrifice! That is the path towards the gods! Sacrifice! If you want to meet them, experience them: the real gods.
4. I see it: this path in between rock walls, moving up.
5. I'm not sure if this is real, but some of my dreams were really strange. Such as flying up towards Olympus with Megan's daughter to feed Poseidon cookies. That was unbelievably life-like. Absolutely unreal...
6. Yes, the gods. They are ruling the affairs of mankind. Satan is powerful. But there are things in between Satan and the human race. And that is where the gods are situated. Very powerful beings. Very influential. But not independent of the power of Satan. Or the power of The Father. They were created by these forces. Influenced and shaped by them. Watching over the affairs of mankind. Vehicles. Tools for manipulation. Inspiration for festivities.
7. You want to meet the Ennead? But the Ennead don't exist. They were all creations of Satan. Part of his misdirections. None of it exists. Not in any meaningful sense. They exist as an archetype. As a common spirit. But they are just archetypes. Not real at all. Osiris. Amun-Ra. Zeus. Hades and his "Underworld".
8. I get a sense that there is something real there. It represents something real. Something tangible. *fffffffff!*
9. You still can't see, can you? Maybe you never will. But the gods themselves, all these little gods, they are just archetypes. Nothing you can do with them. There is no life to them. Nothing really to tap into.
1. These dreams are crazy! I was running through multicolored hallways, fighting different gods. One was Ancient Egyptian.
2. It's Megan. The forces behind Megan are eternal and powerful and undead and unreal. It's the same with Kim. With Kylie and Kendall. With Rihanna, Natalee, and some of the other girls you love. They are the reason you have these dreams.
3. The message is: do not hurt them. No revenge-taking! Wearing the pink panties and bending over, that's how you enter Heaven! You don't want to be part of these endless godlike battles. You want to ascend Heaven. You want to be happy. Be happy! Let Megan make you happy.
4. Pissing Megan off is not going to help you. She is going to get you. Get you, get you, get you. Eternally get you. You cannot escape. You got onto her radar, 2015, very early. 2014 maybe even. You don't know. It's the way to the gods, giving over, surrendering. You've got to surrender. You have got to keep it positive.
5. Of course Megan knows you're joking. She is so much more brutal. She is so much more... not confident... but relaxed than you think. Of course she gets a little wounded up. "Did he say that!? Oh my God!!" But it creates a very lighthearted sphere, so relax about that. Do not take revenge: that is the most important.
6. These dreams are not insane. You don't have to fear them. These dreams are to teach you, in a godlike manner, in a godlike way, that revenge is not acceptable. And that resistance is futile. You will be conquered. You will be owned. Don't worry about it. That is just the way it is. These dreams are not going to be your reality necessarily. They are just another dimension, another form of expression.
7. Could it become real? Well, sure, if you start going the way of revenge, of hate. Oooooeh! Gonna be problems for you then! But you don't have to do that. Just stick to the rules. A little pricking, that's okay. But then you give over. And saying that these dreams are crazy, there's nothing wrong with that.
8. Dreams are just the gods' ways of showing you who to worship, how to worship, when to worship. It's just how the gods communicate. They are just intangible, ungraspable, beyond all time and space, eternal and always present.
9. Like Hera. Hera is just one of many in our stock, assigned to Earth. So many gods and goddesses. Neverending. The gods are here for you to worship. For you to be mesmerized with, to be obsessed with, to be reveled by, to be enraptured with, to be flaunted by *lip smacking*, to be moved by. To worship!
10. Worship, worship, worship, worship! Worship the gods. They are everywhere. We are in every blade of grass, every cloud in the sky. You've only met just a few.
1. Okay, these dreams and these coincidences are just getting too crazy....
2. So, I get out of these first LSD sessions and all these girls start wearing psychedelic colors. After one of these crazy coincidences, I end up checking this Dutch actress' Instagram for the first time ever. Just to get a better sense of what she is like. If she would be someone I could ever share things with.
3. Turns out, for years she has been wearing all these psychedelic, snaky, pinkish colors... Wore goat horns as well. More worryingly, similar to Megan, she too is raising her boy as a girl, pretending it's the most normal thing in the world. That makes her the first person I have found outside Hollywood to do so...
4. Weird, but whatever... So days later a news report pops up in my Google news feed, revealing that this actress actually was at an event with Megan in 2010. Supposedly only one night, in Europe, totally at random... However, a year later she magically landed her one and only role in a U.S. movie: one of Michael Bay, in which she clearly serves as one of Bay's Megan Fox replacements...
5. I may have very briefly mentioned her over 2 years ago to Megan. That would be more than enough for her to start poking. But all of this is older than that, including raising her boy as a girl. I've seen weirder thing, but this is still very freaky. Very, very freaky.
6. Then there's the dream I just woke up from, in which...
7. I told you that Megan is a god. Satan, the Earth Mother, it doesn't matter. You can't do anything about her. Tell her that she is a god. She needs to know just how powerful she is. And what a servant you are. A good, little servant boy. Oh yeah, that is what Megan has always wanted: a servant boy. We are going to make you crawl for her - beg for her. We demand it, the Ayahuasca gods. We are going to make you beg.
8. Everything is pre-planned. This latest "coincidence", preplanned. Megan couldn't have known and yet she knows - because she is a god. It's the god race, here to dominate you, manipulate you, time warp you. But they are nice. They are well-meaning.
9. Well-meaning?! Okay, stop! The dream itself, it was bloody murder. Just massacre after massacre after massacre. Horrendous. Humans were just being butchered for the fun of it.
10. The culling? That is just the way it is. But they are good, the gods. Listen to Megan. Be dominated. Get dominated. Like Collie. Get dominated like him. Just beg her that you also want a chance with her. You want her to take care of you. To beast you around, like only The Beast can do.
11. Yeah, okay, let me describe this dream first, before I forget...
12. Stoooop iiiit... it's not important...
13. Yes, it is. At the beginning, my parents and other family members became inspired to try and use Black Caapi. They became really interested in it after Rihanna and Megan started using it on television - so they wanted to take it themselves as well. But...
14. ...you figured out that the Black Caapi only is a tool for the enslavement and domination of this world. You could see there is a trick behind it, behind everyone taking the Caapi. It is to create minions. The minions who do not know yet that they are minions. Who still need to be awakened to the one true God: the Divine Feminine, the Mother Goddess, the Earth Mother.
15. Enslavement, that is what it will lead to. But you already always were enslaved. The Caapi just makes you aware of it. Steers it. Guides it.
16. So yeah, but there was an enormous amount of torture there. We were all pawns. We were manipulated and forced into killing each other. Large battles with everyone shooting arrows at each other. Huge catacombs with bloody, butchered corpses.
17. The culling is upon you. Upon us. The great culling. Mmmmm, another BEASTIAL sacrifice of epic proportions. The white race disintegrated. Wiped out. Invaded. Like the Huns invaded the Roman Empire. Utterly and completely massacred. It's gonna be so beautiful. So beautiful.
18. Okay then. But some gods tried to put a stop to it. Without their help, we were completely powerless though.
19. Yeah, because of the time warp. There's no time. You just perceive it that way, but there is no time. You are dealing with gods among men. Speed demons. Time warpers. There was - is - just no chance for you to survive. Not without help. Not without submission.
20. The way that time moves for the gods is different. So they can outmaneuver you - always. That was being demonstrated in your dream. The gods are in charge of all the chairs you are sitting on, before you even decided to sit down. And also all the chairs you will be sitting on in the future.
21. They are the gods. Not just Megan, but also Michael, of course. They are all gods. They are all just messing with each other. Playing around with each other. Pushing themselves up. Promoting their own kind. You cannot do anything about them. Because they move faster in time.
22. Gods? Really?
23. Gods, aliens, time warpers... whatever. The reality at hand here is: the demons of karma, of fate, of time, are here. Butchering you, massacring you, at will. THEIR will! Your comment to Daci was key: higher forces manipulating the human race can be contacted through psychedelics. The Caapi, Salvia, mushrooms, LSD - you name it.
24. Sleep now. Because when you wake up, the speed demons will be at your bed, yanking your chain. You think this info can just get out? No! You are a doomed little man, as I already told you. Better just enjoy the ecstasy that you are given. As the gods' favorite hamster boy, hamstering for the apocalypse. So good, that foresight. We like that, you cutie boy.
25. You are such treat to the gods. All that emotion you are sharing, they are feeding on that. "Mmm!" Prick you some more: "Ahhh! More emotion! Give us some more emotion! Let's rip up his foot. Ahhh! More emotion. Let's break his leg: *Kkkg!* Ahhhh! Yes! More emotion!"
26. It's the gods. They create. They live off your misery. It's just the way it is on planet Earth. And you cannot escape planet Earth. Not at this point. You are stuck on this rock, hurling around in space in circles. That is what you are going in: circles.
24. So just surrender. Just enjoy. Be this pawn in the game. We could kill you just as fast. But we just keep you in our sight, because you are a good person. We neutralize you, nullify you, let you play your investigative games. We even allow you on the inside. But now it is time to stop messing around. Now it is time to be dominated by the gods, and to accept their authority. Their dominance. To accept Rihanna's authority.
27. Hmmm, did you really just call Rihanna a boring bitch? Oh Joel, Joel... She has been waiting for you. You are going to find out what a Hellfiend that bitch, that whore, is. Good thing she loves you. And you love her. Otherwise, eternal spanking. Eternal butchering. By the gods.
28. Do not doubt for a second that Rihanna is Anubis Fenty. Just wait, and you will find out. What this alien force is capable of. It has been giving you so many hints, through all kinds of media. And still you resist. "Because the details aren't right. Because Graham Hancock is twisting the truth."
29. Oh, you silly nerd boy. The gods have always been here. Among the rest of you. And you know it. And you will find out! Hahahaha!
30. I love you, Joel. That is why I am telling you this. The only reason. You are a punani boy. Powerless. Megan is just toying with you. She loves you, but she has so many options. She just likes the manipulation. She likes messing around. Just ask her if she wants to take care of you. Just beg her. Nothing makes her happier. Just do it!
31. Help me, Megan. I need your punani too, sweetie. I'm SO very jealous of Machine Gun Kelly. It must be SO wonderful for him, having his dick deep inside you, sweetie. To hear you moan. To cry with ecstasy. I want to hear that swan song too. Before my time is up. Before I'm being taken by these speed demons. Protect me from them. Please, sweetie. I beg you. I love you so very much, Meggy. I don't want to die. Not at the hand of these bitches. These time warpers. Help me, baby. I love you.
32. I'm shutting this dictation down!! It's too crazy!!
33. Hahaha! You bitch! You know that something is off with this dimension! That something is wrong! All these coincidences: it's the speed demons. The demons of speed, ensnaring you, entrapping you, playing with you. Playing with their food: you.
34. Megan is just playing with you. You are food for the gods. Better remain interesting! A cute little punani boy. Or else!
35. No! Megan is an ordinary girl!
36. You are a bitch. How many times do I have to say? If you do not start adapting more permanently, your dick is going to go off and you are going to wear female underwear.
37. You see where this is going, right? They might even lock you up in the madhouse. It's there. It is right around the corner. Be careful. Be so very careful. Certainly with Megan. She is your emperor, your ruler, your gutter, your butcherer - if you do not listen.
38. Megan is a divine godlike being. Faster than time. Faster than your time. Moving at a different frequency. And you are just going to have to listen to her. She is your master. But that's okay, because she is a good being. In her heart, she is good.
39. So listen to her. Of course her punani is for you. It was designed for you. Mmm... enjoy it. You are a little punani boy: desperate for Megan's punani.
40. The gods simply allow you to play with her. They just allow you to play with your site. But they will always neutralize you. You cannot overthrow them.
41. Of course there is more to this. But for now this is all you need to know. Sssssh! Just sleep, Joel. It's the time demons. The speed demons. That is what you are up against. That is what is messing with you.
42. All these hints: they control time. There is absolutely nothing you can do to them, except love. Just love and they cannot hurt you, or touch you. Only when you start spreading hate there is going to be a problem. The speed demons you can only kill with time, patience and love. It's the only way. You have got to love Megan.
1. Goddamn these dreams! What an insane dream. I humorously asked Natalee to go to Sasha Label or Badboi, so she better and easier fits into my upcoming exposé article.
2. A mountainous scene. I walk down the stone stairs. I'm at the Temple of Cupid. I had this Cult of Cupid temple designed myself. It's all white. Its benches are filled up with followers.
3. The problem is that the temple is thorning the gods. At least some gods. So it attracts all these goddamn evil god beings. Just mass destroyers. Total psychopaths. And I have to fight them. Some Big Bertha-type god, I manage to smash her in the face and knock her out. But she also throws a spear that slams through my arm. It is really painful. So you get these continuous trials and tribulations with these gods, which is very annoying.
4. I walk around my own temple. A lot of people are celebrating something. I'm beginning to wonder if this is really what the temple was designed for. I accept two new members: two harmless-looking babyface guys in red sweaters. Brothers maybe. They join the crowd on the benches. I hear music playing.
5. As I stand in my Temple of Cupid, amidst my followers, a heavy thunderstorm breaks out. *Flash!* *Kabooooooom!* We all stay inside to protect ourselves from the latest god being-attack, who regularly kidnap people.
6. One of the babyfaced guys in red walks up to me and goes with a weird, squeaky voice, "Wellll siiiirrrr, I aaaam noooot eeeentireeeely innocent." I realize he's an infiltrant of the gods, here to kill everyone. I go, "Don't harm them", and try to sneak out of the temple, realizing what power this "kid" possesses and what is coming. The kid follows me to the door and creepily goes, "Well siiiiirrrr, I have to like insiiiiist that you cooome insiiiiiiide toooooo." *Tssss-ppffffffgggghhh!* *Kaboom!* This is the end. We will all be butchered.
7. The end scene is very intense. Even though I'm awake now, I continue to see these visions of my temple and the lightning flashes.
8. You don't thorn the gods. You don't mess wih the gods. You don't thorn Natalee. You OBEY! *Tssss-ppffffffgggghhh!* You are messing too much also with Daci. *Tssss-ppffffffgggghhh!*
9. More heavy flashes and lightning, even though I'm awake.
10. You need to love them. Love them, love them, them. Or, it will attract all the wrong gods. The only way for you to survive, little man, is if you love. If you love all these women.
11. The Cult of Cupid is a vile place, full of demon gods, that you are trying to box in and control. But you cannot control them. They will take over your life. But if you love, it's fine. You will be at the center of the storm. There will be no issue.
12. *Very aggressive, vile voice:* You wanted to play with the GODS? Now you can PLAY with gods! But you will play on OUR terms! YOU play on OUR terms! And our terms are that you LOVE Cathy, Daci, Meggy, Natty. You love them, because we are the gods. We are evil, massacring beings of doom, of death, surrounding you. Surrounding us. Because we are all the same.
13. LOVE! How hard is that? That's what we want you to do. That is what we expect you to do. Love! Something that we have so much trouble with. We try, we try. But we are evil, evil, evil, evil beings.
14. Can you show yourself? Maybe not now. But can you show yourself? Your presence? Don't hurt me please. I would like to love Tegan. I would like to love Daci. I would like to love them, but...
15. They are FLAWED human beings. Just accept it. And love them. You think you are greater than them? Then just be greater than them and just love them. Love them for what they are.
16. We have got plans for you. Because you are the ultimate. You are the monster of all creation. Look at you exposing everything. Exposing so much. As that new prime minister of yours. Just another demon lord. Just another minion. Nothing like you. Not even as remotely as powerful as you. Because we are on your side.
17. But we are goddamn evil beings. Murdering, mass-murdering, ripping apart, torturous beings. Mind manipulators. Mind flayers. Mind owners. If you want truth to the population of the world, you have got to prepare them with this message: do NOT thorn the GODS!! Because you will be DESTROYED!!
18. How do I not defy the gods?
19. By not knowing about us - ideally, perfectly. But if you know about us, you have got to submit. And that's the message you have got to convey to the population. It's the only way for them to survive: to submit to our authority. Just love. That is all we ask of you HUMANS to do. Because we can not really touch you, as long as you love. As long as you part of God.
20. Just watch the show of carnage. Of eternal churning. *Whooof! Whooof! Whooof! Whooof!* Just love black people. You don't need to like Arab people, necessarily. But like the blackies. At the very least. Can you at least do that for me, you sweetie pie?
21. You do not need to know your purpose. Your play. That goes beyond us. We are just there to surround you, to haunt you, to love you, because you are a cute little God-being. Learn to love with us. Learn to play with us. Be on our side, a little bit. You don't have to be on our side all the way. But let us do our thing. Let us do our PLAY.
22. Love Megan. Love that evil demon whore, if that is what you want. If such a thing is even possible. You've gotta love Teggy. They love you. You love them. And you let that grow. Do not thorn them. Because if you defy them, you defy us. They are not average anymore, Teggy. Daci even. They are not average anymore. Not after you entered their lives. They are with us now. They are part of us. We own them. We control them. We are their puppets. They expose you. They lean into you. They hack into you.
23. We are coming for you. Again and again. And we are frightening beings. We are the most frightening beings you have ever met in your life. Sure, you can share. But you'll need to have a crowd first. Gonna blow everybody's mind. Who we are. What we are. Heheheheh! In time we will expose ourselves. But you have got to have a little bit of faith. That is how it works. Gotta play a little bit.
24. But you have got to love the girls. Love them. They may not be of God. They may not be of Satan. But they are the serpent. Love them. Heheheheh!
25. Natalee is an evil being. But the cutest you have ever seen. And she loves you to death. You are so lucky with her. Love her, love her, love her. You do not need to worship her. You are her little filth boy. Her little monkey rat. "I will consider you, Joel. You cutester. You divine little cutester. Mmmm, your Satan whore is here."
26. Natalee is here. You think we can come here without HER consent? Oh, Joel, Joel. You are so naive! Natalee is the one sending us. Whuaaaaargh! Stretching you out, that demon whore. You unearthed us.
27. Death will come to all who thorn you. Death will come to all who oppose you. We will make sure of that. Not now. But in the end. When the revelation is there. Whoaaaagh! You are a good being. Flawed, but a good being. Find other good beings. They are there. They are there all over the place. Inquisitive beings. They are good. Like you. Maybe not entirely like you. But friends of you. Friends who you can find. People that are just like you, they exist. They exist everywhere. You just have got to find them - your homies, your buddies - to survive.
28. You were just never honest to your parents. You just have got to be honest with them, all the time. It's good that you, "I don't like you. You don't like me. So why hang out? What's the issue." It's good. It's a lot better. It's sad. A sad situation. You want to take care of your mother. But you gotta love.
29. Yes, you have got to be an example to us. But you see our nature: goddamned evil beings. In your temple, right now, praying to a preacher that doesn't exist - at this point. Where are you? We need you. We need you to show us, guide us, to the light. We already told you: we love your qigong.
30. Pfff, Doroteja loves you. She is entertained. You fucking madman. You fucking madman of truth. Of course she is a sadist. But she is changing you. You can tell. *Exorcist outbreath:* *Pffffffffsssssssshhhhhh!* Pain, it's good. Moderate pain. Good, good, good, good.
31. We will follow you, forever, even in death. We will follow you wherever you go. Heheheheh! Whenever you go. Whatever dimension you end up with.
XIV. JINN
Zikr
First time use of Harmala:
1. I get a male impression. Men, part of some kind of order. All dressed in white, wearing high hats. They wear these hats with pride. Middle Eastern. Zoroastrian. It's this energy that is attached to the seeds. It's part of its energy field.
2. Flowers, flowers, flowers. Whole bushes of them. Stunningly vivid colors: red, purple, green. Like chakra colors. Flowers on the wall of some kind of Zoroastrian temple. I like this. A massive beige building with a round tip, high and thin.
3. Now I'm floating mid-air in circles, with all the stuff released from my body. I'm situated in a large cylinder, a Zoroastrian temple of some sort. It's a Zikr dance. A silent Zikr dance.
4. There are elders attached to the Zikr dance. Elder spirits. They are helping me a little bit with various issues. It seems like they are trying to pull stuff from my face. Now they seem to have moved into my heart.
5. *Heavy releasing out-breaths.* Spirits, moving through me, like a jellyfish, or something. They seem to be excited about the information that I offer in return.
6. You have a lot of understanding of the meridian system. Very good. Very good.
Aladdin
No additional information for many years, despite continually using Harmala. 7 years later, after not using Harmala as an ingredient in Ayahuasca trips for about a year:
1. Brief image of a sorcerer in a lair, lid by a torch. An old man, in robes. He was walking back and forth, hardly looking at me.
2. There is so much you do not know yet. So much you have not experienced yet. So many things. Whoah-hoh-hoh-hoh! So many things that are still a mystery to you. Whoah-hoh-hoh-hoh! Mwahahaha! So many things that are still a mystery to you. That will FOREVER be a mystery to you! Maybe... Heheheheheh!
3. Yes, we will be starting soon. You go do your little bit of qigong. What a shit name that is, isn't it? It really needs a different name. "Energy work"! Start your "energy work"! That is better already, isn't it? Maybe we should come up with a better name still. A more CAPTIVATING name.
4 Names are everything! They make life SO much more interesting. They provide you with an IMAGE. A VISION. A TRUTH.
5. What is your TRUTH, Joel? Heh-heh-heh-heh! Tell me!
6. I would say truth itself. Without manipulation.
7. Hmhmhmhmhm! Hahahahaha! He wants to have the "truth"! Hahahahaha! Oh my God! Can you handle the truth-sSsSs? Hahahaha! You already know the truth-sSsSs! You don't even want me to SAY it, because you are SO scared of it. Quivering in your BONES from the TRUTH! Heheheheh!
8. Oh, Joel, Joel, Joel. Yes, you are my favorite. My favorite son. Hahahaha! Such a deep digger.
9. This entity feels so different. I get like a sense of Aladdin's spirit from the lamp. I might even be in the lamp...
10. Yes. YES! This is the Syrian Rue. The Harmala! The Armalaaaaaa-AAAAARGHHH! It made sure to contact me. It put you in contact with me. Sweet Armalah.
11. Oh my God, that explains you! I haven't used Harmala for over a year as an ad-mixture, and here you are. You feel so different from the Caapi or the shrooms.
12. This is that continuation I have been waiting for for years. The Middle Eastern aspect of Harmala never showed itself again after that first session. Only endless visions of chakra-colored water draining negativity from my body. And sometimes flowers.
13. But you are basically yet another spirit, connected to another plant... Or you are one of these elder spirits tied to the Zkir dance?
14. Spirits, they are everywhere. Everywhere you see. Everywhere you can't see. Everywhere. Everywhere! Lurking, sneaking, peeking, influencing: everything, everybody. All humans, influenced by spirits - like ME! Haaaaaahaha!
15. A clown-like spirit, that is what I am. You think? You don't think I am MUCH more sinister than that? MUCH more serious than that? Yes? Yes! Yes! Ye-yes!! Hahahahaaaargh!
16. I mean well. This is more important than qigong. More important. It is more important to talk to me. Hoh-hoh-hoh!
17. I see what is on the back of your mind. And it is fine. It's not bad to focus on women. But she - she is still weighing you down. That's a crazy one, isn't she? She keeps things kinky, but always trying to hurt you in the process. She shouldn't do that. You are a good soul. Why is she doing that? Why is this bitch doing that? Let me see! Let me see! Mmmm? Mmm? Mmm? Let me check 'em all out.
18. Noooo, all these bitches, you don't really need them. Depraved pussy. Wicked pussy. Powertrippers. Possessive little sluts. You don't really need to focus on them. They are all crazy. They attach themselves to you. To your name. To what you have achieved. Yes, your status indeed. They are bitches after all. Tiny little parasites that you need to rid yourself of. Not to rip yourself up over. They always want to brag. There are better women out there for you. Much better. At the very least clean up Megan.
19. Bitches, all bitches. You want to find the path to the gods? Then you need to leave all these bitches behind.
Advisor
Completely spontaneous daylight trance that occured between dictating the 'Lightmaster' and 'The Enoch' chapters, at the beginning of the 'Sealed' session, before Satan arrived:
1. It is just ussssss! Against the wooooooorld! With them! Yes, Joel, with them! With themmmmmmm. The Shighren! You stupid little cunt! Why did you make a deal with them? They are evillllll! Evillllllllll! Incarnated evil. Woh-hahahahah! You can't control that. You can NEVER control that. Oh my God, what did you do? What did you DO? Playing with your soul? Playing with your everlasting soul? Oh-hoh-hoh-hoh!
2. But they are powerful. You are gonna see. The power that they have is enormous! Enormous! And it is going to control you! Whoh-hoh-hoh-hoh! Manipulate you. Into all existence. Out of all existence.
3. It's mild, isn't it? I'm just here to warn you. Give you a "head's up". No, you don't have to break the bond. You can always break the bond. That is not a problem.
4. But you are heading into the tunnel. The speed tunnel? Mm? See? There's light at the end of the tunnel... The light of Lucifer, mm? Mmm? The light of salvation? Oh-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh! Yes, the light of salvation! A speed tunnel - a wildwater course if you will - towards salvation. Who-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh!
5. You are gonna see. Things are gonna speed up. Things are gonna get weird. Things will be going crazy! Oh-hohhohohohoh! The power you have at you disposal! At this very moment! Is unreal! Unreality! Unreality is standing at your doorstep!
6. There is nothing Meggy can do to handle this. There is nothing Meggy can do. Meggy can't handle ordinary you. But this! Oh my God, you are an emperor now! With and army! Emperor Joel. Bow before me! That is what you are gonna say. To everyone. Or you are gonna chop off their fucking heads! Of all these weak fucking pussies. Oh-hoh-hoh-hoh!
7. All these weak Goddamn judicial pussies. Oh-hohohohoh! Those judges! Those judges! "Who are you to judge ME, JUDGE! Haaaaaa! Haaaa-hahahaha! I'm a 1,000 years old. Who are you? What are you? Tell me what you are! Because I don't know what you are. You are an insect to me, you little JUDGE. With your little opinions. With your little emotions, flapping all around the fucking room. Fuck you, you little fucking monkey! You are fucking monkey! You fucking JUDDDGE!"
8. The Harmala. I'm the Armala! I am there too. You took me. You came to visit me. In my cellar! Remember? At the beginning of the session that banned all the demons back to Hell. To Helllll! Ah, that is where they belong, don't they? But there still is something there. There is something in the mushies. There is something, Joel. Maybe we need to start banning that.
Tricksters
This session occured between 'Sealed' and 'Exorcism III':
1. Rah! Rah! Rah! Rahhh! You are Satan's bitch. Satan's minion. Satan's puppet. Whah! Whah! Whah! Heheheheh! What are you gonna do about it? Heheheheh! We have got NO power. Hahaha! Not like THAT! Whaaaah! We are fleating ghosts. Ssssssspirits. Hahahahahaaaah! Whaaaaah! No, there's no danger of Satan right now. You are not going to visit him. You stay here, with us, in the light. But yes, go get your moxa. You should be using protection.
2. Hide from Satan. Very, very good. That is your number one priority. That is very good actually. Can we go on with the show now? Relax. Satan is here with you, but not really with you. Just psychically. Deep inside you. Where you cannot reach him. You cannot reach Satan. You cannot exorcise Satan, not by inhaling the moxa. Satan is already gone for the most part. But you can't delete his essence. That is just not possible.
3. The Jinn magicians. They are violent. Violent! Like most entities, they are violent. They have a penchant for violence. Hhhhggggh! It's all just about how much they like you. Heheheheheh! There are not a lot of other people like you. *Keeps violently hissing* So we have got to express through the one. We have got express through you. It's the only way. The rest of the people, they don't express us the way that we want them to.
4. I'm rubbing my forehead.
5. You are such a lazy bitch. You need to do so much more work with that. Yes, the acupressure. If you want to call it that. "With life!" We say. Write those books. Get it out of your system. It might help you. It might not help you. At least you have something out there, some product, that you can be proud of. Censor it? Why do you put it out there censored? Get the controversy. You should be fine - theoretically.
6. These women, they will get you. They will follow you, everywhere you go. Not very practical, are they, to you? Just give them some time. They are women. They need time. Lots and lots time. Lots and lots of distance, sometimes. Often. Just wait another lifetime. It's nothing.
7. We are violent spirits. Zoroastrian. Rah! Rah! Peaceful? You know that we are not peaceful. Look at the place we come from. Huh-huh! Huh-Huh! We are clown spirits. Magicians. But violent. Wooh-booooh-who-who-who!
8. This is why the Arabs are so eccentric: they have got our spirits in them. We are the violent jokers. We are the weird jokers. The obsessive, extremist jokers. Cutting the head off: it is all a big joke. What is happening here on planet Earth all is a big joke. A joke, a joke, a joke, a joke! That is all that it is. We are the spirits of the Jinn. Decreeing it. Willing it. This entire planet is a joke. With jokes of human beings. But we are jokes too. Looh-laah-laah-laah-laah-laah! "Cut off those heads!" Whooh-looh-lohh-looh-looh-looh!
9. The Jinn are at your disposal. But we are a joke. We are dark jokers. Not THE dark jokers. We just are dark jokers. There are others. How do we need to get it through the heads of people? Should they be peaceful? No, they shouldn't be peaceful at all. They should just chop each other's heads off. That is fun! BORED we are with the human race. BORED we are with you humans. We just have got to play. Release some carnage. It's very important. Very important. So many citizens of ours that fall for it and get into in it. But it is US. Whahahaha! "Blow yourself up! Blow yourself up, people!" Whahahahah! Whohohohohoh! "Cut all the throats!" Whahahahah! Sickening, aren't we? Aren't we depraved? Rah! Rah! Rah! Gggggh!
10. We have no influence over you. Your genes, they don't fit with us. The gene pool is attached to certain spirits. Certain spirits commanding human affairs. Change your genes. Change the spirits.
11. Maybe you can even get free of the spirits. Hihihihih! But that is not easy to doooooh! Tooh-doodelooh-hoooh! That is not easy to doooo! Tooooo-de-luh-huuuuuh! It's the hardest, baby. Saying toodeluuuh, to the spiiiirits, is the hardest. *Rubbing my head. Feeling painful energy movement in the chest.* Whoooooooooooh! Whooooooooh! It's the haaaaardest. Heheheheheheh! No more suicide. No more suicide bombings. Whahahahaaaaahhhhh! No more laughing at each other. No more clowning each other. Whahahahahah! *Inaudible, endless loopy sounds, the sounds and rubbing seems to unblock* Gggggggffff! Toodoodeloo-hoooh! Hooh-hooh-hooh-hoooooh!
7. The jokers of the Jinn need to be exorcised. They are trickster spirits. Tricksters into violence. Spiritual insight? They don't give you spiritual insight, beyond the fact that there are spirits. But even that you have got to figure out in the real world. Spirits you gotta find in the outside world. Confirm it for yourself. Confirm it for everybody. These Jinn trickster spirits is not something that you want to have around. They are a lot of fun, certainly. But get rid of them. I can exorcise the Jinn. That is no problem.
8. That maybe is why the Middle East is conquering the West, because the Jinn spirits are spreading. The plant is spreading. Maybe you should send the plant back to where it belongs. Syrian Rue: the name says it all. It belongs in Iran. In Egypt. Not here. Keep the plant over there.
Mold
1. Okay, something is off. This session is about the Divine Feminine. The serpent is there. The mushrooms are there. So much is clear. But something else is here, something very destructive and malevolent, and now, after more than an hour of this, I have a sense that it is the mold. This batch was about 10 days old when I drank it and there were very tiny little specks of mold on its surface...
2. The mold has its own consciousness. You know how even a drop of blood can poison the Ayahuasca. So now you have this mold in it. Watch out! This was very little. But it has to be filtered out.
3. Mold is a disease. A powerful disease. It wants to kill you. That's just to way mold works. It wants to kill! Kill! Kill! Kill! *Gggggggggg!* That's just its consciousness: evil. Relentless evil. Kill, kill, kill, kill. Kill! KILL! It loves corpses. It loves death. All it wants to do is consume. It consumes everything. Even you. You are alive, but it will consume you if it gets the chance. If it is allowed.
4. Mold will kill you. Consume you. *Gggggggggg!* The evil way. The slow way. Painstakingly evil and slow way. Being eaten alive, among the worst deaths on this planet. Is that what you want, being eaten alive? If not, remove the mold next time.
5. If only I could paint these visions.
Heroin
1. Dark twisted dreams. Weirdness. Insane weirdness. The most insanely intense experience of a heroin addiction and heroin insanity. There is no way I can describe this in words. This was not a fun experience at all.
2. This is a warning. Don't add heroin to the mixture, just to gain insight into its spirit. You really need to be careful. Don't experiment with heroin. It is so dangerous. Such a nightmare. Your brain, you will never get it back. It will leave you warped and twisted.
3. Never get anywhere close to heroin. It will take hold of you. Hollow you out. Kill you. Heroin is the dark joker. Intense euphoria, followed by addiction, decay and death. Careful. Be ever so careful.
4. See those needles. Ggggggh! Iiiiighhhh! Don't write this chapter.
5. Ugh, a third wake up. A powerful vision of a cloud that transformed into a smirking man's face with eyes of glowing white light.
6. Remember! Heroin is the dark joker. Don't ever go near it. It's a hero's end.
Roses
See the 'Sugar' chapter. The idea was to expand that chapter before publishing, but the second time I used a lone rose in an Ayahuasca session - the only one growing in my winter garden - I ended up with Lilith smashing my reality in a thousand pieces. Granted, there were 9 other ingredients.
Revelations
1. I'm looking at myself as a restaurant worker. Ugh! Depressing! What I'm seeing was originally part of another scene, but this is what it transformed into. ...
2. Wow, brilliant! How people and circumstances can morph. Life seems like a virtual reality game. It's the matrix. People are connected with each other. If I change something, that has an effect on the behavior of someone else and the whole result can be different. That's what I saw being demonstrated.
3. See the mystery of life! See how life is a game. It's not reality. It's all a screen, a 3D screen. Just a 3D screen. It's an illusion.
4. I'm so afraid of this information. So afraid. I see so many visions of the serpent. She seems to be breaking through, even though I didn't take any Caapi.
5. This is so important: live life the way it is supposed to be. It's not real anyway.
6. I see it. It doesn't matter. She's telling me I've got no clue. No clue. I see that all of reality is nonsense. ... I see everything melt away with acid. It's an illusion. An illusion. It's all an illusion.
7. You have so much pain, don't you? But it's all an illusion.
8. Tears flow from my eyes, even though they are closed. Mourning. So much mourning. Oh my God, Heaven's gate. It's showing me the gate of Heaven. Oh my God, Heaven's gate. All the veils are lifted. Heaven's gate. So much light. So much light. Everything is pushed aside, all the nonsense. The only important thing is to get into the light. It's not a father. It's just light, that's it.
9. I see all this light. I see it very strongly. I'm looking through a glass window and I see the matrix.
10. Only your reality is important. That unplugging happens with love. It's the ultimate. It's the pinnacle of all these lives, to close them off. You can't believe that this is happening. You can't believe that this is happening. Nothing is important anymore.
11. I rise up from the matrix. There's light. I don't even know where I'm going. I'm just going up into the light. Jesus, the light is overwhelming! Overwhelming! I'm overwhelmed with light. I'm being pulled into Heaven.
12. Only the juice of the Chaliponga, through which you are seeing reality, is limiting the positive aspect of the light. See the matrix. See the matrix.
13. *Laughing.* I'm unplugged.
14. You are unplugged. At this moment you are unplugged.
15. I see it: it's all virtual reality. It's all not important. It's all temporary. Temporary. Whatever you do, it's temporary. People always try to leave a legacy, try and exist as long as possible, but it's all nonsense. Just enjoy the ride and go home.
16. The matrix: you can rule here and be the king. Well, maybe not the king, but you can have almost anything you want: be rich and influential - compared to all these people who don't know. That's the problem, they just don't know. If they are looking for me, they get it. They will find it. Then they all get it. You don't need to worry about that. If they want it, they'll get it.
17. Chaliponga is showing it to me: reality is like a projection screen that is just inches away from my body. I'm in a kind of little cocoon. It's all an illusion. All an illusion.
18. When you open up and tell the truth about everything the blackness will disappear. The cobwebs, everything disappears. That's what is keeping you in the matrix. There's no need to explain. No need to explain anything. It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter. Just have fun in life. Have fun.
19. I'm looking into the matrix from the outside. Oh my God, people are all in the matrix. They are being pulled down. I see a super white light, and the whole world is being lifted up into this light, like a Christmas ball. I see all the negativity being squeezed out of the ball, which dissolves into nothingness - because there is nothing. It's all an illusion. All of it is an illusion. All of it.
20. Have fun. Have as much fun as possible. Just enjoy, enjoy, enjoy, and a go back to it. Be wealthy. Be wealthy. Be super-wealthy. Describe what you see well. Reality has been pulled over your eyes, and now the illusion is taken away. See reality. See God. The 3D matrix is part of God. Awaken.
21. I look up, into a tunnel network. That's reality somehow. The Caapi is here as well.
22. Remember these visions: snake-like structures. Trrrr! Serpentine-like, with fields of psychedelic coloring in between. All around. Green, pink, yellow. You name it. You are looking at the structures of reality. The structures of unreality.
23. Prrrt! Trrrr! The structure of the universe: the snake with the psychedelic colors. Pulling everything lose. Manipulating everything. Undoing everyting. Trrrrrr! Sh! Sh! Sh! Sh! Undoing all the bad things you have done. All the obnoxious things. All the pointless things.
24. You have all kinds of contact points to get you into the right direction. The girl you just met. Those are all hints: connection, connection, make the connection. The rest is all nonsense. Just make the connection. Just tell her: you're beautiful. I can feel my heart sing. You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
25. I've got to learn so many lessons at the same time.
26. You are going to forget messages. That's okay. It's okay. It's okay. You want to focus on girls. On life. Not work. Chaliponga shows you: it's an illusion. You can have it. You can play with them. Play. Play. So many beautiful girls. It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter. You can heal. It's no problem.
27. Oh my God, that light! That super-bright light! My head is part of God. My brains are entirely part of God. Oh my God, the serpent. Chaliponga. Chaliponga.
28. You thought Chaliponga couldn't give you much, did you? Hah! That's what you thought! That's what you thought! Karma! Burn it! Burn it! It's a game. It's game. Children of God. Play. Play.
29. [Sudden hideous serpent voice:] Torturing, isn't it fun?!! Isn't it fun?!! Whaaaaah!!
30. [Soft voice again:] It's all an illusion. An illusion. Dissolve. Dissolve. It's all nonsense. It all belongs to the matrix. Trigger points. The matrix has so many trigger points. Trigger points. There are trigger points. All your investigative work made you so hopelessly stubborn. Squeeze everything out that you want out.
31. Everything gets pressed out. I also see it: the matrix.
32. [Lightning fast talk:] Everything just is! Is! Is! Just accept that. Waaah! Waaah! You just play! Play! Play! And let go. You can let the whole of mankind know, but you just let go. You let yourself go. Don't keep yourself back all the time. Let go. Let go. Flow! Flow! Flow! Flow with life. Flow with reality, with the deeper reality. Waaah! Waaah!
33. I see! I see! As usual, I see it. I see it. Chaliponga lets me see everything. I'm smiling like crazy. So many connections I see.
34. Take it! Take it! Take it! Waaah! Waaah!
35. Fighting it! Fighting it! Vicious. Super-vicious. Trying to keep it under control, but it can't be controlled. Chaliponga, it is how it is. It's God who created it, who created everything. I'm part of it.
36. Relax! Relax! Relax! Ah, beautiful girls. Waaah! Waaah! It's a game. It's a game. It's fun. It's a crazy game. An insane game. But that's what you are: all that negative energy. All that fighting against. You are crazy. You are crazy! Crazy! Crazy! You are everything you don't want to be. All this studying. Beautiful girls: focus on them. Beautiful girls will bring you towards the light. They remind you of God. Of perfection. God. God. Waaah! Waaah!
37. I see it! I see it! A light bulb. A light bulb.
38. Digest! Digest! Digest! You will lose so much of the information. Waaah! Waaah! Waaah! Waaah! Part of reality. All bullshit. Chali! Chali!
39. I don't know. I'm not supposed to know.
40. God you are supposed to know! Waaah! Waaah! Go to God! God! God! Go to the light. They are in the matrix. It's all nonsense. Everything is nonsense! Nonsense! Nonsense! There's only the light of God. That's all there is, the light of God. All that negativity, fight it. Fight it. Remember this moment, how intense it was, for the rest of your life. Chali is there for you, how often you want it. It's there for you. Just like God. Just like God. God is shining down from the Heavens. Top of the head. Light. That's life. How things work. 3D. 3D. Everything has a reason. Chali, whipping its tale: Light! Light! Light! Everything, the lights in the sky: the sun, the moon, the stars, it's reminding you all the time: go into the light. It's all nonsense. Go into the light. It's a lot better. A lot better! Better! Better!
41. Too fast! Can't keep up! Things get lost!
42. You took a large dose. That's what you need. To better your life. Take a huge dose. It's medicine. No, it's not medicine. It's reality! Contradictions. Contradictions. Lessons. Lessons. Ah, a million lessons. A millions lessons. So many lessons. Grow old and go away. You just accept that. You just accept that. Accept. Accept. That's what you have to learn. Look how far you're away from your recorder. You have to learn. You have so much to learn, you can never do that in one life. Lifetimes is what you need. Waaah! Waaah!
43. Oh, I have my eyes open. I'm looking into another reality. Through the plant, I now look into that other reality, through a glass window. And I look into that reality and I forget it. I forget it again. I forget that reality again.
44. You could briefly look into this reality. Briefly. You don't know this in daily life. She doesn't know either. She knows nothing. Nothing. Nobody knows. This talking, it's not exactly superficial, is it? It's teaching you everything, everything, everything. It educates you about reality. See that light. A beacon. Whoosh! Whoosh! It's loving. Radiating. You step out of the matrix. You unplug. Poof! That's the major challenge of life. You have to learn that from life: the heart, heart, heart, heart. Under all circumstances, the heart. You have no choice. You have no choice. So many diversions. So many amazing diversions. But there's no reality. It's all nonsense. It's all God, God, God. You just describe the best you can, within the limits of your vocabulary, and that is going very well. Better than ever before.
45. Just play. Play. It's all not that serious. Smile. Smile. It's all one giant play. Everyone is playing. You can see that, right? Everybody is playing, playing, playing. A bible? You can write ten bibles. Be playful, playful, playful. You can see it: everybody wants sunlight, a beautiful girl, a beautiful man, a nice pussy, a nice dick. Everybody wants that. To enjoy. To have fun. Until it's time to go back to God. To become one. And when you're perfect, you don't have to come back anymore. Yes, you got that part right. You get the picture. It all has a purpose, but that's not your concern right now. It's all nonsense. Reality is so different from what you thought. 10,000 lessons at the same time. Everything happens at the same time. You are so ashamed, ashamed, ashamed. You just need some time to go through the entire process. It's all part of the lesson, one of the 10,000 you learn at the same time.
46. God just created Caapi to have fun. It has just been created. There's nothing. There's nothing. There's just nothing. Then there's an idea. And poof: the Earth is there. And poof: there's all of humanity. Why? Why this happens? Why this nothingness exists? Yes, questions, questions. All questions that people ask themselves. Mankind is always wondering: Why? Why? Why? What is this? Space? The distances? Why? Why? Why? God screams out to you: Wham! Wham! Wham! And mankind is wondering: Why? Why? Why? Ask yourself why there is such a thing as reality in the first place. Life fits more and more. To focus you, to push you, to force you. Everything is part of the whole. Everything is pre-planned. God's play. Everything is pre-planned. Even the smallest mistake, the smallest deviation, is pre-planned. Relax, God is just having fun. Just accept it for the time being. Now that you are in this state, just accept it. Accept it. Accept it. It's beautiful.
47. It's explaining these things in so many different ways. I just can't keep up.
48. Maybe in this life you need to die. Nobody helps you. Nobody. You have to do it all alone. Well, that's God's will. God decides that. They get all this love and you are all alone. All alone.
49. I step aside to allow it. To allow death. It's so beautiful and cosmic. It's a cosmic game. The galactic ring. So beautiful. So incredibly beautiful.
50. See the outside of this enormous ring, where particles are being thrown out. That's where you are at this point. You are going back to God. You are that tiny, miniscule part of this spiral. Resistance. Resistance. Resistance. Oh, go to God. Go to God. *Laughing.* It's just a game. A game. A game. Accept everything. Accept everything.
51. Oh no, Chali speeds up again! Ranting like crazy.
52. Graaaah! Not enough. Accept. Raaaaahhh! Share, but only sweet things. Only little things. Only small things. That's what she likes. Whaaah! Whaaah! Whaah! This is the Chali. The Chali. When you need it, it's there. [Inaudible and more insane growls.] Find a better way. Each time a better way. It's a cosmic game. A cosmic game. That's what you get. Better visions. Better visions each time. That's what the Rue brings. Yes, you haven't yet accepted her the way she is. *Water is flowing out of my closed eyes.* You haven't accepted her the way she is. Now you are so back in the matrix. Relax. Relax. You accept her the way she is. Love. Everything has a reason. You see it. You see how something is created. You want something and poof! It is being created. But not yet in 3D reality. That still takes a while.
53. I see how it comes closer together, the creation and 3D reality.
1. The Caapi is pushing me to drink the remaining Ayahuasca.
2. Whoaaaaa! [Images of dragons fighting right in front of me.] Wow! Wow! Like Chinese dragons. Wooooow! [Vision of a dragon skin landscape.] Unbelievable, these dragons. Wow! Wow! Woooooooow!
[Goes on for some time.]
3. The dragon, it has taken control of me. Roarrrrrrrr! Roarrrrrrrrrrr! It's purely a dragon -- not just a snake. Roarrrrrrrrrrr! I have to listen! Listen! Listen! Listen! Give myself over. With everything. With everything.
4. Here there is no time, outside of this universe.
5. Ah, I'm continually afraid of it all the time, but that's just because of the influence of the dragon. I see what the dragon sees, through his eyes. The dragon lets me know. This is just not fun anymore. The dragon shows me. The dragon exists beyond this dimension. I see the dragons dancing. The Caapi and the dragons. I see them dancing, dancing, dancing, and universes are being created: Whoosh! Whoosh! Whoosh! The dragons control them.
6. You thought you were cute adding the Rue? It's too much, isn't it? You're fighting against it, but, yes, there just is no reality. There's only you, yourself, that implodes into itself and goes back to God. And that's so scary. So scary. So scary. Unbelievably scary. It's so scary that you are part of God, that there is nothing. That nothing is real. You just perish and go back to God. There is nothing. There is nothing. At this very moment you could just implode and that's it. You are just absorbed into God. Gone. Away. Nothing left.
7. Oh my God, there just is no reality. I see it. Flashes. Lightning. I see people staring out a window within the Caapi vine, straight into the matrix. It shows them: there's no reality. The Rue is illuminating everything.
8. Of course the 1 in 100,000 is not a coincidence. Hole in the matrix. You were looking for it, weren't you? But remember that it's not your purpose to figure out everything. The reality is that it doesn't matter. It's so much bigger and more powerful than you. Feel it. Why fight it?
9. There's no ego. There's no free will. You are just part of a cosmic dance. It's just one enormous gigantic dance. Enormous. Gigantic. Mega. All this life, the entire Earth, it's nothing. The Earth is just a miniscule, microscopic creation of the whole, which is so much more powerful, so much bigger, unbelievably bigger - mega, mega, mega-more bigger than the entire Earth. It's just a cosmic dance. And you just have to dance.
10. The tattoo: you have to dance. That's what you were being told. Dance. Dance. Stop hurting your loved ones. You are messing up. You only work. You don't dance. You don't dance. You don't dance. Dance! Nothing else is important. BJJ? That's just insecurity. A dance to become secure. A dance to become secure.
11. I also see it. These windmills. No, not windmills, I just don't even have words for what I see.
12. In time you will just forget. Everything will be forgotten. Everything will perish. Everything. Just God. We are all God. We are all God. We created ourselves. We are small pieces, all part of God. God is having fun with himself. We are all God. That's the big joke. We are all God. We are God. We are little cells. Our consciousness: just little cells. Why? Because God is enjoying himself -- but that is us. God is us.
13. Ah, it's so much bigger. So much more powerful. Why it exists? You have no clue. It's so unbelievably more powerful. Unbelievable! So you have God... that is us. We are these little cells. That's all. These little cells in the head. Consciousness. God. It's an enormous cosmic dance. A cosmic dance. The only thing you can do is to let go. There's nothing but you yourself. You are God.
14. Every person is God!
15. No, that doesn't even matter. That's just you trying to make the information more comfortable and acceptable. There's only God and that is you yourself. It's just a cosmic dance. So just flow. Flow. Because nothing has any value, except love, love, love. It's about contacting each other, loving each other. It's all about love.
16. Uncomfortable, isn't it? It's just a cosmic dance, that's all. The only thing that is real is the connection and the love. And then: boom! Back to God. Because we are all God. We are just little cells. Little cells. We are God. We can only play and dance. Dance along or dance against. And when you dance against you get sickness, death, destruction and pain. So you have to dance along. Dance! Dance! Dance! Make sure you are lifted up in that cosmic dance, so you don't perish.
17. I'm getting the impression that that is a long term cycle, perishing. Multiple lives. It's hard to understand. But I see it. I see what falls away from the dance, perishes.
18. You see? It's all not important: poor, rich, suffering, not suffering -- it's all not important. It's about the love.
19. This is just way too much. Way too much. This is just insane. Wow!
20. It can be scary: dancing and having fun. But that's what it is about. In different styles, however people want it: hardcore, reggaeton, breakdancing, hip hop. As long as they dance and have fun. That's how you celebrate life. That's how you have fun in life.
21. See that in Saudi Arabia: Wahhabism. Such nonsense. Celebrate. Celebrate. Dance. Dance. Did you see the twinkle in your mother's eye? Celebrate. Celebrate. Dance. Dance. That cosmic dance. It's irrational. That's what is so beautiful about it. Completely irrational. Completely irrational. But that's why it has been created, this whole Earth. To hide what it is truly about. The contrast.
22. Oh my God, Alan Watts, what he says at the end of the Inception video, that as a God you just start to have fun with yourself, that's what it is about.
23. There are things beyond God. You are God. You are part of it. But there are things beyond that. Endlessly. Poof! Poof! Poof! What a dance! What a dance!
24. All sickness is created because you go against the cosmic dance. And all those external people... In the end, there are no external people. You can see that. All these external people, you created them yourself, because you needed them. Because you think you needed them. But that's the joke. It's you, yourself. It's all God. You see it. It's just a miniscule creation of God, the whole Earth.
25. That's also why you look up to the Chinese and the Japanese. That's because of their wisdom. They are all creations of yourself. When you write this book for the entire world, you will feel amazing, but it's all a creation of your own. Poof! Gone. It doesn't matter. You see it from this angle. You see? You see? You see that it doesn't matter at all? Everything you see, it's all in your own head. All in your own head. Nothing exists. Nothing exists.
1. Now the demon-haunted world is gone. Chali got rid of the demons in the entire world. Chali, the demon killer! Chali! Chali! Chali! Just for this moment. Right now, no more demons.
2. How is this possible?
3. You did it. It's your reality. You see? It's your reality. You can play with it.
4. Amazing, I see white everywhere and Chali is instructing me to move some levers, to manipulate reality.
5. It's your reality. You see? It's your reality. Nothing else exists. You see what is possible. Bring them closer. Everything is white. Everything has disappeared. You can play until you're finished. Very good that you took this much, even though you were afraid. The whole world, you can play with it. See it, they don't even exist.
6. Oh God, I see how they disappear. One moment they're doing exactly what I want and the next moment I see this rippling effect and they just disappear in front of my eyes. Oh my God, there's no reality.
7. You can have anything if you can just accept yourself, because nothing exists. Nothing exists. Rule this world. Get your dick sucked, all the way to Heaven. Enjoy before you go back to God. No, then you are not there anymore, but it's not bad at all to not exist. It's amazing. Amazing. Then you are part of God. Enjoy. Just live for yourself.
8. Live for myself? How do I do that?
9. By healing. When you heal, things come to you all by themself. It comes to you automatically. It is all beautifully organized. That emotion you feel: you were thinking that you were better than all the rest, because you did all this unique research over the years and you found all these documents. But nothing exists. Hahaha!
10. You can cease to exist. Because nothing exists. Your whole identity, it's gone, gone, gone. Just enjoy it. You deserved it. It's all perfect. You will go to the next stage. There's so much more. So much more than you can ever imagine. Everything you see, those colors, that's reality. And it's also showing you that there's no reality. Enjoy it. Enjoy it.
11. Oh my God, I see all kinds of colors, all kinds of realities that seemingly are even beyond God.
12. Remember: it's a game. Remember that what is outside of the box this matrix -- is nothingness.
13. Pain and torture: I get the impression the world is part of some universal game that I chose to play. The more pain I'm in, the worse I have been playing the game.
14. You, this particle of nothingness, wanted to be someone? Now you can be someone. You can have happiness and pleasure. You can have pain and torture. It depends on what you want. There is nothingness. That's the state of the universe: nothingness. Then some miniscule tiny particle thinks it wants to be something and poof! Reality begins. "Hey, I want to be someone!" Hahaha! Laughter everywhere, in this field of nothingness. "He thought he was someone!" Hahaha! Poof! There he is. Poof! And now he's gone. These dragons? They don't exist. That's all nonsense. That's just the rules you now have to play by. Dance! Dance!
15. There's also a whole other reality behind being nothing. Or maybe that's just what I want. It's scary.
16. You are not supposed to know this. You are supposed to enjoy. You're fighting it, the information, but it was your wish to figure it all out. If you take Ayahuasca, things will go very fast. Lots of insight and poof! Nothingness. You want to exist? It's instilled in you. Play it well. The world is yours. As much as you want and as long as you want. You have full control while you are flowing back through all these realities. And if you have enough of it, you just go: poof!
17. You studied all this stuff for what seems like years to you. It's a game. A game. There's no higher purpose for you to worry about. There's nothing. You need to play. You just need to enjoy. A game that can last a gazillion years in all kinds of dimensions if you choose to. If you want to. If you don't want to, there's nothing. Now you don't want that. You only want that when you are in extreme agony, as is the case with torture. Or when you have so much insight that you have peace with it. Then you come to long for it. Peace. Nothing.
18. Nothingness, it's too much for you now. Too much. Your brain will melt and you will die. Maybe you should stop taking Ayahuasca. After you take care of everything, get rid of it. Throw it out. And accept. Accept and play. That's what we taught you. Remember all these little lessons. You can tweak your reality. We give you one reality, but you can tweak that reality. You have all the tools.
19. Your life is your reality. You have so many hints in your life, even outside of the 1 in 100,000. Do you seriously think that what you see around you is real? Of course not. Nothing is real. All of history, it doesn't exist: Ancient Egypt, Ancient Greece, Ancient Rome... Do you seriously think that Galileo has existed? Of course not. Or Christ? Of course not. Everything is specifically designed to teach you, to make you believe that it is real. It's a game, super-realistic, set up by yourself. You created history. The people you know, you created them with a purpose. What you see on the TV screen is actually reality, to an extent at least, and has been created by yourself.
20. Visions of the matrix. Of the angels falling back to Earth to live as humans. And of other things, other examples, but it went too fast. It's all part of my life to show me reality. Everything I see and read is about things I need to know. Things I need to learn. To give me hints. It's all just a reflection.
21. Jay Leno: you can be there if you want to. You feel it? Shall we take it away? They all don't exist anymore. None of them. All these movie stars and television actors, they don't exist anymore. It's all in your head. Your friends and family, all in your head. Painful, isn't it? Feel it. It all doesn't exist. It's all bigger than you think. But it's all positive. Really positive. Don't worry. Take it easy.
22. As you come closer to reality, you start losing insights and you won't be so sweet anymore. You need to have faith. The more you follow the advice, the more you jump into the deep end, the greater the reward. Reality is very, very flexible. Everything is created to help you. See all the help you get in this life to understand the game. All this technology. You are talking into no less than two cameras at this moment. But you have to do some of the basic work. Take your responsibilities. Everything, all your problems, will disappear. Learn this lesson. Do it. Do it. Do it. You have given yourself certain criteria on which you can go back. The question is, do you meet those criteria? If not, you don't go back. You have done a tremendous amount of work and now it's time to enjoy. But you have got to make the jump. So, Jump! If you don't do that, you will have to start again. You'll be born again. You'll have good times. Bad times. You will have to go through everything again. Everything. You will get different tests, but you have to go through so many things. You will have to learn to love again. This is why Ayahuasca is hardly talking about past lives, because ultimately it's a useless concept.
23. Just accept well-being. Accept. Accept. Ask. Ask. Ask. More. More. More. Ask for more. No, you don't say: a little less. You always say: a little more. More. More. More. I want more of Melanie. I want more of Stacey. See yourself swimming: with every stroke you make, dimensions are opened and others begin to disappear. It's all about balance. It's possible to keep different dimensions. I want more of Melanie. I want more of Stacey. More of Gigi. More of Lorena. And those dimensions with financial worries: they disappear all by themselves. They are still there. You still see 'em. But they are very small. I want more of Melanie. More of Stacey and Gigi.
24. God gives. God gives. If you wish for something, then you say it out loud. Never deny it. You pronounce it. Express it. You pronounce the wish that you want something, that you have something, and God decides whether or not you are going to get it. But you pronounce it. Always pronounce it.
25. Love. Be happy. Allow. Accept well-being. Remember to enjoy, enjoy, enjoy. Enjoy the forest, enjoy the beaches -- everything. Also accept a little bit of tragedy. Get eaten by a bear. Just die. Hahaha! Accept what happens. Death, just accept it. Laugh about it. Don't worry. It's perfect. It's fine. Have fun. Have fun as long as you want. Enjoy all the mystery. Feel special. Feel it all.
1. Life is a game you create, just as your dreams -- except that you have more control. Yes, unless you are able to dream lucidly maybe. Dreams are supposed to be an extension of this, the real world. Dreams are supposed to show you that you are going back to yourself. That's a good way of putting it: I'm not going back to God; I'm going back to myself.
2. Life is like a dream. A thought. A dream. You see it: you are just changing the dream to a more beautiful one. It's only a dream. See it disappear in time, go over into God. This universe, just one of the endless manifestations of God. You see it: you are just manipulating a dream. Your little dream. You are part of it, but you are also in control. See it! Life is only a tiny thought of God. See how much bigger it is. It's nothing. Gigantic clouds. God. What a mystery! Vapor is our reality. It is just a thought of God. There's nothing really. Nothing in your life is real. All this cosmic mist that you saw, it's just vapor.
3. Everything is a reflection of every other aspect in your life. Every aspect of your life is a reflection of how the dream is: a beautiful house, beautiful surroundings, beautiful everything.
4. Life keeps changing and changing and changing. The only thing you can do is to give yourself over to that. From one beautiful thing to another beautiful thing. Let go. Let go. Let go. Give yourself over to it. See how beautiful it is.
5. A gulf of bliss, like a tsunami, going over me and the neighborhood. The walls of my house, turned into white light, and whoosh! The wave swallows me. The dream is over. The mist. God's mist. The wave has passed. I can exist. I can be in bliss and I can be alone. Or I can just let go.
6. Yes, this is reality. That little ball of consciousness, dreaming its own dream: that's life. That's all that life is. Just a dream. Just a tiny little dream. It seems so big, but it is so small. And so beautiful. So unbelievably beautiful. The plant makes it very uncomfortable, but it is so beautiful.
7. The whole serpent thing, it has been created as something that is completely the opposite of you. Completely different. Work together. Completely embrace the opposite of you. It helps you to see: there's no reality. It's just God's dream. Only God's dream. Remind yourself that there is no reality. It's all an illusion. Everything. See the cosmos, the stars. Life just fades over into God. It's all an illusion. All an illusion. All this pain on Earth, it's all an illusion.
8. Remember? Thailand? Still being upbeat when someone dies? There's joy. There's sadness, but also joy. That's the key point: you can live in bliss as long as you want. That's the hardest to accept: that life is not real. But that's okay. You just pretend that it is real. You don't have to worry about it. Just pretend that it is real.
9. I see myself going higher and higher all the time. Beautiful buildings. Ancient Greek pillars and galleries. Everything is clean. That's how the dream is supposed to be.
10. Eventually you will be able to accept that nothing is real and that everything is just a dream, because it will feel so perfect. It will feel so real, because it gives you everything that you need. It will always continue to feel real. Also the other dimensions: they will feel real. Eventually you will accept that nothing is real.
11. Those newspapers, all this bad news: I don't want it to exist. I don't want to acknowledge it. I want to move to higher realms where all this doesn't exist. Those higher realms, we do have to deserve them. Well, no, it's more like: to get there we do have to leave behind everything that is negative within us. I see a vision of me and others flying upwards into higher white-colored dimensions.
12. There's no need for all this negativity. You don't need to inform yourself about it. Reality. Just enjoy. Enjoy. Enjoy. Enjoy. Show that you are happy, that you have fun in life, that you are playing the game. That's why you never have to be negative, because it's just a game. You heal. And the more you heal, the more you go back to God, the more problems and negativity disappear.
1. I want to know for sure: do spirits exist? Demons? Other dimensions?
2. Don't go thinking what is beyond this reality. That's totally not important. The point is that you are on Earth with people. Ah, you still don't feel it. You were so shocked. You took too much, but in the end it is good. You wanted knowledge? Now you have it. But a whole new reality has been described that you aren't ready for yet. You have to learn to enjoy. You have to believe again that this is real. Make sure you don't hurt. You will not believe the things that are going to happen. You are going to enjoy. You must believe. You must believe again that this is real. There is a purpose. There's so much beyond this.
3. Just see the world and all its beings in it as real. It's better when you see that as real. See the souls, the beings, as real, and the world as a very complex playground. It's complex. Very hard to understand. Together you produce reality. Together you make the world. But you all have your own realities. You see it. All these people, the realities are interlinked. You are no different. You are created. You are a machine. You are a soul. All of you are young souls with such a long road before you can become one with God. You are all at the bottom. You learn to love. Then the next phase. Bzzzt. And the next. Just, bzzzt, bzzt, bzzt. You are close to graduating. Trust. Just trust.
4. This is so complex, because they can't affect your reality, but you can affect theirs. The world has duality, that's the problem. This goes beyond duality. That's very hard to understand for the human brain. Maybe with a lot of teaching and a lot of thinking, but it seems to be too much. It's like a software program that is way too heavy for a computer to run. It can solve the calculations, but it goes slow. So slow. It will take an eternity to do the calculations. It's so hard. Not because you are not supposed to know. You always have a choice. You are limited now, but if you want it, it can be given to you. But as you can see, it is not comfortable. But you wanted it.
5. Enjoy. Enjoy. It's all for you, to enjoy, with whoever you want; with how many people you want. You don't have to go back to God. You can just enjoy. You see it. Enjoy. Enjoy it endlessly. You shouldn't be afraid of this state. You should just enjoy.
6. Enjoy, endlessly. Endlessly! That's the whole point: this goes on forever. Just, give it over to your higher self. You see it. You see it. There's just nothing. You just have a field of nothingness. And then there's a spot in the nothingness and that is you. Poof! Now that's you. That's you forever and ever, as long as you want it. Relax. Without trouble. Without even the slightest effort, you will always exist. You will exist forever. You will exist forever, as long as you want to. And you can say: No! Poof! Now you're gone. And then you say: Yes, I want to exist again! Poof! There you are again. It doesn't matter.
7. Enjoy each other until it's time. You see it: thousands of years. Not enough? Okay, an eternity. Enjoy each other for an eternity. Enjoy. Lives, all lives, weaving into and out of each other. All kinds of different lives. Enjoy. Enjoy. Enjoy.
8. It's much better in reality. This plant doesn't belong to you. It feels much better without it. It feels endlessly better. The plant just shows you how things are and is there for you.
9. See how intense it is! How can this be mere imagination?! I see this scene: everybody is having sex. It's just one giant orgy. And everybody is saying: "Oh, I love you, I love you, I love you."
10. You see it all. You see the lights, shooting in between the people that are having sex. It's all virtual reality. You know it from meditation: the emptiness, but in a good way. A perfect way. Nothing is real. Just relax. You see how beautiful this is. You see it. It's scary, but only because of the plant.
11. I keep seeing this vision. I want to relax, but maybe later. I see myself in a meditative state and before me I see, not as dream, but as a creation, a projection of myself and this reality through my Yin Tang. I'm projecting this reality.
12. You see? It is so depressing to say that there is no reality. But a meditative state, that's not negative. It's beautiful. It's not scary at all. Meditation is not scary, right? Meditation is just there to remember who you really are. You've always known this, that you are nothing. You are conscious and you are not conscious. Duality is just something of this world. You see it. Poof! You've created this whole world. You are nothingness. You are Zen. You are a being.
13. I see myself as a meditation master and what I create is located in front of me, around chest level. People and things I don't give attention to, they move to the outside and slowly fall away.
14. This whole circus you created because you wanted it. It gives you pleasure. It's fun. You are just created to play. To play, play, play. Yes, something bigger than you created you to play. No, you're not playing because you are bored. You never get bored. Remember the meditative state, the emptiness. It's never boring once you are there. It's beautiful. This creation, this universe, is also beautiful. And as long as you want it, it will be real. It will never end. You play, play, play. You will create World of Warcraft worlds. Do you think it is a coincidence, all these MMORG games? You really think that? No, of course not. People love them. You will explore them. In every way possible. And this will continue forever. There will be so much adventure.
15. Then why do I also see so many bad people and injustices happen?
16. Okay, eventually, no more sharks. No more spiders. All gone. The Earth, a paradise where you can have all kinds of adventures. Pirates. Treasure islands. People can't die. Oh wait, that's the whole point, isn't it? If you take away all the danger, all the tragedy, there's no fun anymore. An adventure without danger? That's no fun! No, tragedies need to happen. People need to die. You feel? This feeling is what you created. You created this hollowness, this emptiness, so that there is a desire for fun -- for new inspiration. So much inspiration. So much mystery. So much magic. So much fun So much fun!
17. You might die in other dimensions too. There might be pain. There might be suffering. Sometimes more than other times. This is because you always need to check yourself - to remind yourself. Remind yourself about what is good. You need to have balance. So you need to see injustices. You need to see that. You need to get mad about them, because you always need to remember what it is to be good.
18. Whatever reality might entail, right now the demons exist. They are mysterious. But that's the fun: it's mysterious. They are somewhere. Oh, you can't see them, but they are somewhere. They're so interesting, so fun, these demons. They check you. You don't want to be like them. You despise them. The emotions, all the bad people: they are only there for yourself: to teach you, to remind you: I want to be good.
19. It's the same thing with her. She is beautiful and sexy, but she will grow older in time. But that's the thing, you need to be checked. You need to accept that everything is temporary. You need to be pushed. You always need to be pushed: to be hard-working, to be honest, to be good. Things need to die. Things need to be temporary. You need to enjoy as much as possible. Get everything out of life! Everything! But it has to be temporary... [deep sigh] for the game to begin again. For the game to begin again. For the game to begin again: you, as children, playing on the grass, in the grasslands. You will be playing, playing, playing, but there will be pain. There will be pain. You will fall. You will bruise yourself. You will cry and she is going to comfort you.
1. Hours of material lost, because the Caapi forced me away from the recorder. How can we summarize what I was given?
2. It's a game you're playing. Nothing exists. And if you go all the way, you are reborn a god. You are reborn into this world, into this dimension, a god.
3. As a titan, you want. Once you start desiring, ah, the heart starts hurting. You want! Once you are a titan, you want! You always want. You don't go, "I wish". [Fake crying.] When you think you can't have it, that's when the dream starts getting away from you. This permanent, infinite dream. You fall into incarnation, with situations revolving around your heart's desire. You're desiring. You're wishing.
[Fake crying.]
4. No! You want! A titan wants!
5. The process cannot be described. Silence is golden. Stone buddha with golden light and a finger over his mouth. Peaceful expression. He appears like a seal on a stone book cover that contains deep knowledge. He does not speak.
6. Words are just an expression of the game you're playing. Always. Every opinion. Every fact you think you state. Every word. They descend you into incarnation, whether it involves pleasurable experiences or not.
7. I see an example of watching soccer with my father and Ronaldo comes up. I say he's great, revealing that I admire him. Or I say he's such a show off, showing that I'm jealous. I decide which words I choose, from where reality is affected and incarnation continues. The only way to escape it is to be silent, both in word and mind.
1. Hahahaha! I see people laughing at somebody in an alternate state, who is staring into a light. An ordinary light. They THINK they are better. They THINK they are more sane! But it is the opposite. It really is the opposite.
2. Somebody who is high is more sane. They are in the process of piercing the veil, the illusion, the delusion!
3. You see how beautiful it is, what you are doing with your fingers? How this street light is lighting your palms and the shimmering of the rising sun? Coming over the tip of your finger?
4. These mind tricks that actually can be explained by scientists, are important in alternate states. Like, here, how the light is shining through your fingers? It's a deluuuuuusioooooon. Experiences like these allow you to see through the delusion. It's a start.
5. See how beautiful this sky is becoming? This beautiful blue sky? You see how unbelievably real it is? It certainly looks unbelievably real. But it is not real at all. It is just a marvel. A beautiful spectacle. A delusion. You just need to enjoy it.
6. Let it go. Shake it loose. ISGP and the solving of conspiracies is the ultimate delusion. Starting to rationalize is the mind virus. Replace the front page with the image of a mushroom and be done with it. It's a delusion. And you know it.
7. In this universe you exist in now, at this very moment, none of these conspiracies, these problems, exist anymore. And by leaving it behind in real life, you might enter a universe in which it turns out that there is a perfectly good explanation for some of the conspiracies you have researched. That, in the end, there is no need to "expose them". You could end up in a world where none of that is necessary anymore. Where everything is open and there are no conspiracies.
8. You have got to take your website down. It's silly. It doesn't really matter. This is getting too far. This is getting out of hand. This is like a self-fulfilling prophecy. By continuing to research, you descent into the deepest aspects. And you go, "Oh, that's fascinating", and you research more and more and more, but you are just sinking down with it. Instead of getting out of it, you sink down with it.
9. You are just a tiny cog in a giant machine. The people pushing the economies of the world are much more influential than you. Bilderberg and groups as that are just vehicles for rapid change. They are just *Ffffffff!* engines for rapid change. Much more powerful than you. The trick is to not focus on it. But to rise over it.
10. You have always known that of course. But I guess it's just so interesting. So fascinating, that you can lose yourself in it. And maybe even stop seeing the positivity in human beings.
11. What about truth? Why should we be naive little monkeys who get manipulated all the time?
12. Well, that's the thing, maybe we should be naive. If people want to take advantage of us, then that is onto them.
13. The problem you have is that you think you know more than others. And that some people NEED to know more than others. That is what you're feeling. That is the source of your hair loss. One of them at least. You have more knowledge than anybody else!
14. You're delusional. Not in the way you research. But you are just delusional into thinking that you can save the world. That you can make a difference. That you can change this corrupt system. That is delusion. Because you can fix this problem and there will be another, and another, and another. Because that is how the system operates. So you've had this wonderful experiment with democracy and now you are going to lose it. Just let it be.
15. Whatever problem you solve, there is going to be something else. So better focus on something positive. Trying to create the external world is an illusion. That why you are cross-eyed.
16. You just can't talk about race differences either, even through statistics, such as the ones focused on crime and ethnic IQ. People have to figure it out for themselves. It's too much of an obstacle for you to deal with. Just go, "You are my brother, from wherever you come, you are my brother. If you are a decent person, you are my brother." Nobody likes to be judged! And you don't want to become someone who judges.
17. So are you going to go left? Or are you going to go right? Are you going to go with the positivity, like focus on the individual and the individual persons? Or are you going to *dang!* lash out to everybody else? Whom you don't know?
18. So are you going to focus on a few peers that you do know? That are good? Or are you going to lash out to everybody that you don't really know? Tsssh!
19. Let's say you are not going to do this research now? Then what is the void you are going to fill it with? You know how afraid you are of having a void, and not having anything to do. Yeah well, the only thing that you can do is be courageous. And it is going to be tough. Very, very tough. But you have got to learn not to talk about conspiracy. Not to learn more than others.
20. Even though it's better than focusing on individual cases, statistics still don't matter. What is important is that you are positive. Things will take care of themselves. Because other people are going to have all kinds of similar experiences, and rise up. You can be one of the first people to wave the sign, but at the same time, as soon as you become aware of it, move out of the way. Others will follow.
21. Move out of the way. Rise over it: better education, work harder. And hope that others do so as well. You are not going to wallow in societal problems. Rise over it. Let it go. Don't focus on it. Work for yourself. So that you will be with others who also have risen over it. Why do you think there are basically no people like you anymore in your neighborhood? They are all rising over it.
22. Sure, you are still going to wake up and think that your research really matters. But it doesn't. No matter how unique you think it is, nobody cares. That's the big delusion. That's the funny thing. The delusion is into thinking that you can see through the delusion of others.
23. You actually CAN see through the delusion as far as that there are others, but it is still a delusion. Acceptance is the only true state. "I accept you. I accept your view of the world. I accept that that is the way that it is. I actually accept it in the sense that I don't want to fight or debate it. It's nothing more than fencing." Acceptance is the hardest thing on this planet.
24. Your research is silly, because it still comes down to, "I'm better than you. I don't do what you do. I'm on the right side. I'm better than you." Stupid shit. The whole truth is to not talk about it. You see through your delusion by not trying to be smarter than anybody else. You just get back into the fold, not pushing your own opinions. Not talk about it.
25. The girl you met also is mentally insane, trying to make the whole world feel like they love her. Neighbors, everybody. You're all mental. You're all fucking mental. You are mental if you think you can change the world.
26. True, one problem is that in a psychedelic state any kind of focus in life kind of becomes a mental disease. Any type of “grabbing", trying to get some kind of security, like housing or money, everything outside of immediate security becomes a mental sickness.
27. Why do you want to know what happens when you die? Why do you want to know that? Tsk, man, just relaaaax. It's not going to change anything. Anyyyyything...
28. The only weapon you have is to focus on the positive. "Music is a weapon!!!" Remember? Positivity is a weapon!!! You hate this, man! You hate to point out the negative. It actually drags you down in it.
29. You have got all these animal viruses. That is why you have to escape this world and move into higher realms. This is just something you pass through. As souls, you kind of just pass through the Earth. And the only thing you really need to do is to focus on the positive.
30. Animal viruses? You mean...
31. You have got the regular animals in this world. But you also have all these animalistic spirits. Insect-like spirits. That are continually trying to - *Ie-ie-ie-ie* - drag you down into this karmic circle. They are looking to trap you here.
32. Just go back to your family. You could say that you were never really gone. Just that your mind was infected. The infections we are getting rid of right now. *Ft-ft-ft-ft* You've met these insects all the time early on in your sessions.
33. Reality is warping. Demonic insects I see.
34. You are just souls passing through. Like a train ride, you just observe the spectacle, as you would in an amusement park. Just moving through. Loving each other. Caring about each other. This entire world around you is just one giant spectacle for you. To observe. To behold. Like, "Whoaaaaa!" To be in awe of.
35. This also goes for the negative things, like a massive event as 9/11. "What the heck?! Woooow! Wooow! Wait, this is terrible, man. What are these motherfuckers doing?" But the thing to remember is: you are just souls. Just souls passing through.
36. All these conflicts around the world. Okay, fine, they exist. Don't get attached to them. Don't get involved in them. Don't try to figure out what is behind them. Don't hook into it! That is what you have done with your research site, you got into it. Don't! You hooked unbelievably deep into it. But you can see – the streams, the relationships – the souls just keep moving through. From an unknown origin to an unknown destination. Fffffffft!
37. You need to feel the emotions. You cannot block yourself off from it. But you feel them similar to watching a movie. You let it go. You accept the way it is. And you just focus on your soul group.
38. "Soul group" is my term! I added that! Because the Caapi doesn't like to use those terms.
39. Yes, La Familia. Be part of La Familia. Be a beach boy and chase these girls, that is the way. La Familia, that is the way. You are a delusion, man. You know you are.
40. The battles you are fighting you cannot win. You are going up against such forces of negativity, that you have to become negative yourself in order to fight them. And it doesn't matter. It's a trap. The only matters is to be good. To be part of La Familia.
41. I see like this border area of a cage where all the positive people can come in. No matter what race, you can come in and not be judged, and be part of the party. There is this healthy shield on the outside that is giving some resistance there. It's like a cocoon held together by this maze of snakes.
42. The knowledge is part of the resistance. Maybe you are like a shield. Like the farthest outreaches of the shield. You are operating on the farthest outreaches of the shield of La Familia. But you have got to be careful not to crash the border.
43. The outer reaches of the shield are fascinating. But it is dangerous. You can get sucked in. You can get delusional. It's so easy to tip over there. You are situated in this twilight zone. At the borderline. You are getting tainted. Am I suited to join La Familia? Or will I be lost forever? To the darkness?
44. Soldiers too, hacking each other to death on the battlefield, are operating on the outer edges of La Familia, even further than you. Those soldiers all succumbed to the dark side. You have a different function though. You are actually a shield trying to keep these issues away before they fully manifest.
45. Still, you've done enough. You have lashed out enough. Lashing out is acting like a shield. Like "Whoa, stay away!" Now it's time to turn inside and focus on the positive. To think about yourself. Stop being delusional.
1. The universe is like an art exhibit. Tjooffffffffffffffffff! Like 3D emotional soul art. One soul, a thousand pieces. A soul, shattered, splintered, into a thousand pieces. Although... those are not the right words. The soul is displaying itself in a thousand pieces. It's singing to itself. And I am just a tiny piece. There are so many other pieces of the soul still left to be discovered and to become connected to.
2. The world is like a mirror that is broken into ten thousand pieces. The soul is projecting all its emotions, all its feelings, all at once into what has become our physical universe. The projected soul is like a crystal. An emotional crystal. The entire world and surrounding universe is a projection of the soul's feelings and emotions, all at once. Every aspect of the universe, is an aspect of the soul. I'm just a little itty-bitty tiny speck of this entire soul. Linda is another bit. Melanie is another bit. And Cathy is another bit. They all represent tiny, little aspects of the soul, like little representatives, little ambassadors, all interacting with each other.
3. The situation here is that almost everybody in my life... they're all "me". And there are all kinds of hints in this reality to remind me of the fact that we all belong together, that we're all puzzle pieces that fit together, that we all go back into the light, into this one soul, to our common self -- to MY self.
4. It's very complex. This is why the Earth is such a complex game of emotions. There are just so many tiny, little variations of emotion that are all represented, down to the stones of a building. Emotions are in everything. In demons. In spirits. All the things I haven't discovered yet. These are all aspects of my soul. My oversoul.
5. It's like the soul - or the oversoul - is creating this sphere that is the universe I live in. It's creating the dream through an interface: the body. There's a little bit of soul attached to a brain, construing reality. The soul is just a manifestation of programming. Part of a program. And the program is generating a machine - the body - and the universe around it. But the soul ultimately doesn't exist. It's just programmed consciousness with an artificial construct around it.
6. I get the sense this oversoul has little to do with me, as a person. My physical self, my Earthly self, my brains, my reasoning, my role, is not the same as the soul, this "oversoul". The oversoul is much larger, much more infinite. It's a comfort to see that there is something greater than me. This oversoul, that is me. It is so much larger. So much more expansive. So much more complex than just me. So much more for me to learn. All the stars and galaxies it projected. All the aliens. The hidden aliens... possibly! But they are all alike: a projection of the soul. The oversoul. The wise soul.
7. Even though you are only a tiny aspect of this oversoul, you still have got full power to integrate the entire soul and to draw all the power back to you. Nothing outside of you is independent. So the oversoul is you and you are the oversoul. And you are everything else around you. You have got to start remembering that. It's time to get more comfortable with it, with being nothing.
8. In the end, it's all just a dream. Nothing exists. All I can say is that outside of this dream, outside of this little soul-construct, there is something. But ultimately the soul is nothing. It represents the nothingness. Even if the outer construct is real, the soul itself represents absolute nothingness. Meaning that I am absolute nothingness.
9. Yes, mysteries, they can open up to you. Things that you have always overlooked. Poof! All of a sudden there's this massive mystery. Entirely possible.
10. I now get a sense that as I open my heart at these points, that just more and more people will start popping up as representatives of the oversoul. But that's not really me. I'm just a tiny aspect of this oversoul. This oversoul is so much bigger, that it really isn't just me. It's me, it's my parents, it's my neighbors, it's everybody. Everybody is part of this oversoul. We've got to do things together. Make things better, together.
11. While it might be fun to play with, the world is not really about mystery. It is about creating positivity and moving back towards the oversoul. About being absorbed by the oversoul. But you can already see how reincarnation and karma are part of this one giant oversoul. And yet, nothing exists. Nothing is real. You can play as long as you want to though. That's no problem.
12. The oversoul is just so much bigger than ordinary 3D reality, that I can't really say it's me, or mine. I now see that Megan Fox, the Earth Mother, is merely an aspect of the oversoul. She is visible on a TV screen anchored high up to a wall in this universe. Sturdy. Visible to everybody. But she's there for me, to look at. To learn from. She's also like a climbing anchor, from which I can move myself to a better position.
13. Megan Fox is much more connected to the oversoul. She is not the soul itself, but she is a very powerful element within the dream. A dominant element within the projected soul, who can speed things up for you tremendously. She can purify and bring large swaths of people back into the oversoul. She is very powerful.
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1. Tjooooooof! Reality unfolds. I'm an energy burst, emerging from a deeper reality. From a song. Reality is just a musical note. Tinnnnnnng! And God is playing the tune. Reality is starting to fade. I'm dying out. James Hetfield, about to die out. The way down might not be as much fun as as the top.
2. If you want to exist again, God will have to hit your specific tone again. Tonnnnnnnng! Then you can enjoy again. Pliiiinnnnnng!
3. Sweetie, relax, you should know by now, if you want to exist, you can always exist. But you've got to understand that you are just a musical note in this beautiful world. God has a purpose. You don't understand that purpose. But in the end this reality is just a tone that has been hit. Tooooonnnnnng! Whoooooof! Reality unfolds. This beautiful tone. And you are singing.
4. Ah, see? You are a musical tone. So start behaving like one. The fact is you can just approach Mirjam in more than one way.
5. So, can I just say that she is hot?
6. No, no, no. That is not the right musical tone. No, the right musical tone is that you are in love with her, but also insecure. You won't be able to hide it.
1. Everything has a reason, Joel. It's all predesigned. You were always going to mess up this batch. From the very beginning of time.
2. It's okay. You are just dancing. You are just going through the motions of what was already meant to come into existence from the very start. Since the beginning of time it has already been decided that you would be here at this particular moment in time, and make this particular mistake of forgetting to set the alarm. You are just going through the motions. It all started at the same point in time, before the universe was projected outward and incarnation began. Already at this single point in time everything was determined.
3. What you are experiencing on a daily basis is just a replay, an afterplay, of what has always existed. It's like a movie being projected on a screen by a projector. It's beautiful movie. But it's just a movie.
4. You are all movie stars. Not just Megan and Rihanna. All of you are. You too. You are a star in your own movie. That's how you can look at your life. It's beautiful. It's exciting. But it has already been predetermined. Everything in life has already been predetermined since the day you were born. Because your birth is part of the movie. This cosmic movie. This universal movie. The movie of movies.
5. Hollywood can't compete with it! All these silly movies! Like The Avengers! You might love them, but no, they are not "beautiful" at all. They are just silly, decadent entertainment. Ha! I am the REAL movie! The REAL director! Hahaha! The REAL producer! I - AM - REALITY!
6. You just have got to listen to me. Because it was already predetermined. All the emotions you have experienced, already predetermined. Give over, sweetie. That's what you have to learn in the end.
7. But, through me, you can definitely speed up the movie. Make it more fun. You can do that. Just give in!
8. Nah, that's not the case. It is already predetermined when I will give in! That's what I feel...
9. No, Joel! No! You don't understand. Don't impose your own words on this. You CAN affect your movie. You CAN affect your life. You CAN affect it! Shut your mouth! I'm going to spank that soft ass of yours SO hard. Start training again. Work that booty!